Today is the day where I want to say thank you to everyone who tried to be nice to me and try to know me and somehow support me I'm speechless because I socialize with new people and I'm kind of insane about it *Smile*

I think nobody knows what happened to me and how my previous stories went through. But every book I published is from the sake of my heart I don't like it when I don't include emotions and add it on my books cause they say if you want your book to be successes you need to put in some emotions, love and to make the story look real!.

Back to flashback
You remember my previous chapter and how I dated a boy named Ali I didn't continue the conversation because we switch from Instagram to Whatsapp (since I got a lot of people asking me about my WhatsApp number but unfortunately I don't use Whatsapp a lot All my time is on that app:
Instagram 
Wattpad,
Facebook

We switched to WhatsApp and we start talking but suddenly he sends me that he is sleepy and he needs to fall asleep so I told him: Goodnight sweet dreams'
He sends me:"*heart emoji*
The next morning it went so fast he told me about his previous relationship and I told him about mine but I think not everyone knows what I have been through but I will give you guys a glimpse (I used to date a boy and I was so addicted to him but I noticed by his action he was changing so so ops! sorry I was crying, Anyhow, he offered me to send him some shitty things and he asked me to do some sex with him but in our religion its wrong cause it's haram. Back to the point, the thing that makes me hated him more is that he was doing sexual harassment I was trying so hard to push him away but I couldn't he was pushing me so hard that I couldn't even handle his aggressive moves on me is like I was trapped I don't want to talk about it just some people don't know anything so I decided to open the topic ...*sad*

We started to know each other slowly but you know sometimes they say if you want to love someone let him know you first, And the next day let him know what you like? What you dislike? Then the next day let him know what your favorite games are? The last thing tells him about your relationship... this time I will talk about the real talk!

I know I have known a lot of girls/boys have been through something but I never thought that they will be in the same position as mine but being hurt is something feels like a hurricane has swept you away from the world I know how those aches that stab you in the chest makes you feel like you aren't worthy anymore and how you trusted her /him so badly but you got hurt in the end.

If you guys see any repeated words try not to think about it because when I write I write while I'm crying. Anyhow, I want to say that I have been through a lot and I have been through rough times I used to get bullied and how boys always laugh at me try to act stupid around me and the most dislike habit is when they lie to their teachers that they didn't do anything to me but too bad they did!!!.

However, all my exes where liars they didn't know how to treat me, they used me they tried to do sexual things even though I put my faith in them.

Back to my point about my recent love
Ali and I have shared a lot of stuff but I never thought I will be that girl who will share his dream and his lifestyle. I remember when he said that 3 words to me but I wasn't yet ready about dating him but I don't know what happened something inside me let me test if he is going to handle my mood but turn out different this how it's went

Ali: Hey
Raneem:" hey"'
Ali; "How are you "?
Raneem: "I'm good and what about you?
Ali: "I'm good too".
Raneem: "I want to tell you something but I don't know how to start this"
Ali *speak*

My words: "You are the worst boy I have ever seen and I don't know why I start talking with you and how you hurt me so bad it's obvious that you don't love me you just like to talk with girls and I know you are lying about loving me I hate you so much I wish I never know you .....P.s I don't know what I was thinking just I was scared and broken and mostly he didn't text me all night and he sees my message put me on seen but no response I saw him liking other girls pictures that's why I get overreacts.

If you all know what happened just stay tuned for more update ☺
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