I am tired. Plain and simple. I'm just so tired, physically and mentally, I have no energy to do the things I once loved doing.
  I can't force myself to get out of bed. When I sleep, I wake up in the middle of the night from a nightmare, or I can't get to sleep at all. I wish I could express how bad it hurts. I wake up crying, in a pool of my own sweat, disgusted with myself, and who I am.
  I just want to sleep for a whole night without waking up in the middle of it, without fearing the next morning I'll be tired and won't get anything done. But I can't.
  I'm dizzy, everything is in blur, I am scared. I'm scared of what people will think of me, what they'll say about me. No matter what I do, what I listen to, I can't get to sleep. I feel like I have tried everything, and they have all failed.
   I fail to.