hey guys...yall really dont know how much i appreciate yall..

like, socially wise, im off pretty okay? like i can be an acquaintance to pretty much anyway and carry on a cheerful conversation..but it just not as real? remember umbra, in arc 4? yeah thats how i feel sometimes

but anyway,,when it comes to my ideas and stories, im not like that. im the person who will refuse to tell you anything about what im drawing, not bc its dirty or anything, but bc im just so embarrassed and stuff abt it. you'd be hard pressed to even get me to utter the name umbra irl. i wont. ill just say "im uh just drawing,,one of my characters it doesnt matter its nothing"

i dont know why im like this but for years and years and years my ideas have been just that- mine. no one heard about them. i was ashamed and bashful about how passionate i was about this and i didnt want anyone to get sick of it

im always so scared someone's gonna get mad at me if i keep talking about the things i like and the things i create so it just feels more natural to bottle up everything and Never Talk About It Ever bc i dont wanna get hurt

i dont even tell my family about my writing. no one knows.

and so when ppl on here talk to me abt my stories and actually just,,,let me be safe and talk it feels so nice i cant even describe it thank you so much for enjoying my content and giving me a safe space to talk

it means the world to me, ok? just to have somewhere to talk and people that are actually invested in what i like,,

just thanks ok