I never meant to make it such a mess
I never thought that it would go this far

So I just stand here sorry
Searching for something to say

Words fail, words fail
There's nothing I can say

sometimes you see everything you wanted and
sometimes, you see everything you wish you had
And it's right there, right there, right there
In front of you
And you want to believe it's true

But we were happy
I guess I couldn't let that go

I guess I wanted to believe
'Cause if I just believe
Then I don't have to see what's really there

No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than these broken parts
Pretend I'm something other than this mess that I am
'Cause then I don't have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it

'Cause I've learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
I never let them see the worst of me

'Cause what if everyone saw?
What if everyone knew?
Would they like what they saw?
Or would they hate it too?
Will I just keep on running away from what's true?
All I ever do is run