The teaser about the premier will be live soon. I stare at the blinking cursor on my phone. I swear it's mocking me. There's a heaviness holding me back and I can't seem to lessen the weight. I need to get over myself. This could be a game changer for Dad and The Orbit. Chase needs to get out of my head.

"Lennox dear you look lost over there."

Alexa and I are lounging in the backyard. It's a beautiful clear summer day without a cloud in the sky. We are shaded by the umbrella and sitting poolside on the freshly stained wooden deck.

"It's this whole premier thing," I say. "Dad deserves this, and yet I'm still hesitant to allow my famous life to boil over to my private one."

Alexa watches me closely. She reaches out and takes my hand. I hate that I'm baring my soul to her, like always. She's been such an understanding friend through all of it.

"You are doing a great thing for your dad. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it will be good for you too."

I suck on my bottom lip. She's one hundred percent right. This isn't the end of the world, and I can get through this.

"Why don't we talk about something else?" She offers.

I need to put my big girl panties on and just post it.

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT COMING! STARLIEN FANS YOU AREN'T GOING TO WANT TO MISS THIS ONE. #LOOKTOTHESTARS

I upload a photo of the cast, tag them, and use hashtags to help bring attention to the post. As I'm closing everything out on the phone, attempting to erase Starlien from my mind, Rachael sends me a text.

Rachael: So, should we start a countdown or something? I can't freaking believe I'm seeing you in a few weeks. This is insane. I miss you and I can't wait to hug you!

The smile on my face hurts. Meeting Rachael was one of the only good parts of moving out to L.A.

"Tell Rach I can't wait to see her," Alexa says.

Alexa and Rachael got to know each other whenever Alexa would come out and visit. The three of us would always go out together. I love that they bonded. Rachel responds to Alexa with a bunch of heart emojis.

I put the phone under the lounge chair so that I can be without it for a few.

"So, about Friday..."

Lowering my sunglasses, I stare at her. She sits up in her lounge chair and spins to face me. I know exactly where this conversation is going and it's making me uncomfortable.

"What about it?"

I close my eyes letting my body soak up the warmth of the sun.

"You and Max..."

"Max and I aren't anything," I say. "We are hardly even friends."

Alexa snorts. "Did you see the way he placed his hand on your lower back to guide you out of the theater? How about the way he looks at you when you are not paying attention?"

I laugh. "Yeah, it's the look of hatred."

She's being ridiculous. Alexa smirks and then babbles on about how she thinks Max has a crush on me. I try to ignore her ridiculous theory, but in the back of my mind I know the look she means. Before I can say something, Elli comes skipping out of the sliding glass doors with his swimsuit on. Dad strolls out after him in his suit as well. They have Elli in lessons and now all he wants to do is swim.

"Just swim, just swim," Elli says.

He zooms past so fast all I see is a flash of orange. Dad catches up to Elli before he gets close to the pool edge and lifts him up.

"Just swimming. Ex!"

"Looking good Mr. T," Alexa calls out.

Dad waves over at her and then continues to keep an eye on Elli. Dad used to always say that Alexa was our version of Kimmy Gibbler.

"Oh Lennox, are you good to go live tomorrow," Dad asks. "And can you twitter to your fans too?"

"It's Tweet, Mr. Taylor," she says.

"Sorry Alexa, I'm not up to date on the lingo you kids use today. I remember when the number symbol was only just a number symbol."

"God Dad, you're old."

Alexa laughs. "I hope you don't kick me out of your top five on MySpace."

Alexa and I were too young for that era, but that doesn't mean we don't have a clue as to what it was. Dad and Walker are always talking about how "cool" MySpace was back in the day.

He chuckles. "You'll never make my top five."

"Ouch, way to burn me Mr. T," she says.

***

After Alexa leaves, I head upstairs to relax and clear my head. I sneak a quick peek at the Instagram page to see if fans have tried to guess what my post was about. Out of all the comments and replies, Chase's is on top.

TheRealCDawson: Do I get to drop some hints?

I only reply, because I feel like I need to keep up appearances for the sake of Dad's theater. I write back that we need to make the fans keep guessing. Thanks to Chase, Dad's page now has more than seven thousand followers. Even though half of them are not from New York, that's still amazing. I feel good about what I've done for The Orbit.

A message pops up on my phone. It's like he's torturing me. I wonder if he knows what he's doing — who am I kidding, of course he does, he's Chase Dawson. Surprisingly the sight of his name doesn't make me want to drop to my knees, it only annoys me.

Chase: Can I call you later this week? I really need to talk.

I'd almost forgotten about the text from Chase I received on the Fourth of July. I've been trying my hardest to ignore it. It was working, until now.

Me: Ok.

I don't write anything else because it's all I can think to say. I do one last check of Instagram, and just as I'm about to click on log out I notice a new notification. It's a DM from VGMaster.

VGMaster_10: An announcement, huh? Curious to see what it is.

My heart feels happy for some reason. All thoughts of Chase vanish. I pray that it's because the healing process has begun.

Orbit_TheaterLI: I thought you hated Starlien?

I add an emoji with its tongue sticking out.

VGMaster_10: Okay, confession: I started re-watching the series. A friend of mine influenced me to watch it again.

If only all the haters would give it a second chance, they'd see that it's not all that bad. I get that it's not what everyone likes, but some people just hate on it because they can. It baffles me that people are like that.

VGMaster_10: Confession #2: It's growing on me.

I send a whole row of smiling emojis. I'm starting to like this person even more. We talk for a bit about random things before jumping back into Starlien.

Orbit_TheaterLI: Ah, that's when the romance blooms.

VGMaster_10: I can't believe it took them 3 seasons to figure out their feelings for each other. What kind of show is this? They went through so many arcs that weren't in the book. It pushed back the love story.

That was a major complaint that I had when I first read the script. I wasn't the only one, a lot of the fans of the original books were pissed too. The slow burn was a great way to drag out the show, but maybe it was too slow.

Orbit_TheaterLI: I do sort of agree with you. Shocker, we almost don't agree again. LOL! In the books they fall in love a lot faster.

The characters in the story battle with their feelings from page one. Jake, Chase's character has many internal battles within himself about falling for an alien. While my character, Andi, has trouble accepting that someone of another species could truly love her.

Orbit_TheaterLI: Just wait till season 5, I'm not going to spoil anything.

He sends over a sad crying face, and I laugh.

"Lennox, Dinner!" Dad calls from downstairs.

I type a quick message telling him to keep me updated on his progress, and he tells me he plans on binging all night.

After my conversation with VGMaster I almost feel ready to take on this premier. After the day I've had, I decide to leave my phone upstairs and forget about social media altogether. I want to forget about Chase, Max, and the premier. I'm going to focus on what's right in front of me, my family. An evening unplugged is just what I need.