I'm tired

Just two little words, yet a world of meanings

I'm tired physically, yes, but more than that

I'm tired of people leaving

I'm tired of feeling like everything is my fault

I'm tired of hurting like this

But you know what I'm most tired of?

I'm tired of holding this tiny thread of hope and happiness to keep myself up

I know I'm not strong enough to pull myself to the top

But I'm too scared of falling to let go

So I'm just hanging out over this abyss but my arms are getting tired of it

I don't want to let go

I won't let go

But maybe next time someone offers to help pull me up I won't say no