Hello everyone!

Looks who is in the house.

Your one and only—

Oops not yours, anymore.

Yeah! Whatever!

So before we proceed here is a sweet little disclaimer (well not so sweet but I don't care).

DISCLAIMER :
Those who don't like me get out from here, because this is, trust me this is going to offend you!

I hope we are clear?

Because after you read this whole rant I don't want you commenting down this and that.

Okay?

Let's get started with One Last Time.

How are you all?

(Cause manners)

This is me better than ever.

So, today I thought of sharing my experience on watty and it is not as good as you thought!

April was the month I joined Wattpad for reading Preeran fanfictions. Generally speaking, Taiba was the one whom I talked here for the first time.

From a silent reader to open reader, to writer.

I don't know what boosted me but I started writing here.

Slowly I got addicted to this app. This app became my lifeline, I started to hook up here leaving everything behind, and I never regretted because it was worth it.

This app is indeed worth them all, but then I was in fandom which made it different.

Obviously being a part here, some became my friends...

Some months were good...

I enjoyed my time here,initially.  But soon afterlife problems hit me, but not a big deal because that's a part of us..

TRUE COLOR OF PEOPLE!

There occurred a revelation.

Things started changing and then I started seeing true things inside everything new.

First and foremost thing I saw was, there was not any value of new-comers.

Now don't get offended. This is true. This is what I saw.

New people weren't welcomed at all, it never happened to me, but with some others.

And when I say welcome, I don't refer to being good and sweet. I refer that their work aren't supported and promoted.

Nothing true except for partiality.

Then ....

Toxic things began to unveil.

Some were at fault, while some weren't.. But they all equally hurt me!

Yes, for their own reasons most people hurt me here whom I gave some part of me.

Toxicity and negativity destroys your mental health and the same happened with me.

Now, don't say that this is overdoing. You don't know what I have been through so it would be better if you stay quiet.

Again, i am not saying that I am the only person with problems, infact I had them beyond limit but none of you knew ...

But I had my limits...

And do you all know what?

Some people successfully and happily destroyed my trust and interest for people and life.

Congratulations!!

Claps claps claps.

I am not pointing on someone particular.

But—

If you by any chance are getting offended then you know you falls under my hit list of haters.

Shush! I didn't take your name. Relax!

Or don't—

I don't care anymore.

Some fandom's formality, some  people's doing and some incidents made it enough for me to hate  social media and one's life already.

And the worst was it pushed  a person (me) into space where she does not know what to do more.

When you give all yourself to people, and all they do is teach you to not to do it for anyone in future, it made heart wrench more than anything!

These experience made them (me)  questions trust in people, still...

After doing this, they managed to live fully as if nothing happened, they manages to do well, enjoy life fully, plans things smoothly, makes new friends etc etc... 🤷🏻‍♀️

Means how low!

Above all, books, writing, other fandoms, other friends nothing helped me and I am left all hopeless, again thanks to who so ever for whatsoever reason!!

By the time, if you know it, you know it!

In my one year of watty life, I never presented my problems to anyone because I never wanted to burden anyone, but to hell with everything, my mental health matters most and you all deserve to know how much some things had affected a person.

I didn't have much, but I was happy before but these things ruined even them.

You all must have felt offended, bad, hurt but I don't care.

I refuse to apologize for being this, because no one ever apologized to me for treating me like shit and bringing this out of me.

Yes! You never thought that I would say these things but why not?

I am changed now. I matter to me and you don't. Congo you finally made me this. And thanks! You made me realise my worth.

Coming to the end of this. I know someone or everyone will think that I am overreacting but my satisfaction matters more than all unfaithful people.

Yes I am overreacting, but WILL NEVER accept shit some mean people give.😏😈

Last but not least, thank you everyone for teaching me everything, let it be anything!

So hoping for my peace I am leaving this place and hoping for never experiencing this worst phase ever again.

You all keep doing happy, steady, and same.

P.S : I absolutely don't want anyone bashing me for speaking truly.

Everyone has right to speak and this is me stating whatever happened and how badly it affected me, but who cared at that time? No one, so kindly no fake sympathies!!

And there is no personal explanation to this, if anyone understands well and good otherwise no personal messages needed!

Also, I thank each one of you because this experience made me realise my worth. I love myself now. I don't care about anyone anymore.

And fun fact: I don't feel sad leaving this place, maybe this never was mine.

Signing off
Misba.
Sole_creations.