~Aphmau's P.O.V~
After Zoey said i was in a stable, but needed to rest, She took both Levin and Malachi out of my room. Garroth went back to patrolling the areas but Laurence stayed with me. I took notice now that his eyes were glossy and his mouth quivered, i could also feel him let out low soft sniffles. " Laru-" i was cut off by him coming up to me and hugged me. This time i knew he broke down in tears, " shh it's alright Laurence...." i said and hugged back.
~ few minutes later~
" Laurence are you okay?" i asked him. He sure did bottle up his emotions cause i never seen him cry that much. " yeah...but you have no idea how much it hurt me to see you there lying on the bed motionless. I thought that.. you wouldn't wake up" he said looking at the bed sheets. " why would you think that?" i asked. He looked at me with anger but tears still streamed down his face. " i didn't want to tell Malachi but...he made me see my worse fear as well as him and Levin. then that got me thinking that what if you never woke up. What if....what if i lost you to that incident. Don't you see Aphmau, It hurts me to see you hurt in any way or form. IT WOULD HURT ME MORE IF YOU LEFT THIS WORLD WITHOUT AT LEAST TELLING ME HOW YOU REALLY FEEL ABOUT ME, KNOWING THAT I COULD ATLEAST HAVE A CHANCE AND THEN YOU JUST LEAVE LIKE THAT" he said as more tears streamed down his face and his mouth quivered as well. " Laurence..." i said but he cut me off by putting his finger on my mouth preventing me from talking. " no...please let me finish. I know that you know that i love you with my life and if you were to leave in any way would hurt but at least i would know which way. If you were to get married to someone leave to a different village i would be there for you to support you, but to have you die when i couldn't do anything would break me down. and i wouldn't know if you loved me or not or at least felt something. Aphmau?..." he said and slowly leaned in but i backed up a bit. Tears were rolling down my cheeks now, i guess he took notice of this because he moved away. " Laurence...i-i honestly don't know what to say...but i do know how you feel... i went t-through the same t-thing long ago but....i do know how i feel t-t-towards you" i said and realized what i said, i covered my mouth to stop anything else from coming out. He slowly put his hands up to mine and began to remove my hands. " Aphmau..." he said before i felt his lips crash into mine, tears still rolling down my face and his to, i was so shocked, but yet it....felt so right. I closed my eyes and enjoyed this moment until i opened my eyes again and i was lying on my bed. I got up and saw it was night and looked around Laurence was standing near the door. " Aphmau your awake" he said with a hint of joy in his voice. It was all a dream a wonderful yet....sad dream. " Are you alright Aphmau?" he said, i needed to tell him before a lose this opportunity. " Laurence I wanted to tell you that....i-i....." my voice cracked. I knew he loved me but i don't think it was still time. Five years already knowing him and him waiting but i still wasn't ready. " you what Aphmau?" he said coming close. Ah what do i do now, i couldn't let myself break down. " I...whish to be alone in my room please.." i said in a low shallow voice, He nodded and said goodnight before he left my room. That's when i broke down, i let my chance walk out of this very room. I had a chance and yet i gave it up. I cried myself to sleep that night.