06

Held up by Strings

It Felt like everything was going by in a flash.

Today's his funeral.

I don't dare speak his name anymore..

It'll just bring back Memories..

There was no body.. so they just placed a blue flower in the casket and buried it.

He never liked the color blue.

But I made sure..

To keep my smile up and steady.

Touya hates it when I'm sad.

So I won't be Sad Anymore!

This is all for him, All for them.

But they all looked at me in disgust.

What did I do wrong?

I'm sorry.

Is this how it's supposed to be?

My thoughts ran wild.

I felt like puking.

But I couldn't.

Dad just grabbed my arm and threw me into the car as everyone else stayed behind.

Not that he cared.

I was relieved though, they wouldn't have to hear my annoying voice all the time.

———

I've come to figure out that not only can I produce lava but I can make Ice colder then Pluto.

One day I want to freeze myself down to the floor so dad wouldn't bother telling me to stay still when he repeatedly punches my head.

———

I can't move.

I think I lived up to that promise I made a few days ago about freezing my self to the floor.

My toes right up to my thighs are a faded icy blue.

The doctor said that it would never change back and that I might need to be in a wheelchair for a week or so.

I Trained anyways.

Day and night.

Night and Day.

I wonder how long it'll take me to go insane?

———

I heard sobbing coming from moms room.

So I walked in to try and comfort her.

She threw a vase at me.

Now my heads bleeding.

Not that it matters.

I give her a bright smile which seems to calm her down but worry her even more.

I picked up the shards and throw them in a bin before walking out.

I walked back to my room.

I'm just here to make them happy, I'm only a puppet held by strings.