Chapter 1

the way things are

Dear Diary,

Hi it's me again today was as depressing and scary as usual, let's start with when I woke up it was really sunny and I saw that my dad was asleep probably tired from last nights beating... my beating  as usual he beat me till every inch of my body was soar or their was some type of injury on me somewhere I used the make up I got from the store recently to do the best I could to hide the marks not wanting anyone to see them especially the teachers. anyway I walked into school ate breakfast and started my normal classes all was normal except that there's a new kid in school I don't remember what he said his name was but I do remember that he wore entirely purple it must be his favorite color I ended up sitting by him but due to the fact that his body shape made it clear that he was quiet strong and that's why I was so nervous not to mention scared. what scared me the most though was his  smile or was it a smirk? I couldn't exactly tell but it scared me, a lot.. The day continued much like that and reading wasn't the only class I had with him I had Gym, math, (my personal favorite class.) art, and science with him as well. I wouldn't have minded but he kept glancing over at me, I wonder if he heard the rumors... I'm sure he'll soon join the popular group and start bullying me like every body else, that's ok though I guess a little more hazing can't hurt right...? It's only one more person to worry about, right...?

I finished my Diary entry only to realize there was tear stains now on the once dry paper after I closed the book and locked it I quickly hid it under my pillow as my dad walked into my cold room he was drunk as usual. He walked toward's me as I scooted away into the corner in fear " p-ple-plea-" I was cut off as he pulled me up by the hair I winced and closed one of my eyes not wanting to be entirely aware of his actions "why do you have to be so f**king useless you little peace of sh**!!" he yelled spitting on my face as he spoke, once he slurred the last few words he threw me across the room making sure that I hit as many things he could manage. After ward he left only to return with a knife a small but slightly  sharp kitchen knife he then pinned me to the floor forcing my sweatshirt off once he managed to take off my sweater he sliced the skin on my arm with a quick messy slash and he continued like that often stopping only to tell me "there not big enough now I have to do it myself" and "if I'm lucky you might die this time!!" or other hurtful words.. I woke up and shivered slightly from the amount of blood I lost last night at the hands of my dad. After putting on my shirt, green turtle neck sweater,and of course pants and boxers I had put on the cover up make up leaving my arms alone focusing mostly on my face and neck but soon I realized oh no.. I have swimming today I soon felt a hole like feeling located in my stomach or in other words 'the butterflies' I grabbed my trunks and walked out of the door with my school supplies and swimming stuff  I started down the sidewalk toward the school. I was about a half a mile away from the school when I spotted a group of familiar faces it was a group of popular girls it wasn't the kind of girls that were really sassy no it was the kind that are really giggly rumor starting ones that either try to date someone or they poke into a couple that's dating and spread rumors I usually listen on to try and figure out or get an idea of whats going on in my fellow class mates life. I heard them talking about that new guy the one that likes purple a lot yeah, the scary one "omg! did you see that new guy he was like so totally hot!" not to mention scary "yeah what was his name?!" "I think it was something like vinlents?" they all sighed "awee.. vinlents..." I laughed I don't think that's his actual name but it's funny I wonder what his real is....? who am I kidding I'm to scared to look him in the eye let alone say something to him or anyone else for that matter  I walked into the building only to see writing on the white board that read "p-p-pl-please he-head to t-the auditorium a-after h-ho-homeroom.." I read it quietly to myself and I started to walk towards the auditorium...

((hey guys! I know I've been taking a long time to update but I finally got it up and published thank you guys who gave me some idea's I really appreciated it a lot and I would love to hear more suggestments or ideas thank you for reading!!))