It was all a blur. Horrible. I didnt expect it to be that way. He kissed me. But i pushed him away. I wasnt how i imagined it. Not like this. Not ever. It was rushed. It was rough.

Not sweet and slow. As how i imagined it to be. I hated it. I told him to leave. I sat there thinking. Who do i truely like?

Yoongi, the sweet and gentle one. Who always understands me. Thag is always there when i need him the most. Who spends sometimes all night talking to me over the phone until i sleep.

Or jungkook, my childhood friend. My first love. Thats pretty much all jungkook was for me.

Yoongi may have not been there since the begining but, i feel like i belong with him.

I sighed and went to my room closing the door locking it behind me and laying down on the bed. I looked at the ceiling like i always did when i was thinking

Who does my heart truely love? Is is jungkook? Is it yoongi? Who? I want to know if im ment to love someone or die alone. I just want to know. I need to know.

Let me know who.