Here's my everything,
I'll give everything to you,

Please don't save me, I beg,
Just let me die and be at rest,

It's redundant anyways,
I have no life, last ways,

Some tell me, is outside a rainy day?

Tell me is out there happy?
Is the grass thriving?

Or is it suffering from this atrocious day?

Why would I be laughing?
I don't want a smile,
I don't think a joke was given.

Dark humor, I ain't into it,
But sometimes my mind giggles, horrified,

Horrified that I'll end up like this,
But what's there to be afraid of anyway?

The dark grey clouds?
Or the shining sky?

My dark red orbs?
Or everyone's lies?

I'm slowly losing everything,
Realizing everyone's mistakes and falls,

Not a tiny forgiveness in my heart,
Gotta save that shit for my best of all.

So what am I doing?
I just sit down and watch,

As everything in front me takes a toll,
Or just the broken bridge near by,

Cause I don't know if I should care anymore.

Everyone wants Christmas and reindeers,
But I just want happiness installed on my phone,

I wanna make that app,
And give away my heart,

Just because it's so sad.

I'm sure I'm not only living for this,
But it surely seems so,

My life's got no purpose,
Everyone around me is hurting,

What am I supposed to do?

Sit and watch,
Listen and read,

Cause this is all a nightmare,
I'll soon wake up a few days later,

Thankful that this sea storm is over.

I'll hug you tighter than usual,
I'll make you feel loved as usual,

Then I'll try my best,
To give you all the love in my heart,

I wake up to the same shit everyday,
Unicorns, pigtails, isn't that cliche?

I'm running in my head,
But no one's seeing,

I wanna be relieved,
But instead am grieving,

I'm crying about the girl that died,
Now she doesn't exist,

She's in my heart,
And she'll always be there,

I can't seem to get anywhere,
Out of my head.

Tears stream down my eyes,
Now gosh, I'm terrified,

I'm gonna run, scream, and cry,
At this beautiful blue-green sky,

I thought I was losing it,
It ended with me being insane,

Now I know I'll never be the same,
Never as always,

Not the one they want,
Not the girl they saw.