date written: july 11th, 2021.

Title: A Sunny Night.

In another phase of nostalgia;🦋
"The Moon Is Up Again"

In search of peace of mind
Serenity; I try to find
Victimizing myself in this daily grind
But the world still isn't kind

Friends beloved departed thither
I thought we was in this together
No one knows and no one helps
Once the moon is up
I am at war in my mind
The voices in my head asking dark questions

When you're fifteen and don't know what your purpose is...
Which is my worst enemy; my mind or the night?
Against my rebellious heart is my greatest fight
At a constant unrest

Deep in and sinking in this feeling
Drowning in overthinking
I just need understanding
No hands but me way under, anxiety still dragging

My true self unknown
Butterflies? more like kidney stone
Wish I could smell His cologne
This pain I can't condone

Void of the right answers
Lost, empty, numb, melancholy
Attachment, temptations, fears
Desires and cravings tryna eat me
Feels of irrelevance be overwhelming
Groaning that cannot be uttered

Most times wish I was a fictional character
Maybe then I could test the waters
But if I try that in reality; I would drown
This is my life and...
"...ain't no sunshine here"

Then again; hope says...
"Even if not all days are gold
I still believe in good days
Because everything is a phase."

    A Poem by: Joannie🦋!