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The wall mirror broke into pieces. Extracts of big ones came flying near his feet too. His Hand was trembling still. He had exerted so much force. He'd punched the mirror and broke it. At once hundreds of cracks were visible which later forced mirror to split into hundreds of pieces. That silvered glass thing fell out of the frame and broke off. His reflection once single had now become multiple of them. Each piece showed him in itself. His many reflections.... Irony! He never wanted to face his own eyes today. He wanted to hide. He couldnt see himself. He couldnt face himaelf......because He has done which was forbidden.

A liquid drop touched his naked foot. He looked down only to find it red. Red liquid....Was it Blood? Yes..His hand was bleeding. This made his insight light. He felt so happy. Finally.......he got succeeded in punishing himself. He'd be punished. But who'd be better judge than himself to sentence himself? So...this punishment soothed him. He had committed crime after all. Crime.... but What was his crime? His act....His shameless deed....Him going overboard...Him being wrong here ......Him being the culprit behind today's mistake.....He was the guilty and his conviction today evening was less in front of his crime. Disgusting....

He felt disgusted of himself.

'Mujhe khud se ye ummed nahi thi..This can't be true. kisi ke kuch bhi kahne se Me khud par believe Karna to nahi chhod sakta na!....lekin....Me...Me khud se juth bhi to nahi bol sakta. Mene wo sab feel kiya jo mujhe nahi karna chahiye tha....Its true ..I feel so strange but good when........She touched me. Its not like everyday. Her touch was innocent but my mind assumed so many things itself. Nahi......Aisa nahi ho sakta....Nahi hona chahiye...I cant fall....Me....Me nahi kar sakta...us se pyar...kabhi nahi....'

His body decided to fall and with a thump he was on the floor......

'Lekin....Me to pyaar....kar baitha hu. I am in love. Dr. Ritu ka kahna thik hi tha...I am in love..kab..aur kaise...pata nahi.. lekin ho gya...Aur...This is sin. I've commited sin. Mujhe saja milni chahiye. Aur......ye saja jo mujhe aaj rat ke liye mili he....shayad kuch bhi nhi he. I deserve more....Bahut badi saja.....'

Rajveer closed his eyes..and her face drifted in front of him. how innocent her face was when she tried to pull out a leaf from his jet black hair. And his sinful mind took it for a kiss! Isn't it shameful?

'Me kya kya soch raha hu?.....Nahi....Rajveer Singh Shekhawat kabhi bhi ye galti nahi karega...nahi...Me naina se pyaar nahi karta..I dont feel anything for her...nothing..kuch bhi nahi...She is my student...Naveen's sister..Bas...is se jyada kuch nahi..'

Yes...Rajveer had fallen in love with Naina, his protege and his best friend's sister. The Rajveer Singh Shekhawat whose life had been spent in following his ideals till today. But He had crossed a line here. He has deceived Naveen.Who'd support deception? Nobody. He had back stabbed Naveen by falling for Naina. Naveen could kill him if he were alive today. He has trusted him always..even with his life. And what he did! He began to love Naina. Would Naveen let him go easily after witnessing this? Would he prefer being his friend even after Raj being lover of His baby sister?

Never...

Naveen was much careful when it's about his sister. He never had her single photo. Because he was afraid of trespassing and smuggling of her photo to other cadets. could there be other reason? No....He never wanted her sister to fall for an army man. Leave falling, he couldnt even assume his sister in arrange marriage with a soldier.

But...this is not the case here.He loves Naina..Naina doesn't love him.

Yes...Naina doesn't love him...

'Bhala wo kyu mujhse pyaar karegi? Ek akele, familyless army officer me aisa kya hoga jis se usko pyaar ho jaye!'

It shouldn't be...but raj felt bad. Naina doesnt love him...this sentence broke something inside him. Broken pieces of mirror were reflecting his insight. His heart clenched thinking about his failure as he was never able to impress Naina. Naina could never ever think of him as...........her love....She can never adress him as rajveer..instead of Rajveer Sir.

Reality dawned upon him. He was his teacher too....Damn! He was his teacher and she was his student. This was a pure relationship of student and teacher. How high teacher is placed! And How low he has fallen!

But Naina is his student until he gets transferred or she gets graduated. This is not forever. She is not his student forever. They'll never be in same academy as student and teacher. When she'll be graduated and got posted along him, he can impress her. Yes. He can impress her and make her fall in love with him. Naveen used to say how much of gentleman he is. And girls prefer gentleman always. Naina is also one of the same girls. Naveen had once-

Naveen

MEntion of Naveen stirred something else...

Naveen was shot by him.

He has murdered him.

'Kitna unlucky hu me! Pyaar huya to wo bhi aise ki manjil kabhi bhi nahi mile. Naina ko jab pata chalega ki Naveen ko goli mene mari thi....She'll hate me forever. Aur..........me wo kabhi nahi sah paunga. Kabhi bhi nahi....'

His eyes brimmed when he thought of upcoming days when naina'll hate him. Perhaps loathe him....

He never expected to fall for Naina. It'd have been better if he had tried his luck in his academy days. He didnt have to face such problems now. He could've been happily married to Nandini.

Nandini.....

But it never hurt him much when she ignored him. It never hurt him much when she forgot to wish him on his b'days. It never broke something inside him.....when she decided to let things off. Never.....

Naina ...her name alone can bring a smile on his lips. What's so special about her? Why he fell for Naina at first place?

His love decided to choose Naina...not Dr. RITU neither Dr. Shalini...Nobody else but her...

'Shayad ye uske dedication ki wajah se he....Jo ladki apne bhai ke liye duniya se lad sakti he....Us se kaun nahi impress hoga! Perhaps I too fell for that daring Naina. Kya kar diya mene.......'

He'd gotten detention for arriving late in academy during mentorship programme. Whole time he was thinking about Naina...he'd chosen himself for this punishment taking all blame. During first hour of detention he was angry as why he presented himself to save her. Why he was happy with her, alone in secluded jungle.

During second hour, he was confused why he was more concerned about her in place of getting tensed about outcomes of his punishment.

During third hour, he was somewhat happy that finally he dared to love....

Finally he felt ashamed as he had fallen for his student and best friend's sister.....

He felt hopeful for sometimes but later saw hopes shattering and felt himself the most unlucky. He couldn't have her love as he was murderer of her brother.

He dreamed of naveen who told him that He(Raj) had begun to love his(Naveen's) sister.

And then It started session of self blaming, hurting, bashing.

He has fallen in love.. and this realisation has made him realise that his love never can be real. Imaginary Naina can be his soulmate but Real Naina can never be.