Back in the 60s

Jude's POV

As I recalled myself of our ever first encounter which was 5 years ago as well. I can perfectly memorise those embarrassing, howsoever, adorable moments between us. They truly meant a lot to me except bringing me delirious happiness and pleasure, rendering me to blush especially in front of my crush.

I fell asleep as soon as I started to daydream about the happened, sensing my face cupped in two warm, besides tender palms, soothing me. 

A half an hour later, I fell asleep too deeply, feeling how my shoulders were rocked, muttering my name "Jude, Jude! Sweetheart, wake up!". His British accent was amongst one of my weaknesses, admitting it frankly. 

Once I abroached my shutted eyes, blinking, the first thing what I saw after waking up from the short abysmal sleep was Timothy's chocolate eyes staring at my delighted smile and already opened eyes with his genuine smile, stretching his lips. My both hands cupped his face instantly, looking directly at his eyes with love and glee.

-Jude, you fell asleep. I was concerned for you! - Tim uttered worried by kissing my forehead in sweet way.

-I know, sweetie! Sorry for that. 

-No problem, everything is fine!

-I had the tremendous feeling that I have slept 3 hours at least. - I exclaimed horrified, having the feeling that I woke up in the middle of the night in Timothy's presence, being resisted, thanks to him.

-No, silly! You have slept a half an hour only.- He giggled, thereafter enforcing my usual giggle.Moreover, he mocked me in ungrave way.

-Oh really?*rubbing my eyes like a newborn baby* What time is it now, dear?- I questioned insecurely with a broad smile whilst watching his precious face. 

-*glancing at the clock, hanging on the wall* It is 11:45PM.- He answered lucidly. It is quite amusing that he didn't get drunk of just one glass of champange.

-15 minutes until Christmas and midnight! Wooohooo!- Squealing in euphoria, being extremely gleeful and impatient until midnight, showing my infant side of my character. Tim showed euphoric mood, in spite of not getting up from the sofa, high fiving.

-Yes, Judy! Only 15 more minutes until the miracle. - He stated with louder than the usual, besides fevered voice.

Then we calmed down by twittering like babies due to our impatience and rejoice. 15 seconds later, the laughter faded out, just gaping at each other's faces in affectionate and blissful way, the room was blanketed in lurking silence. We decided to play one smart game by expressing our confessions which should be acknowledged until midnight when it will be the time to wish each other "Merry Christmas!", jumping and spinning around the living room like hysterical little children who had received as a Christmas present ponies and stuffed dolls; further, rushing to the Christmas tree by opening by ourselves the gifts that we have bought for each other earlier today. 

-Who starts first with the confession?- I asked puzzled, raising an eyebrow whilst staring at his amorous chocolate brown eyes that are filled with lust, affection, concerness and joy.

-How about you, Jude? I am stepping out of the podium, giving my place to you. Truly deserved!

-Aww, that is really kind of your side! Thank you, Tim! But aren't you supposed to be the first person who should admit its avowal? 

-You are welcome. *sighing sharply* Come on, Judy! The ladies first. I am patient anyway.

-Aww! Okay. I am starting.*Tim nod his head in this moment* Well, as you already remember our first encounter back in September 1959 like me...I am never going to forget this day...the day when we saw each other in face-to-face by shaking each other's hands for first time, uttering the first words between us, Mother Claudia had chosen me as a sister to guide and tour you around and inside Briarcliff, therefore speaking to each other in my office by finishing the encounter with an invitation on a private dinner from you by seperating with a tight,warm and kind hug.*exhaling and inhaling in the same time with rapture, widening its smile, kneading gently with my thumb his left cheek by gaping at his eyes, staring right at his soul* God made us for each other and it was estimated in the beginning that we are rendered for each other, no matter what we had been through in the past. It was pretty obviously initially how much do you care for me, demonstrating your affection and frank kindness, darting my heart like a cupidon with its heart arrow, conquering my heart like a prince, a sacred prince, sent from God to rescue me from my eerie past.*sheding a tear* You didn't know how madly in love I fell and how I felt the first time when we met each other...it was such unbelievable moment, to be honest! Ever in my life! One true miracle after the grief and pain that I am struggling to deal with yet, eating me alive though I am attempting to survive, without thinking about the gloomy times. I am not only grateful for rescuing me from Briarcliff and keeping your promise to leave this insane place, furthermore you care for me, being interested to listen to my personal stories and experience when it's joint a word either a tragedy or something else. I have never shared on more abysmal level about my personal life with exception of you and a few more people who are amidst the most trustworthy people, in my opinion! Meanwhile, I have never fallen insanely in love until nowadays. Casey failed, my former one night stand lovers failed too...they have failed to invade my heart and vice versa. They aren't you, they aren't like you, Tim! Remember that, sweetie! Even when I forgave you for what you have done to me due to your happily forsaken motive to become a Pope, selfishness and your viridity which used to be smitten by that...*sobbing peacefully whilst Timothy cupped my face, stroking my head like a puppy, whispering to me "Jude, please don't cry,  sweetie!"* used to be an innocent child Sister Mary Eunice who got possessed by the devil himself, turning her into a grotesque...an incarnation from the pure innocence into a sinister monster who yearns for nothing more than revenge on the people who had always supported and loved her, regardless her innocence, stupidity and lack of experience compared to her older colleagues. In spite of your mistakes, my forgiveness is still worth, recognizing the ginormous change in you from the egoistical and goofy Monsignor into a loving, recking, gracious, candid and unique gentleman who made me rather happy, ensuring happiness, warmness, roof and everything else which gratify my primary and secondary needs. Additionally, you make me smile every time when I see or hear your voice...fulfilling my day with hallowed light and felicity. For which I am deliriously grateful! Just my heart tells me with storming voice "You just cannot leave or dump Timothy, despite the things he had caused to you!"*imitating the echo* You know what, darling?* he inquired with a simple "What?", wearing a confident and wide smile, his fingertips brushing against my cheeks' skin delicately* I love you very much most of all! -I began to narrate my confession, lecturing like a famous but controversial politician with its brilliant speech skills and undoubted intelligence and stamina. Every word that was peeled from my mouth, it was cordial, filled with the emotions which are coming from the bottom of my heart. I couldn't help to smile whilst my long lectural confession. 

-Aww, that is...*snivelling in blissful way, feeling my cheeks even warmer like a heater* utterly adorable and breathtaking to listen to your voice, shooting per a word, expressing your confession which I adore so much! I cannot believe what I heard until this moment, my rara avis! Don't you know how it touched me and made me significantly cheerful, do you?*I murmured with a plain "Yes?!" with vague, howsoever, velvet voice* Good, sweetie! If you listen to my confession, you are going to feel the same like me, Judy. 

-Of course, I have the monstrous wish to listen to your confession! Go ahead, darling!- I insisted slightly avidly with a sweet infantile grin.

-Okay so...*taking a deep breath, exhaling and inhaling, thus ending the retrospection* When we met each other 5 years ago, one of the best days in my life actually...it changed my life forever, seeing my ray of sunshine glowing among the other responsible, hardworking and sympathetic nuns who didn't make me to fall in the hole of thought provocation unlike you, Jude! As a man who had scarcely being in a relationship with the beloved person of my life, definitely having lack of experience and being scared to hop up in a relationship with every woman for whom my sympathy and liking was on moderate level at least. Fearing of being neglected, hated and perceived in the incorrect way by the person who is next to me! Moreover, I was concetrating on my dedication to the career as a priest until I met you, God echoing to me that you are the right person to be my right hand as a Monsignor and nun to work along, collaborating in the name of God, the church and religion. As opposed to the other past possible suggestions of women or girls to be in relationship with them, you are the only woman who overpowered my heart by not fearing to express the real myself, aiding me to be myself, discovering my softer and more true side. Like you, I am never going to put behind the memory which happened exactly on 13th of September, 1959. The fatal 13th! When it could be believed as a superstition which is interpreted as a fatal day except of the unluckiness itself with exceptions apparently. For example, it was for both of us one of the luckiest days in our lives...two souls who don't know yet if they are either to for each other yet or not exactly, are secretly made for each other in such arcane and unexplainable way which cannot be described by either of us. I love plenty and diversity traits of yours since the first day when I fell in love with you and by all means they are actually your courage, honesty, not afraiding to speak your mind even if it is absolutely inappropiate and fugly, your kindness, soft side, loving and caring nature as a woman who has still the chance to become a mother or have her own family, at least.*noticing a couple of tears, dropping like a waterfall down her precious smooth cheeks by wiping them with my thumb, reassuring her with the majestic words "Babydoll, please don't cry! I truly mean that you have chance yet. It is never too late." which calmed her down like a toddler who had already earned attention from his/her lovely parents* You aren't a terrible person, Jude! It is desperately understanding what you have been through and why you used to be "The Iron Lady" of Briarcliff, running the instituion under the command of your steel hand. You tried your best and put a lot of efforts to help to those patients who have still hope to live their own lives but being required to be cured. Because I appreciate and admire your efforts and hardwork that you have put in your work, Judy! On top of that, you are attractive, doubtlessly the most beautiful woman that I have ever seen in my entire life. You deserve the whole world and love including all delights of this world...only for you and pressumably for our future child...*sheding a tear once again, thereafter wiping it mellowly with a genuine smile, calming her down, holding her face like she is the only treasure that is in my hands and once it is gone, my life is completed* I am never going to forgive myself for what I have all done to you in the past weeks when I changed your name, fired you from your position as a nun and messed all this stuff in case, you know. I realised my mistake a little after we got rid off Mary Eunice who didn't deserve it, nonetheless she was destined due to her unholy soul. You have already fascinated me right from the first day, making me to smile every time when I see you or even I hear your voice. When I saw how brittle are you though hiding under the mask of the strict and conservative nun, you unlocked naturally my instincts to be caring and affectionate towards you. I knew back then you deserve a strong arm on your fragile...small shoulder that supports you in overwhelmed situations and moments. As well, I love for who you are, accepting for what are you really. With every day I was falling more and more in love with you, sweetheart! *kissing my forehead* Eventually, all I can say in a few words though I am careless if you are either not a virgin anymore, slept with plenty of men in the past or have done something else which remains in the lurking past, I love you very very much to bones! Forever, Judy! - Timothy began with tranquility, howsoever, the tension and emotions grew like he is singing an emotional balad or love song to me. I am astonished and touched by his words, beholding his inner and outer beauty which has already been exposed into my eyes. His confession truly means a lot to me, in fact he changed drastically, exposing a new himself which is the much better version of him- a true gentleman with his own principes who cares for the lady next to him instead of his essential needs.

-Awww! *bawling helplessly in gleeful way, being extremely touched by what I have just heard, crawling slowly closer to him, my head resting on his muscular chest that was layered with a mere shirt, one of his hands touching, cupping my apart of my head, kissing my forehead whilst his another hand was wrapped around my shoulder, soothing me, my both hands touching his forearm* That left me speechless! I just don't know what to say, although it is not rather enough to express my true thoughts on it. It is uniquelly adorable and sweet of your side in the same time. How sincerely of your side! Thank you a lot, darling! Especially a handful minutes before midnight.

-You don't need to thank me, sweetie! You are always welcome. I am always here for you. Whenever you need me, I am coming. I know how do you feel! *drowning into the silence of the tic-tacing clock whilst the fireplace's flames were dancing, warming the living room like a romantic sanctuary* Because I feel the same either too. 

To be continued...