Trigger Warning: This chapter has depictions of attempted suicide. Proceed with caution.

Mia sighs with content as she feels the warm coffee go down her throat and clear her mind. She hears cheers in the living room. Mia passes all the dancing people and looks as everyone starts passing the card around with their lips. She tilts her head and smiles softly as she looks at Hannah and Clay sitting there while Justin and Jessica crush them. As Justin gets the card passed to him he spits it out and crashes his lips onto Jessica's. They fall on top of Clay and he leans into Hannah. Mia laughs as she sees this happen.

Clay and Hannah leave the room. Mia walks over to Jeff and taps him on the shoulder. "Miss Walker?" He says smiling up at her. Mia beams brightly at him and grabs his hand, "I think that... you and I should hit the keg stand." Mia states as she pulls him up. Jeff stands and opens his mouth to protest but Mia places a finger over his mouth. He gives her a closed mouth smile.

"And when I mean 'hit the keg stand' I mean watch as others try and kill my record. You in?" Mia asks with her eyebrows raised. Jeff chuckles and Mia takes her finger off of his mouth and he nods his head and takes her hand. "With you by my side? Baby, I'm always in."

"I understand. Of course. Got it. Thank you." The lady hangs up the phone and sighs. "Principal Bolan feels, given your spotless record and your role in the school community, that a three-day suspension will suffice." She states. Mia nods her head, "That sounds reasonable..." Mia says picking at her nails.

"As long as you sign up for the drug deferral program at the police station." She adds. Mia rolls her eyes and nods her head, "Yes ma'am, can I go now?" She questions. "I would also like it, if you come to Mr. Porter's office everyday even on the day's you're suspended for. Just to talk to him." She adds more, ignoring Mia's last question.

"Mia, why is this happening?" Mr. Porter asks. Mia looks up a him and feels herself subconsciously tighten her jaw. "What do you mean?" She asks him.

"You were a straight A student, and now...Mia..." Mr. Porter shakes his head and Mia chuckles.

"Shit happens. Mr. Porter, not everyone stays the same. They want to be left alone, they want to be different, they want to brood and be their worthless selves that don't deserve any happiness." Mia says as she pushes her finger nails into her palms. Mr. Porter un folds his arm and relinquishes his angry demeanor.

"Mia, who are you referring to?" Mr. Porter inquires. Mia exhales and looks down at her nails to keep the from seeing her tears brimming her eyes. She wipes her face and inhales.

"I-I-I wasn't--"

"Mia, who sold you the drugs?" The lady asks. Mia feels her walls immediately come back up and she shakes her head and chuckles. "Who ever said someone sold me the drugs?" Mia raises one of her eyebrows and leans back in her chair.

Mia walks out of the office, Skye and Mia look at each other for a second before she leaves to walk home.

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Mia and Jeff laugh as they talk to Zach. They spot Clay walking out of the house and Mia looks up at Jeff with worry. "Clay, hey..." Mia sets down her cup of coffee and runs over to him. Clay looks at her as he pulls his jacket over his shoulders. "You leaving?" Mia huffs out as she looks at him. Clay nods his head, "Uh, yeah, I kind of am." He says with disappointment.

"Looked like shit was happening for you in there." Jeff states. Mia nods her head in agreement.

"Did it?" Clay said with pain. Mia felt pressure on her chest as she felt bad for Clay in that moment.

"Didn't it?" Jeff retorts.

"I don't know, guys. I just...I don't ever know...anything." He says sadly.

Mia changes her sad face to a happy one. She inhales and wraps her arm around Jeff's neck. "That's why you got this guy." Mia states. She raises her brows and points at herself, "That's why you got me, too. We both know, okay?" Mia says with a small smile.

Jeff nods his head, "Yeah and what ever happened in there. Just give her a minute, then go back inside and just find her." Jeff states.

Clay quietly scoffs, "I'm going home." He states.

Mia walks forward and grabs his arm, "Just, come hang out with us for awhile. Okay?" She asks.

"Yeah, I'm going on a beer run soon, come with me." He says. Mia rolls her eyes, "Even though I asks you if I could go and you said you would, 'Be back in a flash,'" Mia says with a snort.

"I am, I just don't want you to miss out on the party as I'm going to get refreshments." Jeff states.

"You're driving?" Clay questions.

"It's Coca-Cola, my friend. Two beers, two hours ago. I'm good."  Jeff states. Mia smiles and raises her brows.

"No, no. Thanks Jeff. I'm gonna...take a long walk home and consider the wreckage that is my life." Clay states. Mia pouts her lip and gives him a sympathetic smile. "You're a funny dude, Clay." Jeff says with a smile.

"So, I've been told. See you both Monday?" He questions. Mia and Jeff nod their heads. "yeah, of course." Mia answers. Jeff walks into the house and Mia grabs Clay's arm and turns him around again.

"Hey, Clay...I'm really sorry that things didn't work out with Hannah..." Mia bites the inside of her cheek.

Clay sighs, "Yeah, well...I tried, y'know?" He shrugs his shoulders.

"I'm telling you that whatever happened and whatever didn't happen..." Mia shakes her head and trying to think. "It happened for a reason. It just takes time." Mia rubs his arm.

Clay gives her a small smile. "Thank you, Mia. Really." He says with sincerity.

Clay walks off and Mia sighs as she goes to grab her coffee again with a sigh. Mia sees Jeff walking out of the house and he walks over to her. Mia looks up at him and smiles, "Are you sure, you don't want me to come with you?" She asks with her eyebrows raised. Jeff chuckles, he cups her cheek and traces her jawline with his thumb.

"You know, you really are sweet, but...stay here, I'll be back before you know it, alright?" He asks with a small smile. Mia nods her head and he kisses her lips. "Afterwards we can hang out at my house, okay? Maybe watch a movie...Lord of the Rings, your favorite?" he starts to walk away. Mia watches as Jeff leaves and she inhales as she feels a burden on her shoulders. She couldn't help but feel like she wanted him to stay with her.

Mia places her hand over her mouth and shouts, "Jeff!" Mia yells. Jeff turns to her and smiles, "I love you!" He yells at her. Mia laughs and yells back, "I love you too, Charming!" They both laugh as Jeff gets into the car and drives away. Mia keeps her smile on her face as she looks down at her shoes and turns around to see Zach with a big grin on her face.

She scoffs and looks at him, "What?" She asks with the same big smile on her face. Zach shakes his head. "You two are so fucking cute, you know that?" He states. Mia inhales as she feels a lump form in her throat.

"Thanks Zach." She says nodding her head.

"I mean, I always thought it was going to be you and Clay, but..." Zach points down the street to Jeff's car.

Mia snorts, "Me and Clay? Actually?" She questions him. Zach nods his head and Mia laughs and lightly shoves him. "You are hilarious, Dempsey!" She walks back inside and enjoys the rest of the night before one of the tragedies of her life struck.

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Mia was laughing with her friends as she felt her phone vibrate. She looks down at her phone and sets down her coffee she raises her brows in curiosity and answers the phone. "Clay? Hey, what's up?" She asks.

"Mia...th-there was an accident with Jeff, I already called the 911 they're on their way, but--"

"Wh-What?" Mia barely gets out as she feels her body starts to shake. "Wh-Wh-Where...where are you?" Mia asks.

Clay gives her the information and Mia quickly gets up and uses her shaky hands to grab her purse and she wipes her shaky mouth. "Sh-Shit..." She whispers. She looks around and spots her brother.

"Bryce..." Mia calls out. He doesn't hear her so she roughly turns him around. "Give me your car."  She orders.

Bryce looks at her and laughs, "Fuck you, where's yours?" He asks with a smile.

Mia wipes the tears from her eyes and Bryce gets serious. "Mia, what's wrong?" He asks. Mia shakes her head and shoves him away. She runs out of the house and runs down the street and tries to not think about the worst. She sees all of her memories with Jeff go through her mind and she feels herself start to sob uncontrollably as she gets to the scene of the accident.

She needed to know he was okay, he had to be okay. For everyone in his life, his smile made everything brighter, just his presence was enough for anyone. It was enough for her.

Mia looks at the cops and the cars. She gasps as she sees Jeff's car smashed. "Jeff? Jeff!" Mia calls out. Clay looks at her with puffy eyes he walks over to her.

"Mia--"

"Clay, where's Jeff?" She asks him. Clay looks into her blue eyes and Mia shakes her head. "S-S-Stop looking at me like that...Where is he, please?" She sobs. She sees them rolling a yellow bag from Jeff's car and she inhales and starts to walk forward, but Clay holds her back. "Mia, I'm so sorry..." Clay whispers with pain.

Mia sobs loudly as her and Clay fall to the ground together. She feels her whole world coming to an end. Because was her world, she couldn't breathe or laugh, she couldn't feel anything. Her way of living was gone, and it just keeps getting worse.

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Mia looks off into space as she hears muffled talking come from Mr. Porter. "Miss Walker?"

Her hearing bursts into her ears. And she closes her eyes as she feels a tear roll down her cheek. "I'm sorry, Mr. Porter...I didn't hear what you were saying..." She says quietly. Mr. Porter grabs the tissues and hands them to her. She quietly thanks him and grabs one to wipe her tears.

"I was asking if you were sure you wanted to be back at school right now?" He asks. Mia looks up at him and looks into his eyes.

"No, I'm not...but, I don't want to stay at home and have this memory keep coming into my mind...I just need to focus on something else..." Mia says shaking her head.

"I actually think that you should talk about it--"

"I would love to, Mr. Porter really. But, I've been doing fine without talking my entire life, I-I-I don't want to start now..." Mia stands up and walks out of his office. She hears the whispers and feels the eyes on her as she walks down the hallway. She inhales and goes to her locker. She opens it and stops as she stares at the picture she had inside with Jeff kissing her on the cheek.

Mia starts to feel everything drown out, until she hears a soft voice. "Mia."

Mia snaps her head over and looks at the short haired, brunette girl. "Hannah..." Mia says as she still can't think straight. Mia notices Hannah crying and she sighs. "Are you, okay?" Mia asks.

Hannah wanted to say something, but she just tried to talk to Clay and he snapped at her. Imagine what Mia would do? She couldn't lose Mia, she was like a sister to her. "I'm just...really...sorry about what happened, Mia. And if you need me, for ANYTHING know that I'm here for you, always and forever." Hannah says to her strongly.

Mia feels her lip quiver and she inhales. "Th-Than..." she tries to control her breathing and she looks down at her shoes and closes her eyes. "Thank you...Hannah, really." She says nodding her head. They both hug and Mia quietly cries into her best friend's shoulder.

Mia hears the doorbell and she looks from her tequila to the door and sighs. She gets up and stumbles. She stands there for a few seconds and shakes her head she hears the door start to get banged on and she groans. "WILL YOU PLEASE CHILL THE FUCK OUT--" Mia swings the door open and looks at the person in front of her. "Clay? What are you doing here?--" Clay shoves past her and walks in. Mia raises her brows, "Come on in, bud. It's alright." She says sarcastically.

She stands in front of Clay and He turns to look at her. She can tell that he was burdened with something and she tilts her head. "Clay, What's wrong?--"

"You could've stopped it." He states. Mia looks at him and raises one of her eyebrows "Could've stopped, what?" Mia asks confused.

"You could've stopped, Hannah!" Clay yells.

Mia feels her stomach turn and she steps back and closes the door to the house. "I-I-I'm sorry, what did you--Why would you...why would you say that?!" Mia says loudly.

Clay scoffs, "Am I Wrong?! I mean, I've been going through this whole process and yet...Every second I heard that you were always there for her. You were there to listen to her problems. The only person she ever told and yet...you never did a damn thing!--"

"Clay, you don't know what you're talking about. I tried to help--"

"Yeah, by what? Punching Marcus in the face? Or raising your voice a tiny bit at Alex? Give me a fucking break Mia!" He yells with laughter mixing his voice.

"I did everything I could to--"

"HANNAH WAS YOUR BEST FUCKING FRIEND AND YOU DIDN'T DO SHIT!" Clay yells at her and Mia closes her eyes as she feels her mind go back to John.

"Stop--"

"Why should I, huh? You know I'm right..." Clay shakes his head and looks at her. "This is fucking pathetic, you try and act like this tough popular girl, but the second someone tells you the truth or fucking helps you, you close your eyes and try to wish them away?" Clay wipes his eyes and Mia looks up at him with tears welled up in her furious ones.

"Get out." Mia says quietly.

Clay looks at her, "What--"

"GET THE FUCK OUT, NOW!" Mia yells.

Clay looks at her for a second as she breathes heavily and scoffs. He brushes past her and opens the door. Clay stops and looks back at her. "I can't believe Hannah ever got you as a best friend..." Clay says ashamed. He slams the door, Mia flinches then shakes her head.

She tangles her hands into her hair and falls to her knees. "I-I-I didn't know...How was I supposed to know? God! Fuck me!" She yells and punches the floor over and over again until she sees red liquid stain the floor. She looks down at her knuckles and inhales.

"Such a fucking disappointment..." She whispers to herself. She quickly gets up and walks over to grab her tequila bottle. "You worthless, sack of shit..." She whispers more things about herself as she walks upstairs into her brother's room.

She looks through his drawers until she finds his secret stash of Oxy. She walks out of his room and takes a seat on her bed. Mia opens the bottle and pours all the pills in her mouth.

This was bound to happen at some point in your life. Now you're just speeding up the process.

Mia looks down at the tequila bottle as she drinks, more tears run down her face. She tilts her head back and drinks most of the tequila in the bottle as she drinks away all her pain and grief in her life. Mia feels all her friends go down her throat, wipes her mouth and sobs as she lays down on her bed and shakes her head.

'Good girl'

Mia feels herself start to hyperventilate and she sees her vision start to blur and she closes her eyes slowly as she passes out.

'Sweet dreams'