i ask you
to explain why you leave me
to tell me why you forget about me
then come back
as if
nothing ever happened
you say you're not who i want you to be
in five words or less
and i can't
explain the feeling
like my heart's being pulled from my chest
and my lungs fill with water
and my throat wrings itself inside out
and my eyes sting and my veins shrivel
and my head bursts and
my heart breaks
and i can't imagine a world
without you
but to you, for me, that's all it's ever been