'CHAOS HAS COME AGAIN'

'The girl shattered into pieces'

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I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF the woods digging up a freaking hole to toss the body I killed. I thought killing someone would help me but no. It got worse for me.

They were right I would've regret it the minute I did it but too late. In that second that it happened if felt amazing but afterwards Not anymore.

I took off after that, I didn't tell Jeremy anything and left. The words they kept running in my head hurts me.

I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone.
I killed someone.

I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone. I killed someone.

And I thought I wouldn't care but I did. I heard two footsteps and two scents I recognize coming towards me.

"If you guys come here to lecture me or say I told you so. I'm not in the mood for that." I said to them as I dig up dirt angrily.

"Rory, we didn't." Scott told me as I let out a small whimper.

"I need to bury him." I said looking at the body on the ground.

"I killed him." I let out.

"I should-I should bury him," I said in small cries feeling theirs eyes on me.

They must be scared of me.

I killed someone.

My emotions were all over the place I don't know what to think. I just can't.

"Hey." Stiles said to me walking up feeling his hand against my arm.

"Hey, come on-," Stiles said but I pushed him away from me. I didn't want to hurt more people.

"Don't!" I said to him angrily feeling tears streaming down my face.

"Just don't. Leave," I said to him as I let digging.

"I don't want you to be here, none of you." I said talking to them.

"We are here to help." Scott said making me let out a scoff.

"No." I said.

"This-this is my mess. I'll-I'll- clean it up," I said.

"Rory-," Scott said but I shook my head.

"Scott I said no! I killed him that's on me I don't need you to come here and tell me that it's going to be okay." I said as I stopped digging.

"I killed someone. I did. Not you or Stiles. Me." I said pointing at myself.

"I did- it's my fault. Everything is." I said letting out cries.

"You wanna know why? Because he's dead now." I said to them.

"I-I should've listen to you guys. I-I killed him. I wanted to make her feel what I felt. And so I did." I said to them as everything came back to again.

"I-I killed someone." I said as a had the urge to burst into tears.

"I killed some-," I said as I cried out. I killed someone.

Someone who is innocent and had nothing to do with this. Noting. Just like my aunt. I dropped the shovel and fell on my knees crying.

"Hey, come here." Stiles said as I felt him come towards me and wrapping me around him as I cried.

"I'm so sorry." I cried out.

"I should've listen. I'm so sorry. I-I didn't mean t-to do this." I said between hiccups.

"It's okay." He said.

"No. I killed someone. Someone who had nothing to with this. I killed someone innocent." I cried out wrapping my arms around Stiles.

"I should've stayed in school." I said.

"W-with you two a-and the others." I cried. I fully regret what I did. I now it will haunt me forever.

"Hey." I heard Derek say as I pulled away from Stiles. Derek knelt down and wrapped his arms around me.

"I-I didn't mean to kill him." I cried out.

"I-I just wanted to make her suffer like she did to me-but it didn't feel right." I said to Derek.

"Sh, it's okay. I'm here to help. Everything will be okay." Was all that Derek said to me as I cried out in his shoulder.

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Dear diary,

Today I did the thing I was most afraid of. I lost control. I killed someone. I used to think the worst feeling in the world was loosing someone you loved, but I was wrong. The worst feeling in the moment that you realize you've lost yourself. I thought killing someone wouldn't change the way you are. But I was wrong- it did. Killing a guy who had nothing to do with the supernatural and wasn't even involved died because of something someone else did.

My aunt Jenna died because of me and I thought getting them back would've bought me peace somehow but turns out it didn't it just destroyed me more. I never wanted this to happen. I never wanted to become what I am. I hate it. I hate every second of it.

Everyone is scared of me they don't show it, but I could feel it every time I walk into a room and I just sense the way they tense up. I hate this. I never wanted to become what I am, innocent people die in a crossfire like this and I hate it.

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

The feeling I've been having, the cravings I get when I just want to shove my teeth into an artery and suck every ounce of blood they have and drain them out until they die. That's the feeling I've been having.

That's all I can think about. The woman who made me become this destroyed the human part of me. I would have never think about those stuff but now I do and I can't stop what I think, imagine. It's all I can think about. Killing is just in my head and I can't get it to stop. 

Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing. Killing.

Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood. Blood.

And that's all I think about every single day.

Killing and blood.

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This is a short chapter I didn't know what else to put. But I hope it's good. What do you think about her revenge era? I kinda like it. Enjoy!
Xoxo, your fave😘

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