suddenly, i wake up one day and realize: life is not about myself. life is about various people living in different places on earth and going through different life. its crazy to imagine that at the exact same moment, there are people who are struggling, experiencing depression and anxiety and every other disease and literally not knowing what to do with their life, meanwhile there are also plenty people who are walking on their own paths, living happily with their significant others and having good relationships with their parents, travelling to their dream countries, ... it amazes me how we are living in a multiracial world with different cultures and different backgrounds and no one has the same childhood growing up. we see life different and have different dreams, different partner ideals, .. the diversity is literally crazy if you really think about it.

growing up fast is cruel and incredibly hard and i almost lost sense of time after the pandemic. the me right now is totally a different person compare to the me six months ago, but i spent a lot of time alone during that period. its like living two different life but im learning so much about myself. there are still wars going on in the 21st century. currency crisis, inflation, the inscrising rate of young people having mental health problems. our generation are messed up yet so beautiful and kind-hearted and we're all starting to heal. we realize things and pay more attention to ourself and others, we refuse to pass on trauma to the next gen even if that means that we have to end ourselves here. a generation that are extraordinary. a generation that remind each other everyday that life is still worth living and there is rainbow after the rain. a generation that are always willing to sacrifiy to save lives, choosing to believe even when we dont know the real truth, hold on so tight to the tiny little light of humanity and are grateful for it everyday. a genaration that are trying to end the family trauma and are learning to put themselves first. a generation that want to live and believe so much that we create our own belief to keep going.

i literally read this somewhere and it has become my favourite inspiration quote from then: "I love this generation so much. We went through shit like drug scares and eating disorders and and self harmers and being depressed and suicidal and now now you start to see that we're all slowly healing and growing up and it's so beautiful. We're all taking selfies and coming into our own and we're all scared of the future but we're all here for each other and we're unlearning hate and we're all just such nice girls and boys and everything else. We're stars and flowers and sunshine and we care about the world and we are just so beautiful and powerful and new."

we are deeply hurted yet so strong-minded and i know each of us is still fighting everyday because i am too. but i hope someday you realize your worth, by yourself. the only way to grow is to go out, keep in touch with the world and you'll realize you have it all within yourself and youre the only reason why you should wake up everyday to continue this life. and i know some of us were not born to be someone, so find peace within yourself and thats when you accept that you are a normal person and there is nothing wrong about that as long as you have your beloved friends and family and a reason for you to keep going. and for those whose desires are burning in your stomach and the goals are so big sometimes it scares us: the universe is also trying to help you to get to the place you deserve, so be patient and continue to evolve. only by focusing on yourself and not on others can you achive your goals. im with you, im on that journey with you too. i love that our dream is still to change the world even when we're all grownups now. we are the heroes that we needed. the heroes of ourselves, the heroes for ourselves. keep standing up for yourself, it'll never be wrong to protect your energy and your rights. you are on the right path. keep going pls dont give up.

sending a lot of love and hugs for you guys out there, the best is yet to come. we just have to focus, and wait (and dont forget to stay humble and educated girlies).

love you tons, moaz

16.12.2022