(I'm sorry but I finished Inuyasha about a week ago but I've gotten so lazy. Anyways this is really depressing and sad so if I make you cry I'm sorry but I planned some of it a while and I don't want to go back on it. Enjoy?)

Lucy's POV

Every pair had a cabin now. Everyone was currently working on signs for above the doorway. Anyways, Natsu has been bugging me every day. About why I'm not perfect. I-I think I'll tell him tonight, in private. It was already getting late. We had dinner about two hours ago. I think I'll tell him when he's done playing with Happy. I continue writing in my journal until I hear the wooden door slam open. "YOSH! I WON! IN YOUR FACE HAPPY!" I hear a hiss. "Don't give me that! I won fair and square Happy!" I giggle and set down my pen. "So...You won this time Natsu? Usually Happy wins." Happy meows and jumps on my shoulder. Natsu flops down on his sleeping bag. I take a deep breath. "I'll tell you." I see him widen his eyes and he jumps up. "R-really? Are you sure?" I sigh and fold my hands together, Happy nuzzling my cheek. "Y-you don't have to force yourself" I feel my eyes go dull. "No, I have to get past this now or its never." Happy jumps in my lap and curls into a ball. I take another deep breath and start. "It started when I was seven."

"I was seven when my mom died. We were all devastated. My father grew distant and never talked to me for at least a year. The servants kept me company though. But on my eighth birthday....H-he said he had a 'special present'. After he didn't talk to me about a year, of course I was excited. I ignored the maids' concerns and did what he asked. So I went to his office, had some tea with him only to find out the tea was drugged." I bring my knees up and hug them, Happy sliding down slightly. I take a shaky breath. "I-I woke up with old men around me. I-I guess they did m-me when I was knocked out. I passed out from shock and woke up on my knees and my hands tied up to a string. That's when my father whipped me saying. 'its your fault she's dead.' or 'you were a mistake' 'if it weren't for you she would be alive still!'. After that he never did it again. Except he beat me with a baseball bat or with his fists until I was seventeen. That's when I ran away and met you. However...." I look down at Happy, ignoring Natsu's gasps and sigh. "I still suffer from PTSD so I went to therapy soon as I got out. But for years....I did this." I pull down my long sleeves to show tons of scars, of me cutting myself.

"For years I thought of killing myself. But somehow I managed. But when I met you and Happy...I had a reason to live for. I taught myself to think 'I'm not allowed to die. Natsu would kill me if I did.' I did that for years, I couldn't stop cutting but how many times I've tried! I-" Natsu tackles me. "Wh-why didn't you tell me sooner! I was always smelling blood around you but I thought nothing of it! I should've helped you sooner! I'm sorry Lucy!" I widen my eyes as I feel Natsu's tears slide down my neck. I put an arm around his waist and my free hand on the back of Natsu's head. "I'm sorry." I whisper and close my eyes while a few tears escape my eyes. "Where is he?" "Who?" I faintly feel Natsu kiss my neck once. "That bastard of a father?" I chuckle. "Dead" "How?" "I killed him" "W-wha-how-you?" I hug Natsu tighter. "You know that day I went back to the mansion after the Phantom Lord attack?" He nods. "I went back and he told me that I was a slut and he sold me off to a prince from some country. He went to kick me but...." I take a deep breath. "You don't have to say if you don't want to." "I hid a knife in my sleeve before I went in. As he went to kick me....I stabbed him multiple times. One of the maids, Spetto-san, made it so she framed herself. I tried to stop her but the other servants told me that they would protect me no matter what so they made it seem like they all stabbed him to death."

I close my eyes as Natsu goes strangely quiet. "Natsu?" "As much as I wanted to kill him you got to him first I guess." "What?" "You heard me" "I-I thought you would think I was a monster." Natsu leans up and I look into his bloodshot eyes. "I could never think you were a monster. Besides....I'm going to help you with your cutting and your PTSD." I lift an eyebrow. "Uh....Really? How?" "I don't know. Anyways putting our spectators aside-" "WHAT?!" "-You are going to sleep" "Ok?" "Good. Happy! Stay with Lucy while I go teach people about eavesdropping." Happy meows as I crawl into my sleeping bag and Natsu walks outside of the cabin. "Sleep well. Happy, wake her up if she has nightmares." Happy meows and curls up on my stomach. I feel my eyes droop down until I fall asleep.

(IM SORRY! I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD TURN OUT THIS WAY! I'll try adding comedy after this. Bye!)