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Part 17 - Pregnancy?

After few minutes, Jenny sat in front of me and asked "Babe... Are you also thinking what I'm thinking?"

I was a little taken aback by her question as I was still processing what all was happening to me. My mind wasn't in the state to think of anything as I was drained mentally because of the tiff I had with Shaheer and physically because of my bad health so there was no chance to understand the meaning behind Jenny's quizzical question.

"Jenny... How would I know what you're thinking? Honestly I'm too tired to think anything right now..." I replied nonchalantly as I laid back on the bed as I had no strength.

"Pooja... I'm just thinking what if you're pregnant?" Jennifer expressed her intuition but baffling me a bit.

"What? Arre no jenny..." I said casually, unaffected by what she said.

"Babe see you're feeling dizzy, you puked, you have mood swings! These symptoms seemed like pregnancy ones... So I just asked if..." Jenny said with concern taking my palm in her hand but I cut her off in between as I thought she was just being paranoid.

"No jenny... That's not possible. I mean we were always mindful about it. You think Shaheer and I would be so careless?" I asked clearly sidelining the possibility.

"Pooja I know you both... But sometimes we never know what happens... And you were actually unwell 3 days back also remember? When you came here you said you're tired and wanted to rest... We thought may be you're missing Shaheer or work stress but now that you are sick I felt like this may be a possibility..." Jenny explained and made me think about it this time.

"Jenny but..." I paused as I remembered something... "Oh shit! I... I... Missed my period this month... But... I... I... don't know how this is possible..." I said as I suddenly realised that I was very late than usual this month and this left me a bit bewildered at how I had ignored about myself all these days being busy with shoots and the constant bitterness about staying away from Shaheer.

"Hushhhh... Calm down pooja. Relax... Chill... Pregnancy may be a possibility that's all... Don't stress yourself. Will get a pregnancy kit in the morning and check out... If needed I'll take you to the gynaecologist also... Till then don't overthink and ruin your mind..."  Jennifer tried to calm me down as I was evidently worried.

"Yeah..." is all I could reply at that moment.

"Poojaaaa... Itna soch mat meri jaan..! I'm sure jo bhi hoga you both will handle it well so stop thinking and get some sleep now..." Jenny hugged me and comforted me like she always did. Indeed she was a blessing in disguise for me. She'd been there for me whenever I was in need of a friend in the city of dreams.

"Yeah Jenny... Tu bhi so ja..." I said breaking the hug.

Jenny smiled at me and caressed my cheek. Then she jumped to the other side of the bed to sleep not before telling me to wake her up anytime in the night if I was sick again.

I slid under the comforter and drowned myself in my thoughts. I didn't know how to react to the entire series of incidents that happened for past two days from fighting over not giving time to Shaheer and avoiding him because of my friends to feeling sick at the shoot and puking whatever I ate for dinner to suspecting a pregnancy. Everything flashed in front of my eyes like a movie reel when I heard my phone beep. I took it with a bright smile hoping it to be a message from my man... And yes finally it was a message from him.

"Hope you're doing well Pooji ❤"

This was the only text that he had sent and nothing else... Perhaps he sensed that something was wrong with me, the heart emoji calmed me down like nothing else. I smiled thinking the strong soul connection we had between us that made us feel for each other though we were miles apart.

"Come back soon... 😔"  I texted him back not wanting to disturb him by saying about my health though I knew he would be very angry at me for hiding once he knew. But I was ready to face his wrath than getting him sad and disturbed when he was in a different far off country in between a stressful crisis.

Within two minutes he had seen my message but hadn't replied. I felt like crying... I knew I had to be sensible and strong but not having the only person I loved around wasn't doing any good to me. I tossed and turned as I indulged myself in thinking what would be the reason for my illness? What if I was really pregnant? What if Shaheer didn't want the baby? What if I didn't want the baby? What if our parents got to know? What if they didn't support us? what if the media gets to know? So many what ifs!!

The new stress of a probable pregnancy was kind of hounding me with many unanswerable questions and above that Shaheer was not talking to me. It felt terrible to be on the verge of a cliff like this...

But I realised that all these questions were useless until I get to know the truth the next day. I couldn't wait to know what was happening to me. I wished Shaheer was with me during that moment... I craved to be in his arms... I needed him with me... I needed him for myself... but I knew that it wasn't possible and would remain a wish as he was in Indonesia.

Slowly I drifted off to sleep unwillingly, perhaps due to the medicines that I had taken.

Around 6 in the morning, my mobile kept ringing continuously. I hadn't set any alarm so I wondered why was my phone ringing so much that early. I opened my eyes in thin slits and grabbed my mobile.

5 missed calls - Jaan

I saw the notification and my sleep flew away in seconds. I didn't know why had Shaheer called me so many times. I got off the bed and walked to the Hall not wanting to disturb Jenny's sleep. I quickly called him back hoping that nothing should have gone wrong with him.

"Baby...tum theek ho? Where are you?" Shaheer asked with concern, without even saying Hello or Hi.

"Shaheer I'm fine but kya hua? Tum theek ho?" I asked with the same concern, I sensed that he heaved a sigh of relief but received utter silence from his side as response. I mumbled his name again hoping he would speak.

"I asked where are you Pooja?" He asked suddenly ignoring my question with a sternness in his voice.

"Voh mein... Jenny ke ghar..." As I spoke he cut me off in between and said sarcastically "Great! Kisi ko mat batana ki kaha jaa rahi ho kaha ho... Bas jo man mei aaya voh karo!"

I noticed his annoyance and asked
"Shaheer what's wrong? Hua kya hai batao? Itni subah call kyu kiya and what are you saying? Meine maa ko aur Aleefa ko bataya tha ki jenny ke ghar ruk rahi hu..." I tried to explain but in vain.

"Very good! Ab mei itni subah tumhari maa ko disturb karu aur puchu apki beti kaha hai? And should I ask Aleefa who stays in the US at odd hours?" He taunted and I failed to understand why he was talking so harshly when he started off the conversation with so much concern.

"Shaheer you're making a mess! Now will you tell me what's wrong if I stayed here and why are you asking where am I?" I asked sternly this time.

"Because I fucking searched for you like a mad man in your house, my house, your set, everywhere!" Shaheer said in disappointment but brought an instant smile on my face.

"Shaheer...You're back from Indonesia?" I asked delighted to hear what he said.

"Yeah I wanted to surprise you! But mei khud hi surprise ho gaya! Ek text Pooja... Ek text nai kar sakti thi ki Jenny ke ghar ho? Pata hai mei kitna dar gaya tha? You didn't think of me at all...did you?" He blamed me yet again shattering me all the more.

"As if you were talking to me! Mein kyu aur kaise batau ki mei kaha ruk rahi hu jab tum mujhse baat hi nai kar rahe the..? First of all mujhe sapna nahi aya tha ki tum aane wale ho! So don't shout at me now..." I retaliated fiercely and perhaps he felt what I said was right so he kept mum for a few seconds and continued...

"Pooji I'm Sorry... Baby please let this go now. Mein abhi aa raha hu waha tumhe lene. Ready ho jao" He apologised but instructed me on his will to get ready just because he felt I would forgive him just like that as always but this time he had hurt me.

"Don't baby me Shaheer... I'm not coming with you now. Tum ghar jao... I'll come with Jenny later to your place"  I said denying to his will.

"Seriously Pooja? I have come back after so many days for you, but you don't want to see me now? I even said sorry to you phir bhi?" Shaheer had said a typical man's words who'd expect his girl to forgive him and forget whatever he did to her easily.

"Tumne mujhe sorry kehke koi ehsaan nahi kiya hai Shaheer! What do you think of me? Jab man chaha muh fer liya jab man chaha pyar barsaane aa gaye? I'll come whenever I want to not whenever you want me!" I said raising my voice a bit.

"Pooja you've gone crazy!" Shaheer muttered under his breathe and cut the call.

I had tears in my eyes by the end of the call as the man I loved had let his male ego dominate his love for me. He'd taken me for granted and behaved as if he had his sole right on me. Yes, he did have right on me but not this way, not to compel me to behave according to him. He had to be corrected and I did that rightfully in my way.

I sat on the sofa lost in my thoughts when Jenny came up and sat next to me.
She had perhaps woken up because of my tone that I spoke on call. She just hugged me warmly and let me shed few tears that I was holding back. I didn't exactly tell her what happened between me and Shaheer but she understood the unsaid.

Anyways I couldn't afford to sit and cry over trivial issues with Shaheer when I had more serious thing to ponder about that is taking up the pregnancy test, as I knew he would understand after some time and come back to me to kiss and make up like always.

I freshened up myself soon and helped Jenny to make the breakfast. By 10 am, as expected Shaheer had called me many times and texted me that he was sorry about whatever he did and requested me to go back to him soon. But I had ignored his calls and texts though I had seen them as I wanted him to realise that he had hurt me and moreover I was nervous about the pregnancy test to pay heed to any of his efforts to woo me.

I tried to divert my mind by browsing social media while waiting for the test kit to be delivered. As I was checking through insta, I found Shaheer's new post. He had uploaded a video on his account singing one of his favourite songs lying on his bed in darkness, the song fit aptly for our situation.

(Shaheer actually had put up a post singing this song check it out
https://www.instagram.com/p/CES7o0bBSwD/?igshid=1xsnvh5aa5ar2 )

Chalo Baba Maaf Karo Hans Bhi Do
Maine Dil Saaf Kiya Keh Bhi Do
Roothna Manaana Hai Pyaar Ki Ada
Kaise Jeeyoonga Main Tumse Hoke Juda

In another filmy effort to pacify me, he had sang so cutely that I forgot all my tensions throughout the time I saw him sing. I clicked on the heart ❤ and liked his post hinting him that I fell for him all over again, but refrained from either calling him or replying back to his texts. I wasn't letting him get away so easily this time.

Jenny had ordered the pregnancy test kits last night so it arrived around 10 30 in the morning. I was hell nervous to take it but I had no choice. And Jenny was there for me to comfort and give some much needed good vibes.

I hesitantly took the test with one of the kits among the two that Jenny had ordered just to be sure. The few moments of waiting till the result showed up were dreadful but I remained strong until two pink lines showed up faintly indicating that I was indeed pregnant. My eyes welled up with unknown emotions as I didn't know whether to be sad or happy or to cry or scream.

Still I somehow tried to remain calm and took up the other test kit which shook my belief as it showed negative. I collapsed on the bathroom floor clutching on to the bathtub rim. I didn't know how to react, an expressionless emotion adorned my face while I let the tears flow down my cheeks.

I stayed in the same posture for some more time staring at the wall in front thinking nothing. My mind was blank and I sat motionless with my tear stained  face. I stood up after few minutes and walked out to inform Jenny. She heard and suggested that I needed to consult the gynaecologist and get the check up done clinically to be sure. I also felt that right as usually these pregnancy test sticks were not too accurate and could be faulty too.

I wasn't sure if there was a baby in my womb or not but the feeling of probably a tiny being of my own, of mine and Shaheer's, our own part nurturing inside me was enough to automatically bring a smile on my face as I touched my stomach gently.

I believed that kids always brought in happiness and goodness in anyone's life so perhaps that made me realise that if I did have a baby inside me then i would accept it happily though I was sceptical about having a child at that moment considering many things that would go haywire.

I calmed myself down and sorted myself with difficulty but I was strong enough to mentally prepare myself for anything that was going to happen.

I texted Shaheer that I would see him in some time and seemed like he got happy with my text as he replied excitedly

"Thank u baby and sorry for the 1000th time😘 Can't wait to have u in my arms! Come soon love ❤"

I smiled reading his text, maybe blushed a bit at his mushy way of texting.

I told Jenny that I would go to Shaheer's place but she insisted that she would drop me there herself. I didn't deny knowing she wouldn't listen to me so we both went to his place together.

"Hey Shaheer! What's up? Jaldi aa gaye Indonesia se? Raha nahi gaya humari Pooja ke bina?" Jenny teased Shaheer and hugged him as we entered his house.

"Haa actually... Woh kya hai na I can't stay without spending Quality Time with her!"  Shaheer too joined her in being goofy stressing on Quality time as he hugged her back.

"Uff besharam! Haha now u spend your Quality Time mera call time hai... Late ho rhi hu...! Babe take care... Call karna baad mei okay? Bye guys!" Jenny hugged me and bid us adieu.

After she left, Shaheer quickly shut the door and came towards me as he hugged me from behind.

"I missed you so much baby... I'm sorry for everything" Shaheer mumbled as he peppered his trail of kisses along my neck and shoulder blade that was bare because of my off shoulder top while clutching my waist tightly with his arms as if I would run away if left.

As much as I was relieved to feel his touch after so long, I couldn't respond even when he turned me towards him and pecked my lips. He kissed me fervently but stopped noticing that I wasn't kissing him back.

"Pooji...? Kya hua? You're still angry? Sorry I shouldn't have kissed without asking..." Shaheer cupped my face and said but I cut him before he could finish

"Shaheer... I missed my period" I said with a blank expression.

"Ohh... Don't worry baby may be because of stress. Mein nahi tha na tumhare paas toh tumhara body bhi sahi se kaam nahi kara rah dekho..." He chuckled not noticing my seriousness.

"I think I'm pregnant"  I said with same expressionless face.

"What?!"

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