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THE bright blue sky slowly transitioned to a gloomy grey, as rain started to fall down onto the white tent. y/n admired the rain but that didn't mean she wanted it on her wedding day. matt stood there. he had his speech prepared and he wanted to say it right then and there. he panicked, quickly grabbing a fork and hitting it four times on the glass.

everyone at the tables all turned around to look at him yet he was still only staring at her. "e-everyone, i want to make a toast." matt said. she held onto her husband a little tighter as she watched her best friend walk out of the tent to get poured on. she chuckled a little to herself. matt was always such a goof and his mission was to make her laugh.

he reached his hands out and looked up, letting the rain fall onto him. "if you all already don't know, i am deeply in love with the rain." he giggled, as he quickly started getting drenched at every second he was out out of the tent. the crowd laughed in unison.

"as i was saying —- i-i first wanted to say congratulations. congratulations to y/n and ben" matt said. he noticed she gave ben a little kiss when he said those words. he awkwardly coughed.

"y/n, i am so happy for you." he smiled. at this moment, he was thankful that no one could tell if it were tears or just the rain gliding down his cheeks.

"i-i remember.. the third grade. i was by myself on the swings while everyone was with their friends. you knew i was new and i was shy." he paused for a second.

"yet you still had the heart to walk up to me, and you stood by my side. that's, that's when i knew you were going to be my best friend forever." he admitted. you could tell everyone at their tables were touched by his words.

his hands were shaking a little, holding onto this wet piece of paper, "and then fifth grade came around. oh god, when i started to have a crush on you."

y/n kept staring at matt, a little pout present on her face with glossy eyes however her hands on top of ben's at the bride and grooms table. "you didn't know and i wanted to keep it that way because i knew you only liked me as a best friend. i-i remember knowing that i would rather keep it a secret" he added, his voice cracking towards his last words.

"s-sorry, i'm getting carried away." he said. "and to ben, i could tell how great you guys are together. i can tell you make y/n happy and that's all i ever truly wanted for my best friend." he sighed, looking down at the now half crumbled note filled with all his thoughts and love towards her. he knew he shouldn't say half the things that were written on it. and so he didn't, and stopped there. he knew it was selfish of him to keep going.

"anyways —- to y/n and ben!" he cheered, lifting up his champagne glass. everyone repeated. she looked at him before leaning in to kiss her husband.

matt looked at the newly couple, and he smiled. that's all he ever really did. smiled through the pain. he was used to it.

one of ben's friends started to get up from his chair to begin his speech and that's when matt walked away from the tent while everyone started to move their focus off of him.

he wandered off, stopping at a beautiful pond with lily pads spread sporadically. but, this wasn't just any pond to matt. it was the pond where y/n and matt shared their first kiss ten years ago.

they were fifteen at the time, the best of friends. however something happened that day between them. it was almost magical. at least that's how matt viewed it. they both were sitting by the edge of the water and their eyes connected at just the right time, and that is when they both leaned in to kiss each other.

oh how matt enjoyed every bit of that moment. replaying it in his head, looking down at the exact place they were once before. he brought his hand up slowly, letting his fingers lightly brush against his lips. as if he could feel hers on his again.

to y/n, that was probably just an in the moment kiss. to matt, it was what he was earning for years, from the start of their friendship that began in the third grade.

"matty, what you doing out here?" chris shouted, walking towards him. matt quickly turns around to look at him while he is sitting down.

"how'd you know i was out here?" matt questioned. chris now joining him right by the edge of the pond. it still was drizzling but it was like chris and matt weren't effected by being absolutely drenched. 

"you're my brother. i know you more than i know myself." chris replied. matt smiled just a little, enough for chris to see his dimples appear.

"you know when i found out y/n was having her wedding in this area, i instantly thought of this pond. you.. and her. you wouldn't stop talking about this place to me for years." chris admitted, lightly pressing his elbow on matt's shoulder. matt nodded, staring out at the water.

silence was shared between them, only hearing fainted music from the wedding from afar, and the sound of rain hitting the water.

"fuck." matt groaned, his face almost melting into his hands as his head was down towards the ground.

"it hurts." matt mumbled out. "it hurts to see my best friend marry someone else. i thought it was going to be me."

chris brings him into his embrace while rubbing his back slightly. "i know matt.. i'm sorry." chris whispered. he felt so much sympathy and pain for his brother. it crushed him to see him like this.

"hey, let's go back though. people are going to start asking where we wandered off to, okay?" chris said, matt lightly nodded in agreement and they both got up.

"it's all going to be okay.." chris whispered to matt, putting his arm over his shoulder.

as they both walked away from the pond, heading back towards the wedding. matt turned his head just one more time. one more time to look at the pond, knowing this would be his last.

matt kept walking away, as he thought to himself, ——
it's hard to wait for something you know might not happen. but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want.

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