Warning: cringe-fest and a lot of crack shit. Like honestly I don't know anymore so this will be very stupid and unorganized lmao.

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"I can't believe you're still crying." Renjun mutters from his place on Jaemin's couch, staring at the latter with a heavy gaze.

Jaemin was sobbing, for a while now, a certain journal opened in front of him as his tears drop onto the pages, slightly soaking it.

His legs are numb from his position but he doesn't care right now, "it's just so– messy!"

"Yeah we get it, all of us fucked up. But it isn't too late to fix it, Jeno literally loves you. And I'm saying this as his ex boyfriend who knows that certain look he gave you." Renjun sassily says.

"Shut up, Jun! I'm still emotional of this fucking journal." Jaemin cries, sniffling as he rereads a description on one of the pages.

"Why? You realized it all?"

"Duh! Jeno literally admits it here that he has liked me since day one, and apparently I was the most realest person he's met."

"I feel so offended but where's the lie?" Renjun couldn't help but quip, liking it when Jaemin is being teased even at this emotional situation.

"Anyways, he isn't wrong. You were only against him because of us and the rumors. You just go with the flow, trusting others' words because you've been fooled by their fake images."

"If it wasn't for us, I can highly agree with him that you would've been more accepting and your relationship could have started early." Renjun shrugs his shoulders.

"I feel so bad!" Jaemin whines, and Renjun has the audacity to giggle at him. "I just– pushed him away and– goddamn!"

Jaemin doesn't bother to tell him to shut up anymore, he remembers what type of friend Renjun is, very similar to Haechan who would seem to be ignorant but isn't.

Despite the elder boy acting like he doesn't care about Jaemin's state and is not taking him seriously, Jaemin knows he genuinely is in the inside.

Putting up a front to cover his soft side, being snarky and teasing him even with tears running down his cheeks.

It's like those two best friends laughing at the other when they had tripped over or fallen down.

However, in the end they would help and are always there for each other.

"Eh, we've all been there y'know." He walks over to sit beside him, patting his back carelessly. "Like look at me, I'm giving you actual advices because we're in good terms now."

"Oh fuck that," Jaemin suddenly swats his hand away and takes a loud sniffle, ignoring Renjun grimacing in disgust.

He suddenly snatches his phone from the table, "what the hell are you doing– WHERE ARE YOU GOING?!" Renjun panics.

Jaemin marches up to the door, bringing his phone and the journal with him as Renjun tries to catch up. "Jaemin!"

"Don't follow me." Stumbling as he puts on his shoes.

"With you crying because you're extremely lovesick and being stupid? Hell no." Crossing his arms as he stands in front of Jaemin, blocking his way.

"I'm not being stupid."

"Then tell me where you're going, it's almost dinner!" Renjun shrieks, pointing out the fact that they are indeed starving and it's getting dark out.

Jaemin scoffs, "I'm going to fix things and get my man back!" Pushing Renjun to the side and twisting the doorknob.

Renjun stares at him, "okay I'm proud of you for doing this and I'm full on supporting you guys, but at least eat something first, you idiot!" Screaming at the blond haired boy.

Jaemin has the audacity to look over his shoulder and smirks, "I'll be eating Jeno's ass, it's okay!" Running away from Renjun's screaming.

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Now, initially Jaemin thought this would be very intimidating and difficult to do; confronting Jeno at his house.

Overthinking and being dramatic – Renjun claims – that the guards or staff won't let him in anymore and Jeno sent them to hunt him or something because he broke his heart.

But his worries washed away once the guard smiles at him, recognizing him for obvious reasons and lets him in without even asking or calling from his walkie-talkie.

Like nothing ever happened between him and Jeno.

He wonders if they knew– then again, it's not like it matters because Jeno doesn't seem to be a petty person.

Jaemin reminds himself how lucky he is to be in love with a guy like Jeno, who doesn't push him away completely and lets both of them breathe.

He occupies himself with those thoughts on his way to the front door, as if it's a way of reassurance that things will turn out just fine.

But then the door opens and he was greeted by Mr. Lee instead of Smithers, breath clogged up in his throat as he tries to utter a single word.

"Ah, Jaemin," the man hums before smiling faintly. "Here to see Jeno?"

He nods, small as he gulps nervously. "Come in, come in!" Suddenly ushering him inside, Jaemin was flustered but manages to finally flash the man an awkward smile.

This was not how he planned on confronting Jeno.

If he had knew Jeno's parents have finally gotten back home from so much difficulties, he would have saved his plan for another day or at least at school.

However, maybe it isn't all too bad as this is one of those moments where he gains confidence (even for a short bit), and tries to do something out of character.

"Jaem?" He snaps out of his thoughts, seeing Jeno standing there in his house clothes; a pair of shorts and a t-shirt that was definitely bigger than his figure.

He looks pretty.

"I'll leave you guys to it, dinner is about to be ready though so don't starve yourselves!" Mr. Lee happily says, patting Jaemin on the back before disappearing to another room.

He knows. Definitely.

"Uh..."

Jeno smiles softly at him, taking a few steps closer and pulls him by the hip. "Is it time?" He tilts his head to the side.

"What?"

Giggling, Jeno muses at his confusion and soon takes him by his bicep. Leading them to the stairs, "Follow me."

Jaemin recalls him saying that the first time he was welcomed here, and this time he doesn't have anything negative towards Jeno.

Only hope.

With courage, he halts for a moment and bites his lower lip at Jeno raising a brow from the abrupt action.

Taking his hand, he squeezes it and nods. Jeno glancing at their interlocked fingers, smiling as he nods back.

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Welp it's already very late rn AKCNSK

SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE, JUST GOT BACK FROM LATE NIGHT ERRANDS.

Thoughts???

Empty :p