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The cold breeze of the night hits his face as he takes a deep breath. It's night now and Lisa wishes to have dinner with the kids before going bad. Jungkook admits it wasn't all that bad. He had lived for so long that he doesn't remember how pleasing would it be to stay around kids like that.

It wasn't all that bad to him.

So he doesn't mind waiting till dinner. They are preparing and cooking for dinner but Jungkook didn't bother to join. He doesn't need to eat so why bother joining? He just stood outside the building to get some fresh air for himself.

His mind starts drifting away towards Aera, the little girl, Mother Maria's incarnation. How fates had made them meet once again. When he saw her, he have to admit that his barrier might had fell apart at the moment. Seeing her in front of him once again, bring backs old memory.

It wasn't really nice.

He watches her die and he still remembers it clearly. It hurts, it hurts a lot. He asked himself when he saw her, was meeting her in this life is a blessing? Or another curse so that he could redeem himself for not protecting her before.

A breath left his lips as he look around. However, his peaceful moments didn't last long when a hand tap on his shoulder. He look behind him and saw Lisa with Aera holding her hand in front of him. He just keep silent, telling her to talk.

Lisa look at Aera before turning back towards Jungkook "Uh- We don't know if you would accept it but... Do you want to eat dinner with us? The kids are hoping for you to join but if you don't want, I understand." Lisa asked as Aera nodded cutely in agreement.

Jungkook keeps silent for a moment. He doesn't really like the idea but Aera is looking at him excitedly and he could see that Lisa is actually hoping that he would join them. Suddenly, Jungkook felt he didn't have the heart to say no, so he went to Aera and pick her up.

"Sure, I don't mind." He says and glances at Lisa who smiled upon hearing that from the other. They walk side by side to the dining room and Lisa glance at Jungkook from time to time. Aera is playing with his hair and he doesn't seem bothered at all. Lisa admit, she saw a new side of him today.

A much better side.

He's still cold. He didn't talk much. He still lack a smile but she could see how genuine he is with the kids. He cares, she knows but something is stopping him from sharing his emotion and she doesn't know what. Whatever is the reason, she's happy that she managed to help him open up even for a bit.

Soon, they reach the dining room and the children are already sitting in their seats as they wait patiently for the two to come. Jungkook placed Aera down so that she could go to her seat but Aera hold his palm and pull him with her. He was surprised when she make him seat in the middle of the dining table.

Aera sat beside him and Lisa sit in front of him. Lisa forms a wide smile "Now, we need to celebrate making new friends with Jungkook Oppa! We cooked for him and let's celebrate it!" She says happily as the kids cheers when she said that.

Jungkook looks around, did these mortals really celebrate making friends? He asked himself in confusion. Aera suddenly offer him a cupcake "It's for you kookie Oppa! Aera made it with Lisa Unnie!" She says as Jungkook looks at the cupcake.

The design looked messy, probably because it's Aera who decorate it. Jungkook finds himself accepting the cupcake and staring at it. Seeing the cupcake in his hand, a cupcake that a person made for him, Jungkook felt another emotion.

What is this?

He almost forgot this feeling. So warm and so caring. So lovely and so comforting. A feeling that he had never felt for 100 thousand years. He lifts his gaze and looks at the children and at Aera as his gaze end on Lisa. Right... He remembers this feeling.

The feeling of having a family.

For the first time in 100 thousand years, someone reminds him of this feeling. It felt so overwhelming. It felt too much. Lisa widen her eyes when she saw Jungkook's lips curving upwards. He smiled for the first time.

The smile was so bright and genuine from him. "I like it, Thank you." He whispers and smiled at everyone as he turns to Aera and pats her head "Thank you, dear." He says in a soft voice as he pulls the girl into a hug. Hugging this little girl, Jungkook admits, he could still feel the warmth of mother Maria.

That night, they eat dinner together. Even Jungkook eats with them, although he doesn't eat much, he still forces himself to eat because he doesn't have the heart to reject the food since they had cooked for him. The dinner was so warm and happy.

Lisa could see it herself. How easy for him to show them his smile tonight but Lisa does notice something. She notices the sadness behind the smile. To her, Jungkook is smiling in pain. She could see the tears in his eyes that hadn't fallen. She felt it.

Loneliness.

Her thought was cut off when he stood up and suddenly left without saying anything because the children are already too absorbed in laughing with each other. Lisa want to go after him but she was stopped by one of the kids that want to ask her for some help.

Not being able to ignore, she glance at Jungkook's figure that had disappeared from her sight. A sigh left her lips as she turn back to the kids to help them.

•••••

Jungkook enter his bedroom and went straight to his bathroom. He went to the toilet bowl and suddenly throw up. Everything that he eat just now left his body as he throw everything up. He clenches his fist as he tries to hold the pain his body is feeling.

After a good 5 minutes, he finally stop vomiting everything. He fell to the ground as heavy lips left his lips with his hand clenching his stomach. He stares at the wall in front of him with an empty gaze.

That's when tears slide down his cheek. The next thing he knows, the tears start falling out like an endless waterfall. He bit his bottom lips as he close his eyes, stopping himself from making any noise at all.

One thing about Jungkook is that he can't eat anything else except for his soul. His body can't accept any food or else his body will be in so much pain. That's why Jungkook never eats but today he did because he missed the feeling of eating together with someone.

Being the Demon Alpha, stop him from having families and friends. He can't eat with them. He can't be with them and he can't share his emotions with them. It frustrates him and it makes him feel so...

Lonely

Jungkook brings his knee to the chest. Hugging himself and turning himself into a ball. He needs to stop himself. He knows that all of this frustration and sadness he felt will trigger negative energy. He has to lock it so that he won't hurt anyone, especially the children and...

Lisa.

With that being told to himself. He flutters his eyes close as he comforts himself. No one was really there to comfort him. So all he could do is comfort himself.

•••••

Lisa stood at the balcony of her room as she rub her arm, wanting to warm herself up in the cold and windy night. If you ask her, today is quite overwhelming. She doesn't know how to feel about everything. If people watch them from afar.

It was so happy. Very, very happy. She admits it, she felt the happiness herself but deep in that happiness, there's sadness, disappointment, loneliness, and more. So negative. As if it was bottled up for so long, that it become pitch black. She can't see it but she can feel it.

Lisa's thought was cut off when the cold breeze hit her once again. She hugged herself, why is it so cold tonight? Unlike any other night, the coldness just makes everything feel more gloomy than it already is. Lisa suddenly stops blabbing to herself.

"Gloomy..." She trailed off as she glance to her left, where Jungkook's room is. The sliding was tightly closed and his room was totally dark with no hint of light at all. Lisa look away and shake her head "what are you thinking Lisa?" She asked herself.

She lowkey thought that maybe, Jungkook's emotion could affect the weather but that's ridiculous though. She thought to herself as she lift her gaze and stare at the full moon that are shining so bright tonight as she ask herself.

"Why am I feeling like this?"

•••••

The fact that I know... It hurt more than expected.

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