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[Harry]

Beeps. I hear really annoying beeps.

And cries. Someone's soft cries.

Some whisperings that sounds way too far, like I'm underwater and people are talking above. It starts getting clear as moments pass by and I hear a voice, a squeez at my hand and the beeping noise gets clear. I start gaining my sense of smell and the first thing that fills my nostrils is medicine. A lot of them. Hospital.

"Please wake up, baby. Please wake up." Someone cries and I feel a hand on my cheek.

Mom.

I try my hardest to tell her that I'm fine, but something's stopping me. I can't see her. I try to open my eyes, but they feel heavy, way too heavy, so I just clench my fist in frustration.

"Harry! Oh my god, Hazza! Yes baby, open your eyes. You can do it! C'mon!" I hear mom, a bit louder and clearer this time.

With much efforts, I push my eyelids up, but shut them back as a sharp ray of light peers my eyesight.

"C'mon, Haz, you can do it. Wake up, you cunt!" I hear that thick Irish accent encourage.

With a sharp intake of breath, I try to open my eyes again, but this time, I pause for a moment as the light flashes, instead of shutting them back. As my eyes adapt to the brightness, I open them fully.

The first thing I see is the pair of beautiful, blue eyes looking back in mine. The red rimmed eyes now wet as tears flow down his cheeks.

"Fucking cunt! I thought you died or something!" Niall cries more and hugs me in an awkward position consisting of me laying in bed and he bending down to hug me like that.

"I'm fine, leprechaun! But won't be for too long if you keep suffocating me like that." I joke and he abruptly pulls back.

"I'm so sorry! Do you need the oxygen mask? Should I call the doctor? I'm really sorry, I just got overwhelmed. I-" He says frantically as more tears run down his cheeks.

"Ni, baby, I'm fine. I was just joking." I explain, not understanding his behavior.

"It's not funny!" He glares. "Considering this is your third day in here -everyone else who were effected by the smoke were okay the very next day- because apparently, your asthmatic lungs couldn't bear that excessive amount of smoke. It was too much for your health. So yes, it's not funny." He heaves as more tears leak out of his eyes.

I look around the room and.. Oh well, why didn't I see the others in the room yet? There's my mom, in one of her signature flower printed tops, standing at the end of the bed, along with dad at her side, both crying. On one of the chairs in the corner of the room, sits Liam, silently observing the scene with puffy eyes. Luke and Ashton on the floor- because there is only one chair in the room- looking up at me with tiny smiles. Behind them sits Eleanor who looks completely sleep deprived, along with Ed who doesn't look any better. Wow! This room is crowded. Are these people even allowed in here? I want to laugh, but I don't... Because he is not here. Where's he? Did he get arrested? Is he in the hospital too? Why didn't he come? Why isn't he here? Why-

"We're really glad that you're awake... Finally." Ed says as El, Luke and Ash nod in agreement. I force a smile at them and look at my mom.

"Where is he?" I ask and Niall's breath hitches.

"I'll get everyone something to eat." He says and leaves the room in a hurry.

"I'll help him bring the food." Ed says at the same time as Luke, who says, "I'll go too." They both get up and Ashton follows Luke while Eleanor follows the boys and within seconds, the four of them are out of the room too.

"Mom... Where is he?" I say, scared by the reactions I just got from the question. But mom stays quiet and she sobs into dad's shoulder. "Okay, fine." I decide not to ask about him. "Where is Gemma?" I ask and mom just shakes her head before running out of the room as well.

My blood runs cold. Why the hell is everyone leaving? Where even is Louis? Or Gemma? I look at dad, silently pleading for him to stay and answer me.

"She needs me. I must go after her." He sighs before leaving as well.

I look around to see only Liam now staring back at me. And to think this room was crowded just a few seconds ago...

"I'm sorry they left." Liam gets out of the chair and comes to sit on the bed, "None of them probably want tell you because.. it's just too much.. for you.. and no one wants to see you breaking." he sighs.

"Where is Zayn?" I ask cautiously as tears build up in his eyes.

"He- he got arrested. Zayn.. he surrendered. He confessed all his crimes and accepted the five years of imprisonment. Just five years because he surrendered and confessed." He looks down for a moment and then back up with a tiny smile. "I'm proud of him.. and I'll wait for him.. it's just five years. It will pass by in a blink of an eye." I smile back at him and take his hand in mine before squeezing it.

"I'm proud of you." I say as my vision blurs due to the tears that are forming in my eyes. "We'll visit him together." And he smiles wider while nodding before it drops.

"Lottie.. she surrendered too. Five years for her as well." I feel my tummy clench. Poor girl. "And.. Jay and Fizzy..." He looks away, more tears running down his face.

"Jay and Fizzy what?" I ask as my heart hammers in my chest.

"They couldn't survive." My stomach drops. What?! "They also got caught by the fire.. there were severe burns.." He says and I start crying because that's not fair. Jay and Fizzy didn't deserve it. My heart breaks thinking that the girl was so young.. Fifteen maybe. Shit!

"Well.. Louis and Gemma.." He starts and I look up abruptly with teary eyes.

"What? What about them?" I ask, my heart beating a thousand times faster.

"They... they couldn't be rescued. By the time everyone was found- including Jay, Fizzy and Stan's deadbodies- the warehouse was burnt down. Still the firefighters tried searching for them- basically their deadbodies, by that time- but they didn't find anything other than an almost skeleton hand of a male... not sure whose though. So they concluded that they got caught in the fire. Mark, one of his men, Gemma and Louis." Nononono! That can't be! That shouldn't be! It's not- "I'm sorry." I look up at Liam. What do I say? I can't speak even if I tried. I just can't. I just shake my head rapidly, trying to find my voice, until I do.

"This is a joke, right? You're not serious, you can't be. Gemma, Fizzy, Jay.. Louis! Louis, my Louis.. he planned this, didn't he? That tiny imp!" I let out a little laugh. "He's hiding out there. They all are hiding out there. I know this is his prank, he's a little minx like that. I just know. Where is he? Tell him to come in, game's over. I'm not getting pranked." I tell Liam as he sobs. "Tell him the game's over. IT'S OVER! TELL HIM TO COME IN. TO COME BACK!" I cry loudly. "COME BACK. COME BACK. COME BACK!" I tug at my hair and slump, feeling small. "Come back.. Please. Please, Lou. Come back... I love you." I sob in my hands and Liam comes to hug me as Mom, dad and others enter the room. I don't hug him back though. I feel too numb to do so.

"We can't fight the fate, Hazza. Please stay strong. Phoebe and Daisy.. they are alright. Your parents have decided to adopt them both. You got to stay strong, for your parents, for Phoebe and Daisy, for Louis.. his soul-"

"He's not dead. I would've felt it if he was dea-"

"Please, Haz!" Niall says as he comes to hug me and Liam backs up. Niall hugs me the tightest, like always. "This is not a book that you'd feel it in your heart that he's alive and shit. Don't give yourself fake hopes, it will ruin you. Forget it. Think of it as a storm. It came, hit you hard and then went, leaving an impact. A permanent impact, probably. But you can't sit around and wish for the storm to come back. Just get up, mend everything that the storm broke and fix what it distroyed. Find the rainbow. It'll be okay." He kisses the top of my head.

But..

How will the rainbow appear if the Sun is gone?

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