I don't know what I'm doing with my life, I just am so confused about life and other things too.

I searched up "what is love" on Google.
I don't understand anything.
I don't want to.
I don't love.
I don't hate.
I don't do ANYTHING!
I SPENT THE HOLE SCHOOL WEEK READING!
MY GRADES ARE PLUMMETING!
I DON'T FUCKING DESERVE THIS LIFE!
NO ONE DESERVES TO SEE OR HEAR MY PAIN!

I fucking hate all of this.
I don't even know I'll post this.
I just hate tell people my pain.
And my suffering.
I had to listen to people and their pain for and entire year. I still do sometimes, it makes me feel like I'm.. not real.

I thought about making a book about it but it doesn't make sense.
I thought about talking about it but making someone hear my pain just makes me hurt.
None of it make sense.
I don't understand.
156 words of trying to understand this but it hasn't changed a bit....

I know what to do.
I know where my inspiration is going to come from.
And I think you'll understand soon.
Hopefully.

-B.I.L