•31/05/17•

There's something I need to get off my chest, Mysterious.

For most of my life I always felt like I had to wear this mask because people see me as this beacon of hope. I didn't mean for it to end up this way, but it did. It got to that point where people always came to me to fix them, and when I needed fixing they would just turn away. Because seeing an unhappy Hoseok was alien to them.

You're different though, I think. I feel like you're the type to be there for me even when I fall. So, I want to share this secret with you.

I'm not happy. I know it may seem like it when I write these letters to you but I'm not okay. Really, I'm a crying mess. I'm so lonely. I want you to be real but what if my hope isn't enough to will you into my reality?

I want to be scolded by Jin with you because of a misunderstanding and get embarrassed. I want to write songs with you under the shade of a tree. I want to hold your hand secretly and accidentally fall over you again like we always do. And have the best laughs.

I want you. I want you, Mr Mysterious.

I hate being lonely so much.

Where are you?

Sincerely,
Jung Hoseok