“Why is it so difficult for you to just cry?"

"Because it hurts".

"It's supposed to hurt. You are supposed to feel this hurt. And then react to it, by processing it".

"I don't want to. Denial is less painful".

"Denial is more chaotic. It doesn't change the truth".

"I know, but I can't deal with the truth. How do I tell someone my heart has never been whole? That I have always been in pieces for as long as I can remember?"

"This isn't about people. It's about you. It's your truth. Your grief. Your pain".

"And I am dealing with it".

"You are running away".

"I am right here. In one piece".

"You literally just said you have never been in one piece"

"A lie spoken aloud for a hundred times become your subconscious truth"

".......".