तेरा वस्ल ऐ मेरी दिलरुबा
नहीं मेरी किस्मत तो क्या हुआ
मेरी महजूबी यही कम है क्या
तेरी हसरतों का तो साथ है

Laying on bed,  with her dupatta on him....
Now and then smelling the scent

Her everything on place
Her clothes in almari
Her makeup on dressing table
Her bindi still sticking on the mirror
Her mangalsutr hanging by the bangles stand.

Her shampoos and shower gel and facewashes..... In washroom
Her toothbrush too kept beside his.

Her blanket and pillow which he hug while sleeping.

And not a single space on wall empty from her photo frame.

Preserving every evidence of her existence.
Keeping her alive in this bedroom
As if she is still breathing here.

Flashback

Just three months of relationship
And she was on his bed.
Watching him opening his shirt  buttons
Preying on her semi naked body.

She was shivering and sweating
Yet blushing with excitement

"Dar to nahi lag raha cadet singh "
He Had asked with alcoholic dark eyes

Making her go weak on her knees

"No sir"
She had replied with shyness

Pulling her up to make her sit
He command her to take off the top
She had followed
Ready to give herself to him

He knew he was very fast with her
But  he was tired of suppressing his hunger for her skin.

She had shouted her lungs out
Damaging his ear buds
Moaning and screaming at the top of her voice.

As he went uncontrollable over her.
Enjoying her depth.
As she had cluth him tight...
Telling him how much she love him
At the same time pulling him more close.... For kiss..... Squashing their lips against Eachother

Two months later...

He came driving rash..... To her
Dashing inside her room

She was sitting crying in front of him

Rajveer - janu.... Kyaa hua

She had ran to him hugging him tight crying more hard.

And kept crying for next 15 mins...
Wetting his shirt
Aa he sat holding her tight in his arms.

Rajveer - naina tum jab tak mujhe bataogi nahi mujhe pata kaise chlaega ke baat kya hai..

He asked unable to stop her from crying

She showed him pregnancy strip.

Naina - its positive...
She said sobbing

And he saw the two red line on strip.

Rajveer - ye two lines ka matlab positive hota hai.

He asked with excitement in his eyes

Naina - haan.
Ab hum kya karenge..
She cried hiding her face with her hands.

Rajveer - shadi karenge aur kya karenge you stupid girl.

He laughed with happiness

Hugging her tight kissing her cheek hard.

Flashback ends and he didn't realize free flowing tears from her eyes.

Wo jab yaad ayee
Bohot yaad aye...
Gum-e-zindagi ke
Andhere mein humne
Chirag-e-mohabbat
Jalae bujhae.....

Wo jab yaad aye
Bohot yaad aye

He  got up and went to her bedroom
Ridhima was sleeping curled up in one corner of the bed.
With one leg in and one out of the blanket

He smiled with tears dropping from his eyes

She sleeps just like her.

He sat beside her on the edge of bed
Patting her hairs.
Feeling guilty for shouting at her.

How can he raise his voice on her
His sweet fairy
This small packet of candy is the reason he took his best decision of life so quick and early

Marrying naina was the best thing happen in his life.
And he got his happiness without any further dely
Because this little impatient muffin was too excited to come in their life.

She is the reason he is alive without naina.
She looks exactly like her mother.
Her eyes, her angry nose,  her hairs.
Everything about her remind him of naina...

The way he stomp her feet out of stubbornness
The way she gets angry on petty things
And the way she hop around him like a kitten...

Sometimes he fail to decide weather he love his daughter more or her mother.

She is very brave too
Just like her mother.
To suffer the loss of mother at tender age of 13
And to get raised by a traumatized father.

Whole one year he was is deep depression....
Not able to pay attention to her...
Ridhima started living with her nani...
And then she too passed away in six months and he bring her back.
Still unable to gather back the shattered pieces of himself

And when at the age of 14 when once she came crying to him that she is bleeding
He realize that he need to live for her not just being her father but from now  he need to become her mother too....

He Gave  her teenage lessons.
Explaining her about it.
Even buying her first bra.... For her

She never felt uncomfortable with her father
This was his victory of playing role of a mother so perfectly

She use to go school  with improper plait.... Made by him
Use to eat food made by him sometimes without salt and sometimes too spicy.

At small age she learned to iron her school uniform and his uniform too

Cleaning the utensils to help him after dinner.
Setting his morning bag.

They both started doing things for Eachother....
Unfinished, improper
Still giving their best act of service

She never complain about anything to him
Getting mature before age.

Even once telling Him that he can marry again if he wish too.....
She will be ok with it.
As she had noticed his friends  ananya's interest in his dad.... 

He had hugged her tight saying

"You are enough for  me to survive "

He felt her soft hands wiping his tears
She was awake watching him cry and was crying too...

Ridhima - I am sorry dad....
She said and he saw her with helpless eyes

She pressed her hand between his hands....
Rajveer - no jaan.
I am sorry...

He said and broke into crying

"Dad.... "
She immediately came down sitting next to him....
Comforting him

Rajveer-  I know I have become weird.
Talking with dead people...
Its not normal....

I know, I should take my medicine on time...
Lekin ridhu.....

He took a deep breath as tears were choking his throat.

"Jab wo .... dikhni band ho jati.....  hain to... Main saans nahi le pata hun... "

He said between his sobs...

And Ridhima felt so helpless.....

"Mujhe pata hai that she is just a fragment of my imagination
But jab main usse bat karta hun...
It feel so real....
Jaise wo Sach mein ho...

Main....  Apne ap ko rok hi nahi pata hun....
Main....  Main kaise maan lun ke wo chali gayi.

I am loosing my mind.... "

He said holding his head with his hand out of helplessness
"I know i have become psycho.....
Ridhu..... Are you..... Are you ashamed of me "

He asked crying
And she cried harder loudly not able to see her father in pain anymore
She threw herself in his embrace and he quickly hold her tight....

"Don't talk rubbish dad....
I love you....
And I am soo soo proud of you...
You are the best dad.... In the world
And more than that your are the best kind of mother too a child can get...
You are my family dad...

I am not embarrassed of you

She said crying....

I am just soo soo worried for you.
I can't see you in pain.
I want you to be happy and healthy.

I am so afraid of loosing you...

Both sat their crying.....
Holding Eachother

And she slept in his arms tired of crying

Morning

"Chai banaun"
She asked sweetly
Waking him up with a smile

He noded a yes

"Good morning "
She kissed his cheek

"Good morning "
He replied back in sleep.

She went to make tea.... And he got up to stretch himself.
be
And saw naina sitting there beside him
He turned his face away

"What "
She asked

"Don't talk to me
Tumhari wajah se kal mera ridhu se jhagda ho gaya... "
He snapped her

"O hello....
You keep calling me by not having your medicine.....
Aur Meri wajah se jhagda hua"

She asked with frown

"Yes tumhari wajah se hua
Don't talk to me "
He folded his hands looking at his left

"Fine I wont be talking to you"
She sat and folded her hands looking at her right.