It's One Of Those Days Again,

I Can Sense It;

Those Days Which You

Never Talk About,

Those Days When You

Drown In Your Thoughts

With No Way Out.

Those Days When You Hug Yourself

And Try To Convince Yourself

That ,You're Worth Every Single Breath You Take.

You Try To Distance Yourself From Everybody

Because, You Don't Want Them

To See Your Dark Side.

You Claw At Your Own Skin Hating

The Way It Feels Against Your Body,

You Claw At Everything And

Everyone That Comes Your Way,

Then You Recoil And

Become A Constant Weak Whisper,

You've Lost The Strength To Deal With It All.

The Darkness Within Me Was Something

I Wouldn't Want Anyone To See.

I Feel Like I'm Drowning

But Why Do I Want To Dive In ?

I'm Poisoning Myself Again,

Maybe I Was Searching For A Way Out,

Maybe I Was Just Tired Of Everything.

Those Days Where Your Mind's Like A Fucking Disease,

Everything Twisting And Turning All Around

And Tearing Your Mind Apart,

The Dark Days Are Back Again

And It's Driving Me Mad.

You Could Be Sitting Under A Tree

On A Pleasant Starry Night;

Suddenly ,You're Hit With This Pang Of Anxiety

You Heart Squeezes In Your Chest

You Can Feel Yourself Wince In Pain.

Your Head's Throbbing And

Your Hand's Are Failing You,

You Try To Control It By Holding

Onto The Branch For Your Dear Life.

But, You Can Feel Your Legs  Give Out.

You See Black Dots Appearing In Your Vision,

Your Heads Swirling All Over The Place,

You Can Feel The Word Spinning Around.

You Try To Call Out For Help,

You Can Feel Your Throat Closing Up,

And The Walls Caving In.

You Try To Think Of Somebody You Could Call,

Your Breathe Comes Out In Slow Gasps.

And You're Fighting Against YourSelf,

You Whimper, As You Try To Search For Someone

You Know You're Running Out Of Time.

You Think Of All The Times You Were There

For Everyone And Helped Them Through It,

Whether They Asked For Your Help Or Not.

You Trusted Their Fake Words,

And Half Hearted Promises When They Told You,

They Would Be There For You Too.

You Hold Them To Their Promises Hoping ,

They Would Pick You Back Up

When You Were Down On Your Knees,

Lying On The Cold Hard Ground.

For She Thought Maybe,

They Saw Past Her Fake Smile And Tough Girl Mask,

But, It Was Then That She Realised;

"Nobody Truly Ever Cares

They Never Have And Never Will".

It Was A Lesson She Learnt The Hard Way,

And With That Realisation Hitting Her Very Close To Home,

With Tears Streaming Down Her Face

And A Half Hearted Smile Across Her Face

She Fell To The Ground With A Thud.

Her Head Rolling Back,

Her Body Falling 

Right On Top Of A Rose Bush.

The Beauty And Irony Of Death,

Never Failed To Astonish Her Everyday.

With A Flower Petal Brushing Across Her Face,

Her Arms Lay Limp On Both Her sides,

As A Thorn Pierces Right Through Her Sorrow Heart

A Spot Of Red Blooms Across Her Dress

Like The Blush Of A Shy Face Staring Up At Death.

She Finally Ended Up Fading Away.

It's Beauty In Chaos All Over Again.

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Author's Note -

If You Know Somebody Who Has Mental Health Issues Or Is Struggling , Please Please Seek Somebody Out And Talk To Them .They Could Be Anyone A Friend ,Family ,Your Therapist Anybody. But Please Talk To Them . There Is Only So Much Your Mind Can Fight Back Before It Gets Consumed By Your Demons :')