I just left the set and started to march towards home......I don't know why from evening I started to feel restless something was wrong but I don't know what it is.....there was not a single call from home so I guess all is fine.i think I am just overthinking because of work pressure...... when I reach to my society I get a call from Ma asking me to take the kids from her home.....she said that she tried to call Shehnaaz but her phone was unreachable and my girls started to get cranky because they wanted to meet their mumma.....I reached her flat and rang the bell.....she opened the door....I gave a quick tight hug to her.....but before I continue I felt a pull on my trouser when I saw there I found my both munchkin are hugging my legs and trying to climb on it to reach to me.....they are so cute u know just like there mumma I take both in my arms....they were so happy to see me back they gave me kisses on my face just like their mom.....I felt so relaxed with them..... before I walk out of the house mom asked me....
Mom:Sid Sana se Teri baat hui kya aaj?
Sid: Nahi to kyu kya hua?
Mom:pata Nahi shaam ko jab ayi thi inhe chodne
           She was looking in some kind of tension I asked her what it is but she just told me that just work pressure and now when I tried to call her uska phone hi Nahi lag Raha ye dono jid Kar rahi thi ki mumma ke pass Jana hai phir tujhe call Kiya ki Tu agaya Hoga....

Sid: may kaam Ka hi pressure ho mom don't take a tension Mai dekhta hu usko....and u my little devils dadi ko kyu pareshan Kiya Haan?
Both just looked at me innocently one more thing they get from their mom their innocent face but both are so devils.....by taking them I marched towards my flat and ring the bell but no one opened the door....strange finally I put them on ground and open the door with spare key.... whole house is so darker I think she must be outside warna abtak to madam Ka cooking khatam hone ko ajata hai.....as I enter I started to get once again the restlessness......I switch on the lights and take the girls inside.....both started to scream mumma mumma and started to ran in the house to search for her.....dheere bacche gir jaoge ruko but before I can stop them they enter the room I also move behind them when I reached inside the room I switched on the lights I got a shock Shehnaaz was seatting on the bed her head was in between her legs..... when girls marched towards her screaming her name happily she move her head up......her face was full red her eyes was swollen it looks like she was crying from quite some time..... before I can ask her girls marched on her and started to get scared seeing her like that and started sobbing.....she after looking at them realise her condition she wipes her tears immediately and take them in her arms consoling them all is fine but I guessed it something is terribly wrong before I reach towards her to ask door bell rang I marched against towards it and open it....there was Neetu standing with a broad smile thank God she was here I immediately call her inside went in bedroom and tell the girls about their bua they happily came out running to meet her.....I told her to take kids with her and told her I will tell her after sometime......she went away and I again marched towards room when I reached there I found Sana coming out from bathroom wiping her face the moment she saw me she started y to cried.....her cries were so painful the moment she started I started to feel a ache in my heart.....I can't see her like this I ran towards her and engulfed her in my arms she just hugged me tightly.....and started to cry more....I take her towards bed and sat there and try to stop her

Sid:Sana baby kya hua bata to Sahi aise plz mat ro meri jaan I can't see you like this plz batana

She just clutched my shirt in her tiny fist and started to cry more loudly but atleast I sooth her trying to find out what was reason of her cries....she just pointed towards bed and I found a file there when I take it and read it I was so shocked and tears started to flow from my eyes I know why she was feeling like this but there something more to it......I controlled myself again took her in my arms and started to found out the reason but not before kissing her forehead.....

Sid:Baby ye to Khushi ki baat hai I know what u r feeling but Dekh na he is coming to us again our baby is coming back us again to Tu ro kyu rahi hai?

But she didn't answer and just went on sobbing but now silently....

Sid:Kahi Tu Nahi chahati ki ye aye iss  duni...

But before I complete I get a very tight slap on my cheeks I just looked shocked at her......

Sana: how dare you? Teri himmat kaise hui ye baat sochne ki? Haan bol na bol Tu Soch bhi kaise Sakta hai aise?

She just started to went out of room but before that I held her wrist and pull her towards me....
She landed on my lap I hold her tightly...

Sid:I am sorry baby but phir Baat kya hai Tu kyu ro rahi hai itna ye to Khushi ki baat hai na baby we gonna have again one more little Shukla or shuklain
Sana: I am scared Sidharth Kahi ye phir Hume chod ke Chala Gaya to pichli 2 Baar ki Tarah....

My hold on her get so tight and a quick flashback of 2 years ran Infront my eyes people must be thinking these two yrs must be the happiest one for us thinking we met and which was pure lie....those two years was the worst years from our life I lost my baby two times and my Jaan also almost I lossed her I just event can't think about it....those two yrs were most painful period Shehnaaz get pregnant 2 Time and had a miscarriage.....first one during her controversy she get miscarriage at that time I was so angry on her thinking because of her I lost and said so mean things to her in anger that she tried to end her life I was so so scared at that time she was in hospital for one full week my girls were crying for their mumma she was on bed resting lifeless one of the big reason was me because of my stupidity I almost lost her......but at the same time I was so angry on her she without thinking about me and my kids tried to do sucide just because I said something rubbish......I was so scared at that time I just decided that I can't live away from her now when she get discharge we just left out of country and at the same time I got a offer from BB to be in the show I was not at all ready to go in living her behind alone I can't but she was so excited for me I also wanted to start my work again BB Was good platform for it to come back but at the same time I know how it works I was not at all ready to live without Shehnaaz......then my friend gave me suggestion to take her with me with my contact she also get a chance to enter.....no one in industry knows that I was married and having a family......I don't find BB as a platform to tell people about I can't let people to judge my relation and my wife so we decided to not disclose about it.....and in the end I came out as a winner but the prise for winning was so much the image of Shehnaaz was get trainshed in last week so much by the show but still my Jaan reach 3rd place then MSK happened that was so so wrong show for her but at the same time right one to show that how much she loyal to me but again that thing gave us pain Shehnaaz was 2nd time pregnant at that time but before we get to know it she had her miscarriage once again because of contineous stress she was in contineous depression from 2 yrs but still she stand strong for me BB actually make us more strong for which I am so thankful of it......

Because of her once again painful sob I came out of my flashback.....

I tightly hug her

Sid : mat ro meri jaan issbaar aisa Kuch Nahi Hoga Mai Hu na tere Saath ye ISS Baar Apne mummy Papa ko chodke Nahi Jayega thik hai abhi Rona band Kar plz....

Sana: Sidharth I am so scared log kya bolenge specially humare fans humne unhe cheat Kiya Kahi guesse Mai ake Kisi ne humare baby ke liye Kuch Bola to....I just can't take it I will die if something happened to him this time I just can't take it.....

Sid: Baby sun meri baat I don't care about people and about fan if they loves us truly they will understand and us and chamat khayegi Tu agar tune phirse Marne ke naam liya to.....I am with you sab thik Hoga this time ye humare Saath hoga.....itne din tune to samjhaya tha mujhe aaj Tu aise baat Kar rahi hai chal Rona band Kar ab Thik hai.....meri betiyaa mujhe Marengi tujhe aisa Dekh Kar bolengi papa mummy ko kyu rulaya?

Sana:(smile and said) chup Kar ja Teri nautanki satayi hui bahu

She smiled I get my peace back I know what I wanted to do now.....

I just bend near her tummy and place my hand on it saying "baby mumma papa loves you so much this time I will not let you go away from us that's our promise" and kissed her tummy and then her forehead and then headed back to take my daughter towards neetu's home.........

The End

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