I'm emotionless again, i can't take life anymore. My favorite cousin is gone the one person who let's me be myself and he's gone CAUSE OF A STUPID MISTAKE HE DID. I can't take it anymore i know it's been a while since he died and everyone else is moving on. I can't move on not without knowing who killed my cousin so i can kill them and really i don't care if i get busted at least i know my cousins killer is dead. But i know I'll never find them so i mind as well kill myself so i can join him. I hope if i do end myself i might see him again i hope i will. I miss my cousin whoever killed him will have a knife in their throat and that's a promise and if their here just know I'll come after you when I'm old enough to leave my home alone and i will not stop till your dead and gone. I might not be on for a few days i need time so don't worry about me at all cause I'll be fine I'm always fine. Maybe I'll see you guys in a month or more.