Changbin was sitting next to Felix in silence, they weren't talking to each other.

"So, Changbin, right? How is it going with the songs?"
Felix's father said and took a sip of his wine.
"Yeah Changbin, any love song about my brother~?"
Felix's sister asked cupping her face.

"U-Uh–"
Changbin started to blush and got nervous about it.
"It's not an appropriate question!" Felix said slightly raising his voice.

"Felix! Don't raise your voice to your sister!! Never again!"
His mother said pointing her finger at Felix.
He scoffed and angrily got up and went upstairs to his room.

"*sigh* sorry Changbin...I thought it could be a nice dinner all together–"

"There is no need to be sorry. I'll go upstairs and see how he is..." Changbin got up and went upstairs too.

...

Changbin opened the bedroom door and slightly knocked on it
"Lix...–"

"Don't call me that!! I said I hate it!!"
Felix stopped hugging his pillow and threw it aside.
He was crying...
Changbin got into the room and closed the door behind him.

"Don't come near me I don't want you"
Felix put a hand in front of him, and Changbin stopped and sat on the ground looking up at Felix.

"Am I really a problem in your life?"

Felix thought for a second and then answered
"y-yes you are".

At that, Changbin slowly got up and went closer to Felix and ruffled his hair with a smile, then turned around and went out of the room leaving a confused Felix sitting on his bed.

...

"Oh Changbin what–"

Changbin took out a bank check and a pen and wrote something on it, and left it on the kitchen table.

"Well, I will give the rest of the money in a month. Hope you will be fine"
Changbin smiled and opened the door, to go outside but he got stopped by Felix's mother.

"B-But what is this? Y-You mean that-"

"Yeah, sorry, this ends here. But call if there is any money problem ok?" Changbin smiled and went out of the door, closing it behind him.
It was snowing...

'How much I would have liked to take Lix on the snow with me...
Hope he will find someone he truly loves...'
Changbin thought looking up at the dark sky and little snowflakes falling on his face.

——————

Felix's mom rushed to her son's room and found him hugging his legs on the bed
"Felix. Can you tell me what happened with Changbin!?"

"H-Huh? I don't–"

"He left a bank check to us, and said that he will give us the rest of the money later! What does it mean!?"

Felix was just staring at his mother, not getting what she was saying, but he got a weird feeling and then quickly got up and went to his room window.

He saw Changbin, slowly walking up to his car, with his hands in his pants pockets. He took out a little packet and pulled out of it one cigarette, it has been three years since Changbin had a cigarette. He stopped smoking because of Felix and even drinking.

Changbin stopped outside and leaned on his car with his back and smoked his cigarette, looking like he was waiting for something to arrive...or maybe someone...

"Felix! Can you answer me!?"
His mother kept yelling at her son who was still not paying attention.

Felix saw Changbin patting on his knees and sighing, he got in the car and started it.
When Felix heard the car he immediately ran out of his room and his house with no shoes on.

'He left...he really left...'
Felix was smiling happily and jumping around, finally, he got rid of that jerk!...
But...why does he feel like crying...?
Between all the smiles and laughs of happiness...even some tears began to stream down his face... and they became more and more, making his sight blurry, and falling on his knees...

——————

'Come on Bin keep your cool up...! You faced worse'
Changbin drove off from Felix's home and went to his apartment.
He parked his car and opened the door, closing it with his foot.

He walked into the little hallway and placed down his bag.

After not even a minute he broke down crying wiping his tears but they kept flowing down from his eyes.
He rubbed his eyes and face so much that it turned red, and his sleeves were humid in his tears.

'Damn it, not even when my mom called me a disappointment I felt like this...'

Five minutes passed and finally he stopped crying, he got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face. He splashed water on his face and slicked his hair back with wet hands.

He looked up at the little clock that he had on the wall in his bathroom and it was midnight
'I should start to think to go to sleep...'
Changbin thought taking off his jacket and unbuttoning his shirt. He then took off his belt and threw those clothes on the sofa.

He opened the door that led to his bedroom, which he used to share with Felix.
He looked at the empty bed, at the two pillows, one with a black pillowcase and one with a light pink one...

Changbin sat on the edge of the bed and put his hands in his hair
'Ha...why I never saw how different we are...'
He looked back and grabbed the pillow with the pink pillowcase and hugged it, burying his face in it and starting to cry again.

"I miss you already...come back...let's be together for real...I'll make you fall for me for real this time..."

...

"Be my boyfriend Felix...damn you that made me this weak..."