He walks up to me after school. Asks if I've seen snap chat. I say no and he says she hates us and is done with us. What the hell does that mean. He storms off before I can say anything else. Oh boy I must have fucked up. What did I do this time. Every time things start looking up for me..... I always manage to mess things up.... this is why I have such few friends. I check snapchat to see this long letter about how he was flirting with me and ect. What does that mean I'm a lesbian. I told her I like her not anybody else. I'm so confused. I try to explain to her what happened but she just ignores me and when she does respond says she never wants to talk to me again. She hates me. I love her. What is wrong with me? I always fuck everything up this is all my fault. Another love lost because of your stupidity you should just die. I need some pain meds maybe five will fix the pain I feel in my heart.... I should just die...