PART 2..

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Just then shiva lit kapur and place them in his both the palms . He was so determined to just save his lifeline any how from the death bed .

As they lit up making his palm red due to its heat just then raavi appears in front of him .

Raavi : ehh Bhoothnath yeh tu kya kar raha hai. Pagal wagal ho gaya hai kya? Chod de use shiva tera hath jal jayega dekh kitna lal ho gaya hai.

(Shiva heard her voice and immediately looked at her pretty face 👀..)

Shiva : tuja jane se rok raha hun . Pehli kitni dafa rokna chaha per phir bhi khud per kabu kar tuja roka hi nhi aur us din jab main tera sath batamizi ki thi tab himmat nahi thi ki tuja Roku kis muh se rokta tuja itna kuch karne ke baad rokta toh voh tera liya galt hota . Ab ... Ab aur nhi hoga mujhse main aur sacrifice nahi kar sakta . Ab iss baar tuja kahi nhi jane dunga main . Main.. main yeh tab tak nhi chodunga jab tak tu mera pass sahi salamat wapis nahi aa jati chahe jo ho jaye muja ab farak nhi padhta ki mera hath jal raha hai ki nahi tu mera liya zada important hai chipkali. Tuja mera pass mera sath rehna hoga . Tera kabil banna chahta hun tera dhyan rakhna chahta hun per uske liya tuja mera pass wapis aana hi hoga warna main ...( He had tears again in his eyes..)

Raavi : tu... Tuja kaisa pata main tuj... Tujhse dur jaa rahe hun. Vese bhi tu kyun ro raha hai kyun ardas kar raha mera rukne ki . Tuja kya farak padhta hai main jiyu ya maru . Mera hona na hone se kya farak padhta hai tuja . Main toh teri mami ki bhen ki beti hun voh ladki jo tera bhai se pyar karti thi shadi karna chahti thi aur voh ladki jiske uper tuna itna bada ilzaam laga diya hai . Bhut buri hun na acha gharaane ki nhi hun na character less hun Ananth hun na toh kyun rok rahe ho muja shiva jaane do na . Tera liya toh acha hoga na voh teri sari problems dur ho jayegi sara bojh utar jayega tu hamasha ke liya Azad ho jayega mujhse phir koi hoga nhi tuja tang karne wala . Mat kar koshish muja rokne ki hat chod de apni shiva .
Acha vese ek baat toh bata tuja kaisa ehsaas ho raha hai ki main .. main waha maar rahi hun pal pal saansen tham rahi hai meri kaisa pata chal raha hai tuja bata na ?

Shiva : aye chipkali, meri chudail hai tu meri jaan meri mami ki bhen ki beti hai tu . Itni asani se thodi jane dunga tuja . Itni asani se tera peecha chod dunga kya bhul gai tu muja pisaach bulati hai . Aur pisaach esa itni jaldi peecha nhi chodne dete . Itni asani se peecha chuda ker nhi Jaana dunga tuja . Haan vese sahi bola tune muja kyun farak padh raha hai khush hona chahiye na muja toh tujhse peecha jo chut jayega agar tu chali gai toh . Per kya karun iss dil ka nahi hai khush yeh nahi hun main khush bhut tuta hua mehsoos kar raha hun ander tak chubh raha hai tera mujhse dur jana . Tu chahiya muja bilkul sahi salamat wapis one piece main. Agar tu muja wapis mil gai na toh bhut bhut se bhi zada khushi hogi muja chain mil jayega issko (pointing towards his heart ❤️) tu na meri saanson main basti hai mera har zare zare main hai saanson main aankhon main dil main dimag main dhadkan main har jagah tu hi tu hai bas tera alawa koi hai hi nahi ab iss shareer main. Bhale hi yeh shareer mera hai per atma yeh soul jo hai na voh tera hai isme jo bikhar raha hai pal pal . Toh yeh ehsaas kaisa nahi hoga . Mujha na bhut takleef ho rahi hai yaha pointing his finger on his chest again where his heart resides. Esa lag raha hai jaisa iska hazaaron lakhon tukde ho rahe hon is dil ke wakt ke sath jaisa jaisa time beet raha hai vese vese yeh astitva bhi kamzor ho raha hai . ( With tears streaming down his eyes) tum... Tum jaa rahe ho na mujhse dur hamesha humesha ke liya . Iss baar itni dur jaa rahi ho na taki main tumhe kabhi na dekh paunga na sun paunga na chu paunga bas humesha ke liya kho dunga . Mujhe... Mujhe dard dene ke liya jaa rahe ho na mujhse dur kyuki maine tumhe bhut takleef pahunchai hai . Haina isi liya jaa rahe ho na mahadev ke pass taki meri complaint personally kar sako aur muja punishment de sako .

Raavi ( smiles with tears ): shiva Sha.. shayad ... Shayad mera ... Tera ... Humara sath ab yahi tak tha . Mera wakt aa gaya hai . Shayad yahin tak thi humari zindagi ek dusre ke sath .. shayad humara woh sath pura ho gaya hai . Mera ... Mera parents muja bula rahe hai shiva unhe meri zarurat hai ab shayad unko meri yaad aa rahi hai.
Bhut kuch kehna tha tujhse per shayad ab kabhi nahi keh paungi ( tears rolled down her cheeks wetting them ) . Main bhi toh tuja kabhi nahi dekh paungi na sun paungi teri yeh pyari si awaz na chu paungi na pakad paungi tera yeh biceps ko joh meri adaton main shamil hai bachpan ki adat hai na yeh tera yeh biceps ko pakad ker tujh per Chad jana . Tera muja ghadedi, chipkali, mami ki bhen ki beti, chudail yeh sab bulana kabhi nhi sun paungi. Tera sone ke baad tera yeh sukoon bhara chehre dekhne ka mauka chut jayega mera haathon se . Tera yeh soft se gaalon ko chune ka mauka chala jayega mujhse . Teri yeh kali kali soft si zulfon main apne ungliyon ko uljha nahi paungi ab .. bhut armaan the mera shiva tera sath jo dekhe the maine .

Shiva : oye chipkali esa mat bol please 🥺 main janta hun tu kya sunna chahte hai mujhse . Chip ... Chipkalion ki beauty queen tujha voh sab sunne ke liya wapis mera pass aana hoga . Lautna hoga tuja mera pass apne Bhoothnath ke pass .
( Raavi sees shiva with tears in her eyes which shows heart break 💔 and devastation looking at his broken 💔 state . ) Shiva tried to hold her fave in his hands but she disappeared like a thin air .

Raavi ... Raavi tu nahi jaa sakti mujha chod kar samjhi tu ... Muja tujh per pura bharosa hai tu esa mujha dhoka deke nhi jayegi . Agar bhagwan bhi aake bolenga na ki raavi tera pass nhi aana chahti toh bhi nhi manunga . You have to be with me forever in my life chipkali. Sun rahi hai na tu mera dil ki dhadkan bhut zor se bhadh rahi hai yrr . Iss baar agar tu nahi aai na toh ... Toh main main aa jaunga tera pass humasha ke liya tera pass reh jaunga aur phir hume koi alag nahi kar payega .

IN ICU EMERGENCY WARD...

Raavi breaths heavily and opens her eyes for a brief seconds.

Raavi (weakly): shivaaa ... Shiv ... Shivaa... Doctor saw her struggling to breathe and was calling someone's name continuously and he immediately put the oxygen mask on her mouth. And before she could call shiva once again and tell doctor to call him inside she falls unconscious again .

Then after some time comes out of the ward all ask him about her health and he tells them that she is trying to gain consciousness but she is very weak and it will take time to gain consciousness fully but now she is out of danger but still it has some risk so you all have to be patient. And ya she was calling someone's name shiva if he is here then tell him to meet her for sometime but do not exert the patient too much talks may she be unconscious right now but can listen everything. May be it helps in her betterment of her health.

After telling about Raavi's health status doctor left from there .

Hearing doctor gautam and hardik decided to talk to shiva regarding the same . They went where shiva was in hospital's temple there they saw him sitting in his knees and holding kapur in both his palms making them burn in heat of fire but he cared less about his own pains .

Gaumbi: oye shiva yeh kya kar raha hai tu haan yeh sab karne se sab theek ho jayega kya . Ho kya gaya hai tuja haan bata . Kuch ghante pehle tu OT main zabardasti ghusne ki koshish kar raha tha pagalo ki tarah chilla raha tha aur ab jab usse milne ke liya ijaazat mil gai hai toh tu jana nhi chahta yaha dubak kar baith gaya hai. Tuja pata hai sab mil kar aa chuke hai usse bas ek tu hi bacha hai jo abhi tak nhi mila . Shiva hosh aaya tha usse thodi der ke liya bula rahi hai tuja voh . Voh tera intezaar kar rahi hai bhale hi voh behosh hai abhi per voh tuja pukar rahi hai shiva . Jaa usse mil baat kar usse . Ab toh voh ICU main shift ho gai hai na koi nhi rokega tuja usse milne se mil le mera bhai ek baar . Tu kyun mana kar raha hai ab usse milne ke liya ? Ab esa kya badal gaya jo tu mana kar raha hai? Bol shiva kya jo gaya esa ab .... ? Bol na ab muh main dahi kyun jama li hai...?

Shiva ( crying): main ... Main gaumbi... Main nahi mil sakta usse .. main nahi milunga .. mujhse nhi hoga .

Hardik: kyun ? Kyun nhi jaa sakta tu ? Kyun nhi mil sakta ? Tu hi tha na voh jo kuch ghante pehle zid kar raha tha usse milne ke liya use bhar nikalne ke liya toh ab kya hua ek pal main ? Ab mil na usse ab toh voh bhar aa gai hai na ab jab tu usse mil sakta hai toh ab milna nhi chahta . Tu ache se janta hai na maami kaisi hai usko phir maula mil jayega tujha galt samajhne ka . Tu yahi chahta hai kya ki voh phir tujh per question kare tera pyar per question kar bol ? Mama ko kitna bura lagega ki unki beti is halat main hai aur unka damad ek baar mil bhi nhi sakta usse . Pehle zid thi milne ki ab mukar raha hai milne se kitna galt samjhenge voh tuja . Janta hun tujha usse farak nhi padega lekin humme padegaa raavi ko padega samjha . Tu hi tha na voh jo bol raha tha
Voh raavi nhi hai voh koi aur hai toh mil na ab usse usko bacha le shiva tu hi hai hissa voh milna chahti hai . Bhut lamba intezar kiya hai tum dono ne ab aur der mat kar mere yaar .
Hardik cupped his cheeks in his palms and said bhai mera bache sun meri baat teri biwi teri chipkali teri raavi ki zindagi abhi bhi zindagi aur maut ke beech jhul rahi hai bhale hi out of danger kyun na ho per agar ek baar health bigadi toh kuch kaha nhi jaa sakta . Jab hosh aaya tha tab voh sirf tera naam pukar rahi thi toh mil le na usse kar le baat please 🥺. She is fighting to stay with you in this life forever voh bhi janti hai shiva ki tu uske bina nhi jee payega isliya khud ki maut se tera liya ladh rahi hai aur tu hai ki milna bhi nhi chahta usse . Just once shiva meet her talk to her tell her your misery your pain everything just take it out in front of her if it's for the last time then do it shiva tell her everything. Tu yaha yeh bhagwan ke aage baith ke ro raha hai yaha ro sakta hai hum sab se ladh sakta gusaa kar sakta hai per apni biwi apni raavi se nhi mil sakta tu jaan hai na voh teri toh jaa mil usse .
Aur agar nhi mil sakta na toh uska ab tuja jawab dega hoga shiva pandya sawalon se bhagta nhi hai samna karta hai situation ka toh tu ab chup nhi reh sakta you have to tell us the truth why don't you want to meet raavi. ?

Shiva (crying) : gaumbi hardik bhai main ander usse milne nahi jaa sakta ... I ... I can't do this .. main na agar ek kadam bhadata hun na toh das kadam piche le leta hun . Nhi ho paa raha mujhse nhi hoga ab mujhse kuch bhi . Bhut himmat jutane ki koshish ki hai maine per nhi ho paa raha mujhse . Nahi dekh sakta usko iss halat main . Agar main usse mila toh voh mujha chod ... Chod ker chali jayegi hamesha ke liya toh main jee nahi paunga iss baar main bhi mar jaunga .... Aap log nhi jante gaumbi yeh shiva pandya na apne pyar apni jaan ko khone se bhut darta hai bhut bada kayar hai yeh shiva pandya iss mamle main . Bhut kamzor hai yeh shiva ka dil . Iss baar nhi jhel payega yeh uska dur chale jana . Agar main milne gaya toh dur chali jayegi voh isliya toh bula rahi hai voh taki akhri baar dekh paye voh mujha . Main nhi dunga usko rihai nhi dunga . Rehna padega usko mera pass. Khud se dur karne ke liya bula rahi hai voh . Meine vese hi usko uski khushi dene ke liya khud se dur kar diya tha . Per usko zindagi bhar aankhein bhar kar na dekh pana ki saza nhi jhel paunga . Voh mujhse dur rahegi toh bhi chalega per dur reh kar bhi yeh sukoon toh rahega ki aate jate usko aankein bhar ker sukoon dekh paunga yeh sukoon rahega ki voh zinda hai mera aas pass hai khush and sahi salamat hai per agar voh chali jayegi toh kaisa rahunga main . Iss baat ka guroor rahega ki dur reh kar bhi khayal rakh sakta hun uska dur se dekh lunga puri zindagi per itni dur nhi jane de sakta na main . Per agar ek baar shivji ne usko apne pass bula liya toh main kya karunga batao nahi dekh paunga na usko aankhon se ojhal ho jayegi voh . Bhut bhut zada zaruri hai voh mera liya mera zinda rehna ke liya uska hona bhut zaruri hai .
Apko pata hai main na bhut bada darpok kism ka insaan hun kyuki pehle bhi usko kai baar kho chuka hun . Shadi vale din bhi maut se bacha ker nikala tha har baar maut ko gale lagane ki firak main rehti hai voh aur har baar maut ke jaal se bacha ker nikala hai per iss baar main khud iss kadar toot gaya hun ki main khud kuch nhi kar paa raha nhi khona chahta usko main gaumbi ab nhi hoga mujhse usse door jana . Yeh wala shiva ek no ka darpok fhatoo befcoof ghadeda insaan hai apni biwi apni muhabbat mehbooba ke liya kuch nhi kar paya wakt per . Voh nhi tha waha jab uske sath galt kar rahe the voh log. Main nhi jaa paunga aur na hi usko face karne ki himmat hai . Please I can't do this . I am sorry 😞 don't force me to go as I can't lose her . He again slid down on the floor crying badly .

Those who heard him confess his love his pain of losing his raavi had tears in their eyes . They have never seen this much love and devotion yet devastating state of him before. They somehow could feel his pain yet they can't feel what he is feeling right now and understand the depth of pains love he is enduring right under is cages of heart 💜 is more than he us bearing and showing outside to all the once here present in .

Gaumbi: shiva dekh meri baat sun hum me se koi bhi nhi dekh sakta raavi ko iss halat main . Hum sab bhi tut gaye hai usko esa bejaan dekh ker . Dekh mera bache main tera dard bhit ache se samajh sakta hun tu kya feel kar raha hai . Agar tu hi himmat haar jayega toh usko kaisa dega himmat jeena ki . Per tujha ek baar usse milna chahiye shiva mil le na kyun zid kar raha hai na milne ki . As we don't know ki raavi .... ( He couldn't able to complete his sentence as shiva holds his coller with so much anger).

Shiva : ( angrily in tears holds his collar) khabardaar gaumbi agar apne sentence complete kiya toh mujhse bura koi nhi hoga . Kuch nhi hoga usko na main usko kuch hone dunga samajh main aai baat apke . Don't you dare say that again varna main bhul jaunga aap mera bhai ho .
You know what she is my superwoman meri pisachni chudail hai voh aur ek baar chudailon ko kuch nhi hota voh amar hoti hai per yeh insaani chudail hai bas .
Yaad rakhna jab tak shiva pandya zinda hai tak raavi shiva pandya bhi zinda rahegi. Jab tak uski saansen chalegi jab tak iss dil ki dhadkan sath rahegi . Jeena toh usko padega mera liya mera liya mera zinda rehna ki wajh hai voh .
Jis din yeh shiva ka dil dhadakna band ho jayega uss din samajh lena uski gauri parwati Durga sab uss dil ke sath chale gaye . Shiva aur raavi ek hai . Do Dil ek Jaan hai .
Apko pata hona chahiye ki voh kabhi haar nhi manti bachpan se ladhti aai hai na voh toh ab kaisa chod degi voh na uski hobby hai ladhna meri tarah.
Bhai batao na voh kahi nhi jayegi nah 🥺 yahi rahegi na mera pass mera sath hamesha 🥺🥺?..

Hardik: haan shiva voh kahin nhi jayegi tera pass hi rahegi hamasha ke liya . Per uske liya tuja usse milna padega na . Mil toh le ek baar usko bata toh de tu kya chata hai usse . Bol de usko ki tu usko apni life main wapis chahta hai . Jaao shiva jaao mil lo usse apni raavi se .

Shiva and hardik and gaumbi came back where everyone were sitting. All looks at shiva dumbfoundedly but hardik abs gaumbi blinked their eyes that they will tell after he will go inside .

Shiva was slightly pushed by hardik and he walks inside the room . His heart was pounding loudly inside his chest . He eventually took the side of the bed she was in where the bed side stool was kept .

CHUP MAHI CHUP HAI RANJHA
BOLE KAISE VE NA JA
BOLE KAISE VE NA JA
AAJA AAJA

Shiva : hii.. hi chipkali... I mean hello raavi .. tumhe pata hai main .. umm main theek kehta hun tu na ek no ki bhootni hai kabhi bhi kahi bhi aa jati hai mera khayalon se bhar nikal ker mera samne kadi ho gai hai tu aur tu mujhse baatein bhi kar rahe thi . Aur ab aaya hun himmat kar ke tujhse baat karne toh tu so rahi hai kumbhkarn ki tarah. Yeh koi time hai sone ka uth chal jalti uth mujha tujhse bhut sari baatein karni hai . Teri bakbak bhi toh sunni hai . Kabhi toh meri baat maan liya kar har baar muja hi manni padhti hai. Hamasha apni hi chalati hai tu bachpan se hi apni karti aai hai .

Tum.... Tu na ek no ki bhulakad hai. Bhul gai na humne decide kiya tha Baat karenga aur sab sort kar lenga apne beech jo bhi misunderstanding hai uske baad bhi agar lagega alag hona hi sahi hoga hum dono ke liya tabhi alag honga warna nhi . Yahi bola tha na tune mujha call per. Toh tune esa alag hone ka irada kiya tha . Yahi irada tha na tera mujhse esa alag hone ka toh theek hai main bhi dheet hun nhi hone dene wala kar le jo karna hai.

Itni badi saza degi mujha tu mujha tujha bhala bura bolne ke jurm main . So kyun rahi hai yrr uth na tu kumbhkarn nhi hai muja pata hai tu Bhoothnath ki bhootni hai . Mujhse baat karna na please 🥺 teri awaz sunni hai mujha . Chal esa karte hai nikal le tu bhi apni bhadhas gali de , maar le chapal se danda panya se , jitna marna hai maar le bolna hai bol le jo saza de I hai de de per please chod kar mat jao. Bolo please.

Best idea sir phod de mera murder kar de . Tune bola tha na haveli main ki tu mera sir per bhooton ki rani ban ker nachna chahti hai meri neend sukh chain Cheena chahti hai toh kar na main nahi rokunga tujha bilkul bhi . Apni bakwas baaton se mujha pakana hai toh paka le . Muja ajeebo gareeb naamon se bulana chahti hai bula main bhi toh bulaya hin tera mujhpe pura right hai . Per muja itni badi saza mat de . Please na aaja na😭 wapis mera pass . Yeh dil tadap raha hai tera bina isko teri aankhon ka sukoon chahiya teri hugs chahiya . Tu chahiya meri baahon main tabhi karar aayega mera dil ko .

Nahi jee paunga tera bina tujha dekhe bina mar jayega yeh dil yeh soul yeh shareer bhi . Main zinda kaisa rahunga tera bina bata na kon sambhalega muja ek tu hi toh thi jisko pata tha kab kya sochta hun kya karta hun kab mujha smile karana hai . Tera alawa koi nhi sambhal sakta mujha . Muja meri chipkali wapis chahiya, meri duniya wapis chahiya samjhi tu . Jab tak tu hi nhi hogi meri duniya main meri iss khalipan ko bharne ke liya , mujha mera andhera se nikalne ke liya toh iss dil ko karar kaisa aayega . Iss dil ko teri bhut zarurat hai yrr raavi . Main na teri mumma papa se baat kar lunga shivi ki ke through unko bolunga tuja bhut khush rakhunga bilkul tang nhi karunga na hi hurt karunga bilkul princess ki tarah rakhunga bus wapis aaja 😭😭😭💔😞....

BOLE KAISE VE NA JA
BOLE KAISE VE NA JA
CHUP MAAHI CHUP HAI RANJHA
AAJA AAJA

Utho na , come on get up you idiot monkey chipkali . Apna promise todh rahi hai tu tu nhi break kar sakti apna promise badi aai muja bolti thi main apna promise break karta hun ab khud bhi toh wahi kar rahi hai . Karna padega apna promise pura bharosa kar raha hun tumper. Tune toh yeh bhi bola tha na ki tu mera sir per itna nachegi ki main tang aa jaunga aur tuja accept karne ke alawa koi option nhi bachega yahi bola tha na toh ab kar raha hun toh jane ki baat kar rahi tu ghadedi. Toh ab bhi kar na esa please 🥺 I want it now and forever.

( Tears were flowing from his eyes continuously) tune toh ek baar yeh bhi bola tha na dil se dil ki baat karte hain buri yaadon ko bhula kar aage badhne ki ek naye shuruaat karenga . Phir karna koshish main bhi karunga kyu nahi kar rahi ab tu thak gai mujhse se . Tu toh sherni hai reh tune toh muja dahi handi main bhi hara diya aur Jeet gai meri dream bike . Mujha dekhna hai tu kaisa chalati hai apni bike woh bhi full on tashan main .

Muja toh yeh bhi yaad hai tune haveli main bola tha ki tuja mera aansuon nhi meti hasi meri smile pasand hai aur dekh tu khud mujha rula rahi hai . Tune toh baat sort out karne ke liya bhut planning ki thi na toh phir yaha kaisa rakh li meeting place. Tu mazak kar rahi hai na mera sath toh mat kar esa mazak muja esa mazak nhi pasand . Main nahi seh paunga infact nahi seh paa raha main yeh mazak bhut bhari padh raha hai mujha . Sun rahi hai tu uth jaldi se bas bhut hi gaya tera sona .

Dekh na teri favourite chocolates, pani puri nah golgappa , jalebi aur bhi bhut kuch hai sab dunga tuja bilkul nhi khane se . Jitna khana hoga kha lena bas bimar mat hona dar lagta hai tuja agar zara si kharonch bhi lag jati hai toh . Yaha toh tu soye jaa rahe hai bin baat ke mujhse naraz hoke . Haan dinosaur 🦕 bhi nhi bolunga per tu hai 🤭 meri cute si chipkali and dinosaur 😆🤪.

You know na yeh hospital hai aur hospital main patients rehte hai chipkaliyan aur dinosaur nhi voh toh ghar aur stores main hi paya jata hai kyuki hospital main hygiene and sanitation zaruri hai taki infection na ho . Tuja in sab ki zarurat nhi hai kyuki tu toh meri chipkali hai 😘💔. Toh isliya tuja uthna padega aur mera sath wapis apne ghar chalna hoga apne pandya niwas main aur kahan jayegi . Sun tu muja aur intezar nhi kara sakti . Aage bhadhna hai muja tera sath . Aaj na mujha selfish person ban kar tujha apna sath apne pass rakhna hai. Layak nhi hun tera janta hun bhut ache se per ek baar ke liya selfish hona chahta hun .
Jahil gawar Junglee bhalu unpadh sab kuch hun . Isliya toh choda tha tuja apna man maar ker khushi se thodi kar raha tha sab .

Log na tuja daya pity karti tha . Koi tuja daya ke roop mai dekhe main yeh dekh nahi sakta tha na dekh sakta hun na hi dekhunga na tuja dekhne dunga . Tuja pata hai tu na aasmaan chune wali pari hai ek esi angel ji khili aankon se dekhe sapno ko bhi pura karti hai band aankhon ke peeche ke sapnon ko pura karne ke liya prayaas karti hai . Main chahta hun tu sir uncha kar ke chal hamasha jaisa shadi se pehle chalti thi bina kisi jhijhak ke bina dar ke . Yeh muja manzoor nhi ki tuja sir jhuka kar chalna pade logo ke samne kyuki uska pati uneducated gawar Junglee jahil hai jo tera kabil nhi hai . Main chahta tha raavi ki tu yeh duniya mera pariwar muja vese hi accept kare jaisa main hun main change nhi hona chahta . Tuja pata hai kisi ne mujhse kaha tha ki agar aapko koi pasand ya pyar karta hoga toh voh esa hi kar lega jaisa aap ho agar nhi karta jaisa aap ho toh aap lakh koshish kar lo badlne ke baad bhi agar aap pasand nhi aate toh voh apki galti nhi hoti nazariya ki hoti hai kyuki har kisi insaan ka kisi ko dekhne ka nazariya alag hota hai . Muja ek aur baat kisi ne kahi thi ki agar koi aapko badal kar payar de toh voh pyar nhi sauda hota hai aur main voh katai nhi chahta . Hum dono ko agar ek dusre se pyar hoga toh esa hi ho jayega yrr badalne ki kya zarurat hai humme tu muja esa hi pasand hai jaisi bhi hai meri hai bas baat khatam muja nhi badalna tuja . Per haan ek baar bol deta hun tu kabhi yeh mat sochna ki main ek galti hun teri yaa Galt insaan hun nhi main bura nhi hun yrr 🥺 itna bhi bura nhi hun .

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NI MAIN RAJJ RAJJ HIJAR MANAWA
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Tu janna chahti thi na ki muja itna kyun fark padhne laga logo ki baaton ka apno ki baaton ka pehle nhi padhta tha kyuki muja lagta hai duniya jo bhi soche mera apne mera baare main esa nhi sochte per main galat tha raavi main galt tha jab mera apne hi muja us layak nhi samajhte toh insaan toot hi jata hai yahi kaaran hai ki main bhi toot gaya aur mera bharosa mera vishwas sab aur phir shuru hua mujha farak padhta hai chapter. Esa nhi hai ki pehle nhi padhta tha padhta tha pehle bhi lekin itna affect nhi karta tha main cope kar leta tha per ab nhi ho raha tha mujhse itna toot gaya tha ki muja esa lagne laga ki agar tujha rihai nhi di toh dum ghut jayenga hum dono ka tera iss baat se ki tera pati tera layak nhi aur mera iss farak padhta hai se . Main yeh bhi janta hun ki tu jo bhi bolti thi voh mean nhi karti thi bas gussa main bol deti thi per jab se tu meri biwi bani thi na tabse tera bola har lafz muja affect karta tha . Kyuki tera wajood mujhse juda tha aur koi meri wajh se tuja galt baatein bole yeh gawara nahi tha mujha.

Tu soch rahi thi na ki maine Sneha ki baat ko teri diary ki baat ko dil pe laga kar apna rishta toda haan todna ki koshish ki thi per tu gai hi nhi. Janta hun tera dil main ab voh dev nhi basta . Ab aur na kabhi tha bas pasand tha voh teri kyuki voh tera ek matra tareeka tha pandya bahu bane ka . Yeh sab kuch janta hun per sach jante hua bhi dil main ek thasak si uthi ki tu kabhi meri nhi ho sakti main tera khwabon mein buna hua gentleman jaisa nhi ban sakta . Muja uss wakt esa laga jaisa ki tu ek galt admi ke sath bandh gai hai jabki tuja ek gentleman se shadi karni thi Jo tuja tujhse zada pyar dega tera armaan pura karega tera aansuon ki wajh nhi balki khushi muskurat ki wajh banega . Jo main nhi de pata voh voh tuja dega . Ek esa insaan jo teri izzat karega tera har ek khwab ko namumkin se mumkin karega tuja Rajkumari ki tarah rakhega. Esa hoga voh ki tu sab ko bol sake ki dekho yeh hai mera pati mera beat half mera dream man . Voh tera guroor rahega bankar . Yeh sab main kahan ban paunga shayad kabhi nhi . Yeh sab kuch janta tha tabhi toh tujhse dur dur rehta tha tujhse galt way main baat karta tha aur sabse badi baat tuja mujha chod kar chale jane ko bolta raha per tu theri ziddi billi gai hi nhi kyuki tu meri koi baat nhi sunti apni chalati hai .

Phir tu voh compromise adjustment ki baat leker baith gai thi . Usse kam hone ki bajaye meri insecurity meri helplessness mera gussa mera guilt sab two folds multiply ho gaya . Tuja kitni baar samajhaya maine ki muja koi compromise adjustment nhi chahiya . Main nhi chahta tha tu voh sab kare. Kyun kare bhai jab main nhi kar raha toh tu kyun karegi main nhi karne dunga . Yeh jo rishtey hote hain na raavi equal equal partnership ke hote hain . Main janta hun ki maine humari shaadi main sare decision khud hi liya hai tuja lane nhi diya phir bhi it's an equal partners relationship. I know raavi ki main teri pehli choice nhi hun . Tera mera hath main hota toh shayad hum kabhi shadi hi nhi karte . Raavi maine pehle socha tha ki bhale hi main teri pehli choice nhi hun per main teri akhri choice banu voh jisse tu garv ke sath bol sake ki I am yours and you are mine but I guess yeh humari kismat ko gawara nhi tha toh dekho alag bhi kar diya .

Iss shadi main na raavi main chahta tha tu ude lambi lambi udaane bhare khul ker jiye . Apne sabhi armaano ko pura kare khush rahe hasti khelti rahe per dekh na mera jaisa nalayak insaan ke sath reh kar kaahan yeh sab possible tha . Main chahta tha tu yeh compromise adjustment na kar ke khud se dil se mera sath rahe. Main teri choice banu the way I am not what people want me to be and see me as . Logon ki khwahish ke hisaab se jeene kage toh jeena mushkil ho jayega iss duniya main raavi . Agar esa hota na raavi ki jaisa main hun vese tu muja chahti dekhti ki main kis kism ka insaan hun toh main tuja bina bole hi thoda thoda efforts dal kar vesa banne ki koshish karta taki tuja khush dekh saku teri pyari si smile dekh saku yeh dekh ke ki mera efforts se tu khush hai . Thoda tu efforts dalti thoda main sab sahi hota phir yeh talak yeh ladai jhagde kuch nhi hota I swear. Per meri badkismat esa kuch possible hi nhi hua . Kahan tu badalon main udaan bharne wala asmaan aur kahan main banjar zameen sa jahan baarish ki bhi umeed nhi hoti . Tu padhi likhi main 10vi pass.

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RUSSEYA RANJHA VE MERA
MAIN VI KAMM NA AITHI

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Phir us din sneha wali baat itni affect ho gai muja ki maine drink kar li thi . Aur tu so rahi thi kitni cute lag rahi thi voh teri diary teri neend kharab kar rahi thi isliya uthai thi taki band kar saku per phir jaisa hi band karne laga maine dev ka name dekha aur muja dil main bhut bura laga ki tune uski yaadein Abbi bhi rakhin hai jabki you don't feel anything for your past . Phir uthi aur uske baad tu naraz ho gai pehle kyuki maine drink ki dusri kyuki maine teri ijazat ke bina diary padh li thi . Phir tu market main apne doston se mili waha tu jis tarah unke kapdon ko nihar rahi thi muja bhut chota mehsoos ho raha tha aur to aur tune mujhe milvana bhi theek nhi samjha balki bahana bana diya ki phir kabhi milvayegi toh main guilt main aa gaya ki shayad main hi galt umeed main tha ki tu dil se mujha milvayegi as your husband as your Bhoothnath per nhi toh gussa aa gaya aur maine voh gussa ghar per tere per nikal diya . Phir us din sawan ke function main subha subha tune voh compromise aur adjust karne wali baat boli toh already gussa tha aur instigate ho gaya aur phir jab Anita aur Krish ne hum dono ka hath diya hume toh wahi baat samne aa rahi thi jo tune aane se pehle boli thi toh bina soche bina age piche dekha main tera hath gussa main zor se jhatak diya yeh bhi nhi socha ki tera uper kya beeti hogi us wakt jo insaan nafrat main gussa main bhi tuja bachata aaya ho girne se sambhalta aaya ho usi ne aaj dur jhatak diya kyuki us wakt dimag main ek cheez thi you are not happy but what you were doing everything for the sake of family members and want to mend relationship between us because usse smooth shayad ho jati life apni voh nhi chahiya tha . Aur na hi muja iss bekar ladai wale topic ko stretch kar ker baat karni thi I wasn't interested yrr .

Phir voh tera so called dost 😑 mandir main mujha attitude dikha rahe the per usse muja koi farak nhi ki why they are giving such reaction to me but pata hai gussa tab aaya jab he tried to touch you in a wrong way making me show ki see maine teri biwi ko chua tu kuch nhi kar paa raha kyuki tera hath bandhe hain . Tujha intentionally giraya taki tu mujhper nhi us idiot monkey per jake gire aur wahi hua main tab bhi kuch nhi kar paya kyuki marks neeche nhi rakh sakta tha tab . Phir jab hum nikle aur tu wapis aai aur bike per baith ke jane laga toh meri bike slip ho gai kiski wajh se tu
Gir gai aur main bhi tabhi gussa aaya isliya nhi ki voh humari help karna chahte the balki isliya aaya kyuki voh muja bola ki main apni biwi aur bike ko samabhal nhi sakta aur voh tuja ghar tak chodega . Kyun chodega voh tuja main hun na zinda abhi mara toh nhi tha . Ho gai slip meri galti hai barish ho rahi thi kisi ki bhi ho sakti hai esa slip toh . Maine bhut control karne ki koshish ki thi raavi khud ko per uski baatein bhut gandi thi main apni biwi apni raavi ke khilaf ek shabd nhi sun sakta chahe phir voh meri khud ki family ho ya koi bhar wala ho . Phir tuja pata hai usne tera bare main bhut ulta seedha bola jo tune nhi suna tha . Acha hua nhi suna tu sunti toh tera dil tut jata ki tera dost tera bare main kya sochte hain . Tuja pata hai kya bola voh kamina bola ki voh tujha mujhse cheen lega voh tuja bhaga kar le jayega dur taki taki tujha mujhse chutkara mil jaye kyuki main jangli jahil gawar hun . Voh keh raha tha ki tune unhe chod ker mujhse shadi ki toh yahi hona tha isliya voh tuja bhaga ker shadi kar lega . Main yeh sab kaisa sun sakta hun bata na . Maine toh apni biwi apni raavi ki izzat bachane ki koshish ki uska muh todh ke pee tune mujhse ek baar bhi nhi pucha ki shiva esa kya ho gaya ki ladai tak baat pahunch gai ek baar ek baar pyar se puch kar toh dekhti per nhi tune bhi wahi kiya jo sab log karte hain muja abandon kar diya keh diya ki main tera layak nhi hun . I don't deserve you . As I am not worthy to be someone's love as I am uneducated mannerless and what not . It was better to leave me than staying with me . Jab yeh sab maine tera muh se bhi suna toh voh baat nikal gai mera muh se jo main kabhi nhi sochi thi infact main itna ghatiya nhi sochta yrr kisi ke bhi baare main I am not that kind of person you know that but pata nahi kaisa voh bol diya but I never minded that . Muja iska ehsaas tha ki I said wrong in the heat of moment but maine socha agar tu mujhse issi baat se nafrat karegi toh mujha tu khud hi chod degi koi ladki apne character per uthe sawal ko bardasht nhi karegi aur tune wahi kiya you slapped me and left me and my home our home . Maine unko phir bhi maaf kar deta agar voh maafi maang leta tujhse ki jo bhi unhone tuja bola tera peeth peecha per mera sabar ka banth tab tak tut gaya aur nikal diya sab unper jo bhi gussa Dard bhara tha mujh main .

Acha tu hi bata na koi pati apni biwi ke baren main kaisa sun lega nahi sun sakta na . Koi pagal hi hoga jo yeh sab bakwas sun lega kyuki voh khud bhi apni wives ke bare main wahi sochte honga but main nhi sochta esa kyun sochun esa main apni biwi ko bachpan se janta hun voh esa galt kaam kabhi nhi karti na galt cheez sehti hai na sunti hai . Main na mahan nhi hun ki koi bhi tera baare mai. Bole aur mai chup chap sunker nikal lun . Voh bhi tab jab koi meri chipkali ke bare main bakwas karega toh . Tu bata esa kon dost apni hi dost ke baare main sochta hai aur uski absence main uske pati ko esa bol sakta hai sharam nahi aai usko ek baar bhi . Esa kar ke voh khud ki izzat main toh chote ho hi gaye per teri bhi izzat utar rahe the . Main nhi dekh sakta yeh sab per tune toh muja hi galt samjha har step per mana maine bhi tuja galt samjha but us way main kabhi nhi samjha jis way main tune samjha .

Acha kiya tune mujhe chanta mara main issi layak hun vese . Galti ki thi toh saza toh banti thi voh tune bakhubi di muja chanta maar kar muja divorce deker muja dahi handi main hara kar . Per itni badi saza mat de please mar jaunga main tere bina . Mar hi toh raha hun pal pal vese bhi. Muja please chod per mat jaa wapis aa jaa . Tu jo Bolegi na main whi karunga ab se paka promise . Main na tujha dur se dekh ke sari zindagi guzar lunga per please esa itni dur toh mat jaa ki main mar hi jau . Main humari yaadon ke sahare jee lunga yrr per tuja dekhe bina nhi jee paunga .
Tujha us Roz na dekh pana ek pal main hazar maut ke barabar hogi mera liya . Tera liya kya itna aasan hai kya muja yun hi iss khajar si duniya main akele chod jana .

Bachpan se pasand karta hun tujha per kabhi Zahir hi nhi kar paya . Pehle papa chale gaye mami mama ki wajh se . Phir maa paralyze ho gai , phir Anita ne apna rang dikhaya gaumbi ko beech mandap main chod diya voh baat alag hai main usko pasand nhi karta tha aur na gaumbi bas voh mami ki shart ki wajh se shadi kar rahe the uss Anita se toh laga may be tu unhi ke jaisi hai kabhi toh apne asli roop main aayegi hi . Ek trust sa tut gaya tha us wakt duniya per se tujhper se sab per se. Isliya uss wakt se hi maine tuja apne aap se dur kar diya tha aur apni pasand ko dil ke ek kone main daba diya tha maine jisse koi nhi dekh sakta tha . Aur phir pretend karne laga ki main tujhse nafrat karta hun . Us wakt toh laga ki yeh mera ek crush hai jo kuch wakt main utar jayega . Phir hum sab bade hote gaye Aur yeh pasand bhi sath main badhti chali gai aur kahin na kahin tu mujhse dur jaati gai kyuki pyar chupane ke liya nafrat ka nakab jo odh rakha tha maine . Aur wahin tu dev ke kareeb jati gai kyuki voh pyar se baat karta tha friendly tha easy to go tha gentleman tha padha likha tha smart tha sab kuch toh tha uske pass jo ek ache insaan main hona chahiya tha toh kyun nhi hogi uske kareeb tu. Nahi dekh pata tha main tuja uske kareeb jalan hoti thi dil main aag lag jati thi yeh soch ke bhi ki tu usko pasand karti hai muja nhi tu use shadi karne ke liya pagal hai . Yeh soch kar bhi man karta tha tuja bhaga kar kahi chupa lun taki tuja koi na dekh paye. Phir dheere dheere realise hona laga ki muja esa feel kyun hota hai phir pata laga ki muja Loveria ho gaya voh bhi tujhse per kabhi iss pyar ko ubharne nhi diya kisi ke samne main wahi adiyal pisaach Bhoothnath gussa wala nafrat dikhane wala bana raha . Darta tha kahi bhar aa gaya pyar toh bawal mach jayega aur wahi hone bhi laga tha shayad . Isliya toh tuja kisi aur ka hote nhi dekh nahi sakta tha dev jaisa bande ke sath bhi nhi . Phir ek baar toh dil kiya ki sab kuch chod chad ke bata dun ki main tujhse kitna pyar karta hun bata dun dil sabhi baatein jo hoga aage dekha jayega . Phir Teri shadi Dev se hone lagi thes toh pahunch rahi thi phir maine tera sath sari rasmein ki taki teri uss dev se shadi na ho sake . Tab bhi socha tha tuja dil ki baat bata dun phir nhi bol pata per Teri meri shadi ho gai kahin na kahin khush tha main per phir bhi dil main ek aas thi ki kash iss tarah se humari shadi na hui hoti toh zada acha hota . Voh shadi bhabhi ke kehna per toh ki hi thi per dil se khud hi ki thi kisi ke dabav main nhi ki thi ya family ke liya nhi ki thi . Shadi us ghade ne todi aur suicide tu karne chali gai pata hai tuja esa dekh ke sans atak gai thi esa laga main bhi gaya . Main bhi mar jaunga wahi tera sath. Teri marzi se karna chahta tha Shafi khushi khushi per esa ho nhi paya. Khair wakt ke sath sab theek ho raha tha tera mera beech main . Voh baat alag hai shadi ki shuruaat main mushkil zarur hui thi nibhana mushkil ho raha tha but phir bhi koshish karna nhi choda maine .

Phir hum kidnap ho gaye Janardhan Seth ke wajh se ghadeda ko Dev aur Rishita ko kidnap karna tha hum dono ko kar ke baith gaya. Phir uski wajh se misunderstanding create ho gai voh maine isliya clear nhi ki kyuki tujha mujhper trust hi nhi tha phir hum haveli chale gaye voh kesar kand ho gaya phir khandar kand ho gaya . Waha jab hume laga ki hum aaj nhi bachenga tab maine tujhe sab clear kar diya taki akhri baar tu muh per trust kar sake . Phir hum jaisa tese bache toh phir atak gaye us wakt toh tha hi ki ab nhi bachenga per sukoon tha ki tu mera sath hai agar yeh aakri baar hai toh phir dil ke panne khol ker thoda sa pyar kar lun tujhse . Phir sab kuch theek ho gaya hum wapis aa gaye phir ek ek kar ke tera dost aate gaye aur meri aankhen khol di ki main berang hun meri zindagi berang hai aur main teri bhi duniya ko berang kar raha hun . Isliya tera pyar main selfish na hoke tuja khud se dur karne laga phir se taki tu jiye aur khush rahe main rahin na rahun voh zaruri nhi tha mera liya . Socha tuja azad kar dun toh tu chali jayegi hamesha ke liya kyuki maine force kiya tuja esa karne ke liya .

Per ab aur nhi hoga mujhse . Pata hai tuja kya choda maine sabne mujh se muh modh liya todh diya sabne mujhse apne rishtey. Tuja pata hai gaumbi ne toh Mujha bhut mara . Voh samajhta hi nhi hai yrr main yeh sab kyun kar raha tha . Mujha na sabse roz taunt milta hai that I did wrong with you. Maine ghar ki izzat nilaam kar di . Voh kyun nhi samajh rahe ki jo bhi kiya teri khushi ke liya kiya tuja khush dekhne ke liya kiya . Pehli baar yrr chipkali pehli baar teri khushi ke baare main socha aur yeh log esa mera sath janwar ki tarah behave kar rahe hai. Jaisa maine khoon mar diya ho kisi ka . Haan kiya hai na khoon humare rishte ka mera pyar ka khoon khud apne haathon se taki tuja Tera hissa ki khushi de sakun . Tu wapis aa aur sabko bol ki maine galt nhi hun main bura nhi hun. Bol sabko bhi jo bhi kiya teri zindagi sawarne ke liya kiya .

CHUP MAAHI CHUP HAI RANJHA
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BOLE KAISE VE NA JA
AAJA AAJA

BOLE KAISE VE NA JA
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CHUP MAAHI CHUP HAI RANJHA
AAJA AAJA

Mujhko kya pata tha ki mera ek decision bhabhi ko esa hospital le jayega . Muja toh yeh bhi nhi pata tha infact kisi ko nhi pata tha bhabhi maa bane wali hai. Aur tuja pata hai sabne mujha dur chale jane ko keh diya . Mein bhut akela ho hun raavi . Bhut bhut bhut zada akela . Koi nahi hain mera apna mera pass muja sambhlne wala koi nhi hai. Koi nhi samjhta muja maa toh phir bhi thoda bhut samajhti hai . Tuja pata hai unki khushi main shamil hona bhi esa lagta hai jaisa main matam phaila raha hun . Maine toh decide bhi kar liya tha ki main jaldi hi Somnath chod ke chala jaunga per himmat hi nhi hui tujhse dur jane ki . Kyuki chala jata toh Teri shakal dur se bhi nhi dekh pata na .

Please yrr please wapis aaja ab toh mera liya aaja please 🥺😭😭. Iss akele pan main aur nhi rah paunga . Tu nahi aai isse bharne toh ek din mar hi jaunga iss andhera main hi. You have to get up damn it and come back to me at any cost. Tera liya puri duniya pura bhramand se ladh jaunga per tuja wapis paa ker rahunga bilkul Savitri ki tarah tera liya yumraj se bhi fight kar lunga . Aaj jao na mera pass wapis phir kabhi dard nhi dunga esa kabhi nhi hoga nahi karunga kuch galt . Teri har ek choti badi baat ka maan rakhunga sab sununga. Aur apni bhi sari baatein share karunga kuch bhi nhi chupaunga tujhse. utho na please ( he shakes her a bit more harshly but didn't hurt her) .

Oye chipkali Abbi der nhi hui hai yeh bolne ke liya ki .... Humme jo bolna hai ek dusre se voh abhi bhi bol sakte hai. Oye chudail abhi toh teri jeet ki party bhi deni hai muja ( he cries keeping his head on her hand )>>..

Acha sun na .. ek ...ek aur baat bolni thi per voh na main esa yaha nhi bolunga main voh main apne style main bolunga jab tu bilkul theek ho jayegi 🥺...

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TO BE CONTINUED....

Precap : raavi gets consciousness and shivi talk or confession💕..

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