WARNING ⚠️:
There is going to be alittle dark and may be considered triggering,

Leo pov,
1 week later

Why did you leave Raph alone?He could of died ,why didn't you see that Raph was in pain.He was alone like you!Is that what you want him to feel like?

"LEO!"
Splinter calls.
He had a face plastered with worry.
" yes,sensei?"
I say wiping sweat dripping off my forehead.

My hand cramping because of the hours of training  with the punching bag.

"Are you alright?"
Sensei asks as he makes his way closer with the rest of my brothers following behind.
I nod and reassuring him.
I feel my heart pound as I see Raph following in the with the rest of my family.

He wasn't his usual dark green skin tone turtle.

His face was almost life less ,and he had lost all his strong intimidating muscles.

My heart ached every time I saw my brother .

Sensei then broke my train of thought when he said " we will spare today.Leonardo against Raphael first."

I rise from my sitting position,and make my way to the left side of the dojo and take one of my Katana's out of its case.

Raph got his sia's out ,and loosely twirled them.

"Begin!"Splinter announced.

My heart didn't pound like it usually would when me and Raph would fight.My heart in a way tugged me back from fighting Raph.I just couldn't.

Raph is so fragile right now.He's like this because of me ,and I'm going to fight him and make him worse?

Then BAM!

My head slung to the floor.
My arm in pain.I look up to see Raph painting.
"Come on Leo,your better than this!"
His words loose ,and frail.They weren't threatening.
I slowly raise off the floor.

Raph then struck again harder.
My anger began to rise.I didn't want to hurt him ,but he's hurting me!
"Come on Raph!" Miley screams from the side lines.

Raph then comes for a final blow.My pity for him vanished.
He's hurting me!I can't take this!

I duck ,then slip to the side then flip him to the ground.

He laid on the ground motionless.

Splinter rushed over to him.He quickly looked him over then turned to me .
"Leonardo how could you?"

"What?What did I do?" I say anger ,and tears coming closer to the edge of breaking.

"Get out!"
After splinter said this I stood frozen.
What?

Mikey rises off the floor next to Raph and pushes me out.

What did I do? What's it matter now your worthless anyway?At least you see that now.

Tears then finally make their appearance.

I ran out of the lair to the roof of a electronics building.
Once I arrived to the top I threw my swords to the other side of the building.

My tears scratching down my face.Each one hurting more ,more.

My breathing becoming faster.
After minutes of walking back ,and forth.Breathing in and out.Breathing in through my nose out the mouth.Nothing could satisfy this feeling.

I can't do this.I can't do this anymore.I need to let this out.

I look down at my belt ,and pulled out my small dagger.
It was for emergencies like cutting rope.

However when I saw this knife it reassured me .

I know how to let this pain out!

I went over to the other side of the building where my katanas were.
I slipped my legs on the other side dangling off the edge.

I took a slow long breath while laying the knife on my skin.Then I slowly moved the blade across my skin.It didn't hurt.It felt wonderful.The tugging of my skin felt like tons of weight off my shoulders was lifted.My breathing went back to normal.It was wonderful.I just sat there watching my blood come out of the cut ,and rolling off my arm.

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A/N

I AM SOOOO SORRY ABOUT THE LONG WAIT!

I am having some family emergencies going on .
As well as my depression is worse than ever so writing these stories are a little hard for me to write.However it is!!I hope it can make up for the long wait?
Sorry but I plan to write more.
Sorry guys!
Please excuse spelling errors 😅😅
I love you my owls!!