Silence and Pain

Silence...
Silence...
More silence...

The thoughts that come with its appearance, are just too unbearable.
And its presence is grieving and painful...

The itching and stinging sensation at the back of my eyes is too much to handle...
I don't think I have the courage to hold it in any more.
I finally lose all control of my inner self and let it flow...
And with each drop is an unanswered question.

One drop... Why me?
Second drop... Am I just a mistake?
Third drop... What did I ever do to deserve all this?
Fourth drop... Can't I just feel loved for once?
Fifth drop... Why is my life so seriously screwed?

It goes on and on like that for hours.
Until I'm left bare and void of any emotions.

The clock ticks slowly, with time flying without a care.
Mocking me with the hours that have passed, since waking up,
From the peace and comfort of sleep and my pillow.

It wasn't supposed to be like this.
I wasn't supposed to be with tears and an upside down smile.
I was supposed to be smiling and laughing.

But no!
No! No! No! No! No!
Because of them, I'm grieving.
I'm dying internally of pain.
My thoughts have become a jungle of emotions.
But still they are oblivious to everything.

I'm beginning to think I'm going insane.
And the last bit of my sanity, is hanging on the line by a thread thinner than a cobweb.

Is there no escape from this?
Must I reach my breaking point before I'm set free?
Someone please just save me from this torment...

I'm dying in silence.
And my thoughts are leaving permanent scars.
Will this torture and pain ever ease?
I just need a breakthrough.
And I don't know if It'll ever come to my aid.

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