it's been a long time. it's been a long time since he feels this feeling, again. the feeling of in just a blink of an eye, his whole world just collapse. the feeling of the dark starts covering his heart in just a second. the feeling that he's not gonna do it, nothing's will be fine, everything's not worth it. he's useless, vulnerable and he's not loved. his positivity, his confidence, they just disappeared, so fast, leaving him with all these mixed emotions, turning him into a mess.

"hey, i'm here, with you, always"

there it is, his light, his savior that picked him up, saved him from his deepest fear. the person gives him a hand, holds him up from the corner of the bathroom and takes him to the bed amd they start cuddling.

he loves this person, so much. cupping the person's face with his arms full of scars, lean in for a kiss. between the kisses, he murmured "i love you" and giggles a lil bit when the other boy answers with a tighter hug.

that's all he needs. those feelings will comeback , maybe even stronger but it's fine as long as he has his love beside him, he thought.

written by xôi

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