I am at the end of the rope. I can't deal with my depression anymore. Before I would just live through it without complaining too much. At this moment, I can't stand my weaknesses. All this these reason why my life is in a corner at the moment. I hate myself for being so weak against my addiction. Maybe if I never tried drugs, my life could have been more relevant to my future. Right now, all I think about is the next joint coming soon. This need i feel for the joint is getting so strong that I really want to stop for good. Actually, I have tried couple of time to stop this repetition of my life but I have always comeback to the same thing again.