Rin's P.O.V:

It was right after i showed my flames to fight Amaimon.

i clearly remember the looks that my so called "Friends" gave me.

Hell even my own brother told me he wanted me dead!

I would be dead but im not all thanks to Mephisto.

Mephisto..the guy i want to be with.

he understands me completely and doesn't judge me,and i appreciate that.

But that will never numb the pain; I'm not even sure if he will accept my feelings.

"RIN!!! stop day dreaming and do your work!" yelled yukio 

"sorry" i looked down and finished my work sheet and handed it to him before leaving the classroom.

"Rin! Where are you going?" yukio yelled out of the classroom door way.

- far away from you- i thought as i felt tears form in my eyes.

i pulled out my keys that opened a way to my dorm and i walked through the doorway and shut the door behind me.

I took off my jacket and walked over to my dresser drawer and opened it up.

I pulled up my fake bottom and grabbed my box cutter blade and walked to the shower room after i grabbed the first aid kit .

once i made it there i shut the door behind me and locked it.

i took off my shirt which just left me in my black pants and shoes.

i slide down the door and i felt a tear run down my face as i remembered what everybody called me 

MONSTER 

one deep cut going across my wrist.

DEMON

another one 

FREAK

another one 

DEVIL!!

thats when i let loose and cut my whole right arm up ; some of the looking like a criss cross pattern.

i bandage it up and then turned to my left arm and did the same thing.

"WHY?! " i screamed as tears began to come out heavily "WHY ME!? WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE THIS!!!!!????" 

my crying eventually turned into sobs and i was able to bandage up my left arm.

-That's it! im leaving!- i said to myself as i turned around unlocking the door and headed to my room.

tears continued to fall down my face i sniffed.

Once i made it there i grabbed my book bag and started to pack up some of my clothes and i looked under my bed and grabbed the money ive been saving up1102867.50 yen (about 9,800$ in us money),and with that i left.