I don't remember most of Friday. Not because it's been at least a month, but other stuff. You are going to think I am the stupidest person alive. When I went to Carly's we watched Netflix for a little. After a while she asked of you could put make up on me cause we were getting bored and I said yes because I really didn't care, still don't. We went to one of her friends house. No actually it was her on and off boyfriend. He's into drugs and so is sage. They love each other, you can tell by looking at them. But they always cheat on each other and, it's horrible, at least in my opinion. But it doesn't matter I guess. I can't help what they do. But we had gone to his house and he was having a party and shit. Sage immediately was pulled somewhere by someone, so I had been left to sit awkwardly in a dark corner. I knew something was going to happen like that. After a couple hours Sage had come back and she was high. She had been laughing with Her boyfriend, and then she had looked at me, stared for a moment and then she had grinned. She grabbed a brownie that I hadn't trusted to be near me, she had walked to me and literally shoved the brownie in my mouth and told me I had better swallow it. I had nothing to lose so I had thought fuck it. I ate a fucking pot brownie. I kinda blacked out and a couple hours later I had found myself on top of the roof smoking. Alone. I had felt tears running down my face and I still don't know why. Maybe it was because I didn't know where sage was, or maybe I had listened to a sad song or, if I was sad because I felt empty, alone again. I had sat there for maybe an hour or so crying. Just crying and thinking. Until I decided to text sage and tell her I was leaving, she never answered, but I had left anyway I went back to her house and fell asleep and she was back in the morning so it was whatever.
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