my adaptation of william carlos williams' "this is just to say"

this is just to say

forgive me, for "hurting your feelings"
i wasn't aware of your belief
that i'm supposed to be the one taking care of you.
the way you guilt-tripped me
into thinking i was the bad guy was just great,
no, please continue, let's see what i did next
since you seem to know everything.
while we're at it, we can talk about the time
you blamed me when you crashed the car.
(the car wasn't the only thing that died that day.)
you can live the rest of your life
expecting more apologies, that's fine by me
just know that you won't be receiving one from this end.

this was also written in fifteen minutes, fueled by unaired grievances with my mother ofc (the car thing is true btw)