My heart beats. The pain in my hands nearly let me disengage. Nearly let me fall into the endless deep under my feet, the black nothing. But I try to keep my mind stronger. If I don't try, I will die. I will fall into the black hole, and at all times I can impact. At all times the ground can kill me.

I notice the pain in my body, I notice the badly situation. And I try to call for help. I try to shout, but my voice sounds lonly and lost. I think, now everything is over for me. Now I have to disengage. Now I have to die. And my fingers break away from the rock, wich was my only hold...

"Ida! Why are you here? Why are you trying to kill yourself? Oh Ida, please tell me what you are doing here. "

I have not to open my eyes for knowing who is talking to me. I will never forget his voice, even if I am dead.

"Oliver."

Maybe I should be happy to see him in this situation, maybe I should be happy because I  will survive. Because he saves me. Because I am alive. There are million reasons to be happy. But I am not.

To see him right now is my worst nightmare.

"Let me fall! Let me die.", I cry.

But he just trys to lift me up. His hands are holding me strong.

"Why do you want to die?", he whispers. "What is so horrible in your life?"

"You", I shout. "If any other person saved me, everything would be allright. But it is you, of all people. Think about all the things you have done. You have not regret anything. I am just the stupid girl for you, just someone you can use for your games. And I have had enough of you. I am over with you. So let me fall. Let me die! Because I would rather die than living with the knowledge that you had save me." I yelled at the last sentences. And maybe something of the words I said let him do it. He lets me fall. He lets me die. And while I am falling into the endless darkness under me, into the dead, while I am crying and shouting and saying good bye to the world and my life, while my hair blows in the Wind and while the darkness swallows my body and my soul, I hope, everything was a nightmare, a dream which is ending...

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It is my first english story and I am no native speaker, so please forgive me my mistakes. The stoty is for :

FatmaFatma274

Because you are supporting me and you ask for a story you could read. 

Votes and comments are welcome, I hope you will enjoy it.