I wonder if you think I left you. I never went anywhere, my love. I never moved when you left. You left me. In our home. In our bed. I remember you screaming at me before breaking down in tears, taking your suitcase filled with all your belongings. I offered some of our pictures, hoping you'd miss me, only for you to decline. Stomping out the door. I sobbed in our bed.

I was forced to remember you as I cried my heart out. My voice grew hoarse as I grew weak. I didn't eat. You remember why I don't eat don't you, my love? You always complimented my body, told me how beautiful I was. You would shower me in compliments when we became one. So, why did you leave me while saying no one would love me? Saying I had gotten fatter? Did you not enjoy my body? I skipped meals for you my love, so why do you discredit what I do for you?

You hurt me my love. Apologize my love. Apologize to me, Jeon Jungkook. I love you so much and yet you broke me so badly.

I tried to remove myself to make you feel better. I've taken the few pills you left behind. I even used the razor you tried so hard to keep from me. It pierced my skin as the crimson color pooled around my wrist on the floor as my life began to sleep, sitting in the tub. But I failed my love.

A friend of mine came by, she had a key to our apartment and she got a paramedic there before I left. She sobbed as she screamed at me to never do that again. But I didn't listen. I looked out the window and imagined you were sitting there next to me. Smiling at me and holding my hand. Come back, Jungkook.