This Os takes place Episode 16 after Zamin and Sehar leave from Hydrabad to Karachi

Prologue:

Silently Zamin was driving on the smooth roads between Hydrabad and Karachi. Although the view was beautiful yet he couldnt enjoy it. Reason was Sehar who reluctantly sat next to him, still fuming. Although he couldnt take her silence but than he started thinking how she must have felt over the events of last few weeks in Hydrabad and especially how his name would have reminded her that he was getting intimate with Hareem. Obviously too much to bear. These realizations started to calm him down. He was wishing to get an opportunity to talk with Sehar about everything before they reach Karachi.

As though it was qubooliyat ki ghari after filling petrol at the next service station which was 1km away from civilization, his car refused to start. After contacting his car insurance, who said to look after everything, he took out the red suitecase which was still left from Switzerland trip in car booth and told Sehar that he wants to use the opportunity to delay going Karachi. Although it was slowly getting dark and little shower had started too, but he decided to go to the next nearest hotel.

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Sehar dragged herself inside the hotelroom and slumped on the bed; she was tired, wet and cold although Zamin had draped his jacket around her shoulder on the way to hotel. After the car had broken down he told her that he thought it was best if they stayed the night at a nearby hotel. Her first thought was "chicken". But a part of her prefered to be alone with him instead of being let down again in Karachi. As she was now sitting on the bed shivering and looking around the hotel room which she thought was way more beautiful than her Hydrabad home or her quarter in Karachi, but nothing compared to Zamin's masterbedroom.

Zamin didnt fail to notice how she was still snuggling in his jacket as he stepped out of the bathroom wearing a bathrobe. The sight of him suddenly sent a shiver down her spine making her feel hot and cold at the same time. It was too much for her; the scent of his jacket, his presence that too only in bathgown- She needed space. Savouring her every expression, he took another step towards her as she was standing there and about to shrug the jacket off her shoulder; he quickly grabbed it from both sides and pulled her closer- she had no choice but to look him in the eyes as he said in a husky loving tone:

" Tumhari marzi ke beghair kabhi khuch nahi karunga...... koi zour koi zabardasti nahi..... tumse barh kar khuch nahi. ....". 

[ I will never do anything without your consent...no pressure no force...nothing is more important than you]

A big lump of respect and gratitude filled in her heart and before she broke into tears she disappeared with a shy smile inside the attached bathroom-- The sight which was awaiting her left her again speechless, whilst wiping the happy tear drops she absorbed the atmosphere deep within herself....... the lillies of the valley like scent coming from the bathtub which was filled with warm water, 3 candles were the only lights in the entire room, a bathrobe was placed on the radiator. She smiled at the romantic gesture prepared by her husband, despite his own tiredness. 

The relaxing atmosphere was slowly shutting all her thinking senses and activating her heart, soul and ... something else.... she missed the feel of his jacket.... no wait; she actually longed to feel his touch on her shoulders .... and more again- she felt stupid yet all tingly. 

With hopes that he will join her in a while, she undressed uptil her underwear and slid inside the heavenly warm water. As she took deep breaths in water with her eyes closed, the door cracked open- Her heart nearly jumped out in joy.

Instantly their gazes met as if they hadnt seen each other in long time-- Probably for the first time since their Nikah he noticed his wife's full beauty. So innocent...so pure... so delicate. And here covered till shoulders in foam, her beautiful long hair tied in a bun with a hairstrand coming out made him ache for her in the most sweet and painful way together; her cheeks were pink from the heat or was she blushing because he was moving towards the tub. 

Anyhow her shining eyes and the wide smile seemed like an invitation. Without removing his gaze from her, he quickly removed his bathrobe and joined her in the bathtub which just about was made for two. He decided to keep his underwear on, since he wanted to reveal a few important things and if after that Sehar was still willing to take their marriage to next level he will proceed further.

The close proximity of the entire situation made her suddenly nervous despite the inner excitement- This time it was his turn to absorb her presence; gosh how he longed to hear a single tone, a small glimpse of her during the last couple of weeks. He tried to brush away any thoughts about the last few weeks.

Sehar not only perceived his churned from inside state but also his sunken posture. Whatever anger she felt since days completely vanished and all she yearned for was to lighten this beautiful soul; who has always been thoughtful towards her. And before her hesitation and shyness took over she suddenly blurted:

"Kaafi arse se ye karna chah rahi thi, magar....... himmat nahi hui". 

[I've been wanting to do this since quite some time,but...didnt have the courage]

Whilst she took a one second break, Zamin's entire attention shifted only to her; exhilarated and amused he smiled at her. 

Sehar further: " Ankhain band kare....please....". 

[Please close your eyes]

Within seconds his eyelids closed; there was pin drop silence in the room, steam and his masculine smell hung in the air. Her mind was floating in daze. Closing the distance between them and tenderly cupped his face between her palms and brought her mouth closer to his. 100's of bees were swarming in her head; ignoring them she leaned over and at first gave a feather-light kiss at the corner of his mouth.......... Ufff escaped her lips. Zamin was moved by her reaction; the tenderness and devotion.

He wanted and needed more of this feeling by her; in hope that she would continue with the kiss(es), he kept his eyes closed. As if she sensed his longing, she made another attempt. 

In this moment she couldnt care less that she had innitiated their first kiss. 

 Seeing his anticipating face, this time she gave him a full kiss on his fine lips whilst tracing his equally fine cheeks. She kept her eyes closed to absorb his smell and taste more intensely. He tasted of mint and berries. A little shyly she moved her soft lips all across his, occasionally nibbling at the fleshy parts. Lost in her discovery she didnt realise when Zamin pulled her closer and whilst caressing her neck he was softly kissing her back. He felt his almost dead soul coming to life, something which he never thought would ever happen again. A deep love filled his heart for Sehar. 

Overwhelmed by this feeling he broke the kiss off and looked at her with everything he was; his eyes were shimmering with tears. Quitely she took his warm firm hands and wrapped them in hers and asked him in the most loving tone: 

"Aap kaise hain?...... Aap mujhse apne dil ki baat share kar sakte hain..". 

[How are you? You can share with me your inner most]

Her small question and statement dropped down all the heavy weight which he was carrying inside him since weeks. He took a few deep breaths and started: 

" Bohot arse baad kisine mujhse mera haal poocha..... mai ye toh nahi kahunga ke mere pichle chand hafte tumse ziada dardnaak guzre....... (silence). Sehar, mai kunwara nahi raha (looks down in shame)...... mai tumhe kia batao mujh pe kia guzri hai..... mai apna aap sirf tumhare liye makhsoos rakhna chahta tha, magar nakaam ho gia. Bohot koshish karta tha gureez karne ki, magar kabhi dhamki se kabhi emotional blackmail kar ke; kabhi kia toh kabhi kia WOH (Hareem) karwati thi mujh se. Passive hone ki bhi ijazat nahi, warna Uss ka hyper hona shuru; peeche se mere baal kheenchti thi, tumhai galiyan deti thi. Mera zehan pe itna bouj tha ke mai kaafi baar failed performance deta tha, jiss pe WOH poori raat haram kar deti thi..... erection issues regular thai. Jab finally azaab ki gharian khatam hote thai, toh ulti pe ulti bad mai bathroom mai hoti thi woh bhi koshish kar ke khamoshi se, warna dhamuke shuru. Pata nahi Sehar tum mera yaqeen karogi ke nahi, magar humbistri hamesha humbistri nahi hoti. Intimate hona eik khushi se lain dain hota hai, do roohon ka milan, do no barabari se ye cheez chahte hai....... haina Sehar?! So yes, main physical touch experience kar chuka hoon magar behurmati aur takleef ke siwa khuch haasil nahi kia. Mere liye bhi tumhare saath ye sab naya hai. Mere wujood ka har hissa sirf tumhara muntazir hai......... kia tumhare dil aur rooh mai iss istimaal shuda shaqs ke liye koi jagah hai?!". 

[After a long time someone asked me about my well-being...I wont say that my previous few weeks were more painful than yours (silence)....Sehar, I am not a virgin anymore....how shall I tell you, what I went through......I wanted to save myself exclusively only for you...but I failed.I use to try alot to avoid it (sex), but sometimes she would threat me..sometimes emotionally blackmail me; always giving different reasons she (Hareem) would force to do IT. Neither was I allowed to be passive, otherwise she would go beserk; pull my hair from back, swear at you. Due to severe mental pressure, I used to give failed performances and in return she would make the entire night hell for me.....regularly I was having erection issues. When finally the torture time (sex) used to be over, I would vomit alot later on in bathroom, that too as silently as possible, othewise she would punch me from back. I dont know wether you will believe me or not Sehar, but getting intimate isnt always getting intimate. Its a give and take with happiness from both partners....isnt it Sehar?! So yes I have experienced physical touch but didnt gain anything out of it except shame and (emotional/mental) pain. All this with you right now is new for me too. Every part of me is waiting for you....is there still space in your heart and soul for this used person?!]

He looked a bit embarassed yet relieved at her, that finally he expressed all his burdens to her and cleared her confusion that he wasnt experiencing marital bliss. Anticipately he waited for her response. All this while she didnt let go of his hands nor did she look at him with disgust.

30 minutes later......

Zamin and Sehar were sitting next to each other on the floor; in front of them a platter with chicken karahi, poori paratha and salad. Usually Zamin didnt eat such greasy food. But today he wanted to eat Sehar's favourite type of dish. 

She was delighted to see her favourite food again after a long time. She was in double awe; not only was he feeding her with his own hands but eating the same food too and looking so comfortable sitting on floor. He didnt let her eat a single bite by herself. She was loving it especially how his fingers touched the inside of her mouth everytime he put a morsel into her mouth. Occasionally she stroked his wrist. 

The atmosphere between them was serene as though Zamin's confession removed a heavy cloud between them and brought them emotionally closer.

Sehar appreciated the fact that Zamin didnt show uncalled male ego after his vulnerable revelation and thought to reward him with some ego boosting and once she got hold of his eyes she held him by the wrist and said to him: 

" Zamin, aap eik bohot khush shakal aur pur kashish aadmi hai.... aap mai kisi lehaz se koi kami nahi hai....ummmm bathtub mai niche ki taraf bhi nazar parhi ti ...... Sab bilkul theek hai. Shayad hi iss dunya mai aap se ziada koi attractive mard ho" . 

[Zamin, you are a very handsome and attractive man...you dont lack in any way anything...ummm in bathtub my eyes also (unintentionally) wandered downwards...all good. Its quite impossible, that theres any man more attractive than you in this world]  she completed her dialogue with a confident grin. 

Zamin just shook his head a little shyly but deep inside he loved how Sehar is vocal about deeper things and how she conveys them. For him this made her highly attractive.

Once dinner was over and Zamin helped her clear it up and as she returned from her last round of putting things away, he came tenderly from behind her and opened his right palm infront of her presenting an orange flavour bonbon.

 Sehar chuckled..... but what he did next she never imagined. 

Before she could pick the sweet from his hand, he closed his palm with a grin and turned her around by the shoulder; quickly he unwrapped the bonbon and placed one half between his teeth and brought his mouth closer to her lips. She had no choice but to part her lips and cover the sticking out bonbon.

 Time stood still as they both were standing in the dim-lit room; their hands automatically rested on each others shoulders and back. Zamin knew his idea wasnt entirely risk free but he wanted to do something memorable and make their first kiss innitiated by him special too.

So here he was standing with the most precious person in his arms and was carefully passing the sweet from his mouth to hers. Sehar's head buzzed everytime she received the warm bonbon which was seconds before in Zamin's mouth. Sometimes they were both sucking on the fast thinning sweet together. This made their hands move onto each others body fervently; Sehar caressed his well defined back, shoulderblades and hips. He stroked her arms and waist up and down. He clearly felt her willingness. His own desire was geared up. His mind could only think of her, his eyes wanted to drink her, his body wanted to make love to her...... he only wanted to see, feel, touch, taste and hear her in this entire world. He was loosing control and Sehar was only increasing it by trying to pull and tug on his t-shirt. 

The sweet was almost finished and kisses werent enough anymore.

Zamin knew the TIME had come. He broke the kiss session and whispered in her ear:

" Do min[2 minute]..... protection" and tenderly backed off from her. 

Zamin opened his wallet with the expectation to find a condom there which he put in few days ago. But right now it wasnt there. ........instantly he blurted in anger: 

" Yeh kia mazaq hai......meine apne haathon se rakha tha khuch dino pehle." 

[What joke is this...I put it in there myself few days ago]

Casually Sehar responded inbetween: " Gir giya hoga". 

[May be it fell out]

Zamin: Nahi, underpocket mai tha..... ye nikala giya hai jaan boojh ke........ phir mohabbat ke daawe kiye jaate hai" 

[No, it was in underpocket...this has been intentionally taken out...than they (second wife) still claim to love me] he fumed.

Sehar studying his anger and frustration came closer to him and touched his elbows and murmured: 

"Koi baat nahi......aap mere husband hai....... aap ka ye haq hai aur mai..........". 

[Its OK...you are my husband....its your right and I........]. 

Before she could complete her sentence, he grasped right away what she was trying to say. His anger and frustration immidiately disappeared seeing her selflessness.

 Within seconds he knelt down beside her and took her hands between his warm palms and with utmost sincerity said: 

" Nahi meri jaan, hargiz nahi........ tumhari zindagi mai pehle se hi bohot toofaan hai, mujhe mazeed izafa nahi daalna. Abhi toh pata nahi aur kitni mushkilatain aur azmaishain baqi hogi, kamazkam meri taraf se tumhe aur koi dushwari ka saamna nahi karna parhe. Pregnancy eik bohot khaas waqt hota hai aurat ke liye aur mai har tarha se ye waqt tumhaara sahi aur sukoon waala banana chahunga.... pehle se hi itne saare eham lamhaat tumhare zaaya hogaye; Shaadi ki raat, moonh dekhai, honeymoon period ki cheezain aur bhi bohot khuch...........aur nahi Sehar".  

[No my love, theres already lots of storm in your life, I dont want to add more. We dont know how many more difficulties and tests are still awaiting us. Atleast from my side you shouldnt have to face more difficulties. Pregnancy is a special time for a woman, and I would want to make it perfect and peaceful for you in every way....already many special moments of your life got wasted; wedding night, first time face seeing ritual, honeymoon phase things and many more....but not more now Sehar.]

Sehar was touched by his every word.

Slowly Sehar's tiredness was kicking in as she tried to suppress her yawn; Zamin looked at at her with adoration as she was about to stand up. Quickly he paused her and asked her: 

" Mere saath aaj yahan pe kaisa laga? Kia ye sab tumhare liye khaas tha? Sehar, mai bayaan nahi karsakta tumhare saath yahan pe guzra hua eik eik lamhe ne mujhe kaise zindagi bakshi....... 18th january meri zindagi ka sab se behtareen din tha; bas zubaan se iqraar aur dil ki awaaz sunne mai dair lag gayi; mujhe koi gila nahi jo khuch bhi uss ke baad mere saath hua.-- Sehar, mai aaj apne poore hosh-o-hawaas mai kehta hoon...maine zindagi mai asal mohabbat sirf tumse ki hai aur tum mere dil mai jaise utri ho, wahan se nikaalna na mumkin hai. Maine mohabbat ki asal maye ni tumhare baad hi seekha-- Placing his forehead on hers: " I-LOVE-YOU Sehar! Tum mera sab khuch ho aur hamesha raho gi". 

[How did you like spending time with me here today? Was it all special for you? Sehar, I cant express how every moment spent with you here gave me a new life....18th january was the best day of my life; just admitting it verbally and listening to my hearts feeling took time; I have no complain about everything which happened after that with me.--Sehar, today in full conciousness I am confessing.....I have truly only loved you in my life and the way you reached inside my heart, its impossible to take you out from there again. I have understood the true meaning of love after you came into my life.--Placing his forehead on hers: " I-LOVE-YOU Sehar. You are my everything and always will be]

Sehar's eyes were completely shimmering with tears.

Without a single word he scooped her in his arms and placed her on the inner side of bed mattress and lied down beside her, he felt very relaxed lying next to her; no suffocation no restlessnes. Sehar wrapped her arms around his neck and felt so secure like never before. Playing with his hair she said:

" Sorry har uss lamhe ke liye jab mujhe laga aap mere liye khuch nahi kar sakte; sorry jab bhi aap pe cheeki aur aap ko bhaga deti thi.....aap ne toh mera haath tab thaama tha jab mere paas khuch bhi nahi bacha tha aur uss ke baad choti choti cheezon se mere dil mai jagaah bana li...... O'haseen insaan, mujhe aap se bohot mohabbat hai; thi aur hamesha rahegi". 

[Sorry for everytime when I thought you couldnt do anything for me; sorry for everytime I yelled at you and sent you away.....you held my hand (stood by me) when I had nothing left and than with little gestures you won my heart....O'gorgeous man, I love you very much, I did and always will (love you)]

They both broke in fits of laughter. Wrapping their arms around each other they shared a few liplocks  until sleep consummed them whilst being fully ready to face Karachi tomorrow together .

Hi readers,

So did you all feel in the serial too that Zamin was never happy to be having to be intimate with Hareem?! I clearly felt so and hope I could convey his inner most thoughts accurately. So yes Zamin and Sehar couldnt get intimate on this confession night. 

But keep reading to find out how Zamin secretly was doing things to win Sehar's heart and how their preparing together for their actual love life to start (very HOT) and of course finally how their marriage consummation night goes. Also how their beautiful life in their own home goes (filled with love and lots of Hotness). 

In serial they confessed their love in hospital after Zamin being beaten up in hydrabad. Read my OS to know what else happened in the hospital between them. (HOT ;) )

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