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<td id="postmessage_17933133" class="t_f" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word; border: 0px; vertical-align: middle; font-size: 14px;">五、人心深<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />    在五楼实验室观察了一个上午肺癌细胞的繁殖过程，做好实验记录，我累得腰酸背痛。站起来揉了揉腰，走到走廊透透气。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　不经意，视线被走廊另一侧吸引住。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　走廊的另一边是一间无菌试验室，透过玻璃窗，我看见一个穿着白大褂，带着白口罩的男人在为一只白老鼠的伤口缝针，他半倾着身，银针在他纤长的指间轻灵地飞舞……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我从未见过这样一个背影，白色的宁谧，岿然不动的沉静，神圣不可侵犯的庄严……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我也从未见过这样的一种眼神，充满对生命的尊重与怜惜，对事物的认真与谨慎……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　小老鼠每一下反射条件下的抽搐，他都微微蹙眉，仿佛手指下不是一只小白鼠，而是他最深爱的人。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　失神站了一会儿，我才想起秦雪，退远一点，给秦雪打电话，约她一起去食堂吃午饭<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　她很久才接电话，声音哑哑的，“我今天不舒服，没去学校。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“你没事吧？感冒吗？有没有发热？”我紧张地问。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“没事，昨晚没睡好，有点头痛……”她说话时，我脑中闪过她紧锁的眉头，盈盈欲泣的双眸。忍不住在心里一阵感慨。何苦呢？！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“那你先吃点东西，吃了止痛药再睡一觉，那样会舒服点。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“嗯！我知道了，拜拜！”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“小雪！等一下……”我明知不该多嘴，还是说了：“有些阵痛来得猛烈，去的也快……咬咬牙，能熬过去的！”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“谢谢！”没有多余的话，也没等我说其他，她直接把电话挂断。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　也许她没懂我的意思，也许她在怪我多管闲事，可她是我在这个陌生的国度第一个朋友，我真的心疼她。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　长长地一声叹息，为了自己的无能为力。的<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　......<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“你和秦雪是朋友吗？”我吓了一跳，不是因为声音的介入，而是因为这句话是中文。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我回头，看见刚刚在无菌试验室的男医生走出来，站在我身后。他纯熟地拉下手上的塑胶手套，摘下脸上的口罩。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　一个微微的侧脸，一个轻轻的扬眉，抬眸......<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“叶……”我受惊过度，几乎直呼出他的名字，幸好及时改口：“师兄！”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他微微颔首，耐心等着我的答案。我忽然发现他一穿上白大褂，整个人都变了，神色严肃，再看不见他轻挑的坏笑。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“呃……关系挺好的，我刚来的时候小雪对我很照顾。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“哦，那麻烦你劝劝她：她的头疼是神经性的，止疼药只能暂时缓解头痛，治标不治本……”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“我明白了。”　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他有些不确定。“真的明白了？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“你想我告诉她：神经性的头痛，必须停止药物依赖，靠情绪去调节……”我顿了顿。“长痛不如短痛！是吧？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“嗯，还有……”他又补充了一句。 “别说是我说的。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“我懂！”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他不能给秦雪承诺，也不想她有任何虚幻的希望，才会把事情做的狠绝，让她对他彻底死心，不要浪费感情。的<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　这是我认识叶正宸的第二天。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我发现我有点不懂他了。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　既然那么心疼那只小老鼠，何必要残忍地用刀割开它的肌肤，让它鲜血淋漓，再一针一针为它缝上。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　既然那么懂得怜惜女人，何必要去摧残她们的身体，伤透她们的灵魂，再想办法把她的痛苦降到最低……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　这是我见过的，最残忍的善良！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　叶正宸，他是个披着上帝外衣的魔鬼，还是个披着魔鬼外衣的上帝？！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我分不清！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　但有一件事我不会看错，他是个很深奥的男人，深不可测！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　***********************************************************<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　深冬与深夜，暗沉的湖面层层涟漪，鱼已沉入水底，垂柳仅剩光秃的柳枝在湖面拂过。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　晚上十一点多，无人的校园，我拖着寒冷疲惫的身体回到公寓，一心想泡一杯热牛奶，坐在空调下面抱着被子好好睡一觉，谁知从包里翻钥匙，里里外外翻了个彻底，还是找不到我的钥匙。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我仔细回忆，才想早上走的太匆忙，把钥匙遗忘在公寓的床上。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　那个懊恼啊！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　这个时间公寓办公室早已大门紧闭，不少房间也都熄了灯。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　站在紧锁的公寓门外，我忽然有点想家，想爸爸的严厉，妈妈的唠叨，想趴在我房间可爱的公主床上大哭一场。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我搓搓冻僵的手，不由自主抬头看向旁边的门。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“叶正宸”三个字和他房间亮着的灯，在这样的凄冷的黑夜格外温暖。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我轻轻按了两下门铃，听见一阵脚步声，门开了。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　一阵暖意扑面而来，混合着铁观音的茶香。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他看见是我，有点惊讶。“有事吗？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　当然有事！没事我能三更半夜敲你的门，我又对你没什么企图！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“师兄……”我暗自瞄了一眼他房内，确定没有女人在他这里留宿，才继续说下去。“我的钥匙锁在房间里了。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他领悟能力很快，立刻闪开挡在门前的身体。“进来吧。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他的房间还是那么整洁，被子整齐地铺在床上，电脑合好放在桌角，书桌的正中放着一叠厚厚的日文资料，我扫了资料的题目，大都是关于细菌的……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“坐！”他收起资料，倒了一杯热茶给我。“喝杯茶暖和一下。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“谢谢！”我接过热茶捧在手心里，暖意流遍全身，我试着找点话题，加深一下邻里感情。“这么晚还在看资料？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“嗯。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　看他不想多谈，我也不便多问，干脆直奔主题。“我……想从你的阳台过去。可以吗？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我和叶正宸的露天阳台是一体的，中间只隔了一道高两米多的复合木板，从上面跳过去是我想到的回家的唯一方法。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“阳台？你能过去吗？”他上下打量我，有点质疑。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“应该，没问题！”我放下茶杯，走到阳台，站在二米多高的挡板。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　这么高啊！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我鼓起勇气，挽挽袖子，努力跳高，想用双手抓住木板的顶端，结果试了几次都失败了，好容易有一次抓到，人悬在空中半天，浑身冷汗，根本爬不上去。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我泄气地下来，想让叶正宸帮我搬个凳子，一回头，看见他正用手半遮住嘴，眼睛弯下来，肯定在偷笑。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我囧了。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　尴尬地抓抓头发。“很好笑吗？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“不好笑！”他摇摇头，声音里夹着浓浓的笑意。“要不要我帮忙？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“你行吗？！很高的。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“应该，没问题。”他很可恶地学着我的语气重复一遍我的话。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我站在一旁等着看好戏！哼！这么高，我就不信他能翻过去。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　叶正宸走到阳台，退后一步，半步助跑，跳跃，双手拉住挡板上端，脚蹬了一下阳台的扶栏，借力便顺势翻了过去，干净利落。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我目瞪口呆，傻在原地。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　不是吧，他会武功？！这难道就是传说中的武林高手！ <br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我还没从呆滞的状态中恢复，叶正宸已经从门外回来了。“你的门已经打开来。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“你，你？”我指指阳台的隔板，吞吞口水，“你这样就能过去？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　蓦然，我冒出一个念头，这是哪个白痴设计师设计的阳台，一个男人跳到我家仅仅需要三秒钟。万一我睡着的时候，他图谋不轨，我岂不是很危险！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　色狼不可怕，就怕色狼会武功！<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我那点小心思岂能瞒得过叶正宸那双早已把女人读得通透的慧眼，他立刻领会了我的意思。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“你放心，除非你有特殊需要，否则我会选择走正门。”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“呃……”我脸瞬间红了，明知没用，我仍努力掩饰。“我的意思是……你的身手这么好，是不是练过空手道，跆拳道什么的？”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他牵动嘴角，又露出招牌式的坏笑：“没有！我只练过擒拿……”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“擒拿？！”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“就是那种能轻易把对方制服，让她无法反抗，甚至动弹不得……”他有点暧昧的声音消失在最引人遐想之处。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　他的对白让我一不小心联想到某个黑夜，他突然出现在我的房间，抓住我的手，把我按在床上，我无法反抗，也动弹不得……<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　“呃……”我捂住发烫的脸，低头说：“很晚了，我不打扰你休息了！拜拜！”<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　我红着脸跑出他的房间。<br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" /><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;" />　　寒夜，怎么变得燥热？！</td>

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