so this is something i would find serious. no jokes pls

so my friends cam be harsh with jokes, and my teacher today was talking about that, how words, even suppose to be taken as jokes, can be very effective and you wont know tye exact outcome.

my friends are sometimes like that, they might say (not using my irl name) "ur ugly" or "we arent friends anymore" then act like im a 6 year old and apologize, just because i say "okay."

none of my real life friends know my deepest secret, just wanna point that out before i continue.

so some people nickname me a "stick" or something skinny like that. i just laugh along with it, but im not 'skinny' the doctor told me. im 'slender'. so i just laugh along.

recently, tho, for some reason, i kinda just lost my appetite. im never hungry alot, yet im never 100% full. i could go 5 hours with no food and i wouldnt be hungry. i could run a mile and run to my house and not be hungry. long story short, i could do anything and still not be hungry. i eat food if its in front of me, but im not hungry or full.

i talked with my mom about it and she said we should check with the doctor about it because loss of appetite could mean anything from depression to cancer (which i dont have, fyi). i actually know a lot of the things and i might be one.

so, this might mean hiatus for me

depending on what it is decides if i tell my IRL friends, but you can bet that i will tell my most trusted friends even tho i dont know them irl, namjinning AlesiiTS and _EnchantedEcho_ (dont comment or tell anyone even if they beg u)

ily all ❤

byee

also on a happier note i have been more social today