Wanting to do so many things and needing to do so many other things, most of which you don't want to do, and not being able to do any of them because there are too many things and you can't focus, and despising yourself for wanting to whine about it all but wanting to whine all the same, and unexpected things coming up that make it harder to do the things, and feeling unproductive 80% of the time for the past year, and not wanting to think about New Year's resolutions and all the things you wanted to do this year and didn't, and wanting to connect deeply with friends but not having time to talk to them, and I feel like a pathetic person for posting this but I'm going to post it anyway, goodnight fam love you all <3