The sunshine smile welcomed me home

That day, of sweet surprises awaiting me.

I remember how you hugged me close,

We would always be together.

The two of us. Alone.

Smell of marshmallows filled the air,

Along with crying laughter,

Moving through the wind.

The sweet taste of white foam

Like the creamy pastries mother used to make.

Looking at her photos I can finally remember

That once upon a time she knew how to smile.

It was during those times of

The pink candy, white teddy bears,

Frail dandelions and chalky crayons.

All the ingredients of my childhood.

The secret one being you, Mother how I loved you.

But you were made of marshmallows.

The strong, blazing kind and yet

so sweet and soft inside.

They cracked your shell open,

And took the treasure you held inside.

Your heart, your smile. All was gone and yet

You still looked like sunshine.

You hid a monster under my bed,

The one you claimed to love so much,

Or rather, claimed to have loved us.

And yet would come to haunt my dreams

Every liquorice night.

You tried hard to fight him off but then

Invited him home by the awakening of daylight

Then let him take everything away.

Your brittle smiles cracked open.

Did you not know?

All the pieces of fabric that made darkness black

Had his name woven in threads.

Was it your fault? Was it mine?

Was it the hatred our home

was growing inside?

Your eyes made of cupcakes

Your hair made of candyfloss

Your lips made of chocolate

A heart made of smiles,

Sunshine and laughter

Coloured with the rainbow

And sprinkled tears on top.

The smell of Earth, life and innocence

Your warm, loving voice

Singing me stories to sleep

The sweet and soft and the blazing kind.

How I wish I had a soul like yours

Made of naivety, blazing fire,

Delicate flowers of all shapes

And a beating heart glowing love

Made with the sweetest of marshmallows.