it's supposed to be natural
you're supposed to go with the flow
let the music flow through you
but what if you can't?
there's nothing that's compelling you upward
there's only the want to stay sedantary
to remain in bed, not moving
remain passive instead of letting your body let go
you don't want to
you don't know what will happen
but they try to make you anyways
and for a moment, there's a point of clarity
which burns through your bad mood
yet, with everything going on, you're overwhelmed
don't they know that?
don't they understand?
why can't you just sit with her?
why do you have to move around?
why do you have to do things you never wanted to?
that car ride made you uncomfortable
why did you even agree?
he was willing to go and leave you guys be
but she wasn't about that life
she was bored with you sitting there
saying nothing
you tried to help her
she said she got it herself
and she did because who are you to move around
to do things you think people might think weird?
you did help, but only when she conceded
she doesn't understand
she means the world to you
she used to be the light of your life
and she had you there in her arms
she had kissed your lips and made you feel whole
and now she doesn't
because it's been years since that happened
and perhaps she has moved on
you wish you could, you wish you could be her friend
strictly her friend, but there's nothing which makes you happy
then she makes you dance
if you were alone, it might have been different
if it were just you two, perhaps it would've been okay
you would have been dancing
but he was there
and you don't feel comfortable around him yet
not enough to engage with her in the way you want
it's not like before
it's not
like
before